Mentality

Hola people,

There are a few things that I feel like are worthy to be shared here. so without any delay, here they are

1. Driving with Grab

So basically it has been about 2-3 weeks that I have been driving for Grab and I have experienced some things, maybe not much, but I gotta say that I have concluded that I cannot do this full time.

huhu I should've known, right? Well, I think I knew but its really about experiencing it first hand that u will know for sure..

so I will share a lil bit hot its like driving for Grab. To be honest, its not really bad, especially when it comes to earning the money.. but u gotta be driving long hours, also be willing to get stuck in traffic during peak hours.

I would usually start at 7am, an break at 12 noon, then resume at 2 until 5 or 6pm, depending on my mood and energy. On average, we can earn about rm200 a day after deduct the cost for petrol and commissions from Grab.
Driving for Grab is good if you're doing it part time, or you only want to do it temporarily. it definitely is not something that I wish to do forever.

2. Financial Freedom Mentality

This is actually the real reason that made me want to write a post tonight.
its like a revelation, or a realization that came to me while I was driving grab one day.
Being Financially independent is everyone's dream. not having to go to work, but still able to maintain your life expenses.

Having this dream is not wrong, but it could be damaging to some people.
It could lead to you becoming extremely lazy and unmotivated for work.

I was first made aware and began to dream of being financially independent in 2016 when I was working for Sapura. it began when I first started to be involved with Forex investment (which made me lose a big chunk of my saving).
For several months the Forex thing was going well where I could get about USD1000 every month, and I thought that it could actually replace my job in paying the bills etc.

I started to become very unmotivated to work, and lazy to do my job.
its like an illness that was harming my mind slowly from the inside.
and that laziness stayed with me even after I left Sapura and worked with IQL.

after doing Grab for a few weeks, I feel like this kind of mentality is very damaging and it has cost me quite a lot and I need to get rid of it.
I am not sure if getting rid of it is easy, but at least I have realized it now and I do not wish to be consumed by the thought of not having to work for a living.
I realize now that working is important, not just for the money to pay the bills, but also for your self development at the very least, it will prevent me from becoming a lazy and unmotivated person. well here is hoping,

but above all, I have God to thank for making me realize, be grateful to for all that He has given me, also Him to ask from for everything that I will get in my life in the future, insyallah

3. MLM Business

I believe every person around my age must have had the experience of being approached by a family member, or an old friend, or an acquaintance that you hardly know and be invited to join an MLM business

I certainly have.. and I have always had this mindset where MLM is bad, and at the back of my mind I dislike it and wish that I will never have to deal with it again.
but..
things can change.. I think its unfair to have that kind of mindset to condemn all MLM businesses.
at the very least, we should first offer the benefit of the doubt, to listen about the business, give chance and space for the person inviting you to the business to explain, then make judgement. Surely its never a must join thing. I think its only fair to listen and understand how the business is before deciding anything.

sometimes the one thing that you dislike and wish to be kept away from are the very thing that you need to the most in your life.
what I am saying is, that we should be fair and give chance for this type of business. You never know, right?

4. Job Offer Kuantan

To make things short, I have got a job offer from a local company recently as an Instrumentation Engineer, I was interviewed by the Managing Director and he actually offered me by the end of the interview. Maybe he was impressed by my communication skills, or maybe by my academic results.
maybe a little bit of both.

The pay is not bad.
but the catch is that he mentioned that I will be working at sites in Kuantan for about 6 months.
its for the BASF PETRONAS petrochemical plant project.
I don't have all the infos yet actually. I told him that I will tell him my decision of whether to accept the job or not by this Wednesday 24/1/2018.
I have talked about it with my wife, and we agree that I should take the job if I didn't get any other offer by next week.


5.Job interview

I have a job interview tomorrow for a UPS company, Vertiv. co. I suppose its quite a famous UPS company, one that I dreamed to join when I was working w PWS back in 2012.

for some reasons, I don't have that dream anymore.. well, what can I say, things have changed.
The HR actually sent me some notes for me to study coz she said there will be an assessment after the interview to test my technical knowledge.
I have gone thru the notes but not thoroughly. Maybe I will continue to study the notes after I completed this blog post. Maybe.. huhu

I am actually very tired however coz this evening I went to taman layang2 kepong w my wife and Ukail and I jogged and rode a bike
I needed to keep my fitness level up to prepare for the PTD assessment this coming Thursday& Friday.

Owh God I have a busy week. On Tuesday I have an appointment to do skin analysis w a consultant for my skin condition that has deteriorated.

I pray that itll go smoothly and my skin condition will get better, insyallah

6. Family

I felt the urge to talk about how disappointed I felt towards my family earlier when I was in wangsa maju, more precisely towards my nieces and nephews but now I feel like its really no point to do that.
they are still my family and hopefully things will be better next time when I come home to wangsa maju

another thing is that, my wan(grandmom) passed away on 16/1/2018. My mother's mother..
I don't know why but I am not sad or devastated by her passing. I feel like it is something that everyone could have expected. She was 93 years old.
I hope that people will not misunderstand me, but my wan was very old and had had a good life and her passing is probably something good for her, this is my opinion.
I was actually very close to my wan and I loved her, so please don't get me wrong that I do not feel devastated. I will however keep her in my prayers insyallah..

so I guess that's all for now.. I need to do some reading before calling it a night.. and hopefully my interview goes well tomorrow..

later~~

Tahun Baru

Hi All,

Honestly I am not sure why I put Tahun Baru as the title of this post, truthfully I don't have much to talk about the new year, I suppose its because I am writing this on 1st of Jan 2018, so the title Tahun Baru kinda makes sense..

I have several things on my mind that I would like to share it.
without further delay I will get to them 1 by 1

1. A new phase in my life

So basically I think a new phase is whats best to describe what I will be going thru starting from tomorrow, cuz starting tomorrow I will be unemployed. Well technically I have been unemployed since last Friday, being my last day working for IQL. and as I have mentioned in my previous post this is a terrifying situation to be in, and also worrisome.. I am worried almost all of the time, thinking how am I going to provide for the family if I am unemployed.

I know that I have given it a thought and I plan to do uber /grab for now while looking for the opportunity to further my studies, but somehow this feeling of worry is not something I can easily shake off.

this will be the 1st time that I will be unemployed since I first started working in April 2011.

I have often told myself that worrying will not do me any good, and that is true.. maybe I just need to keep reminding myself of this, and also to always remember the bigger picture.. Even while I am typing this, I am still feeling the scare.. I wish it is something that I can easily shut down, like turning off the light or something..
well if it isn't, I just have to live with it then? or find a way to make it feel less frightening..

I do justify it to myself of my decision quitting from my last company.. and at times when I feel like the fear is getting too much, I would succumb to applying for another engineering job on jobstreet.. that and also when my wife keeps asking me to get a new job.. she says I can still do my masters degree part time just like every body else who has done/is doing it..
I cant quite explain it thoroughly why I feel there is a need for me to not have a 9-5 job at the moment.. I do not understand it completely neither.. I just know I need to do this..

its not like I will be doing nothing, just lazing around at home for the time being, I will try the grab/uber thingy.. and I pray to God that it will work out.. and I also pray to God to make me less worried about this thing. I believe there is a prayer that I can practice to make me less worry.. also to always believe that this is apart of God's plan for me, knowing that He has never, and will never leave me forsaken.. for as long as we have faith and tawaqqal onto Him, inshaallah..

2. Am I a spoiled kid?

just minutes before I sat down in front of my laptop writing this blog post I was browsing facebook on my phone and saw on my newsfeed a post with the image below

and surely I would ask myself, am I exhibiting the habits of a spoiled kid or a working kid?
truth be told, I believe I am a combination of both.. I dare not claim to be a working kid, neither do I feel like I am completely spoiled though, I am probably somewhere in between.
I guess most of us are somewhere in between..
well the more important thing to do after seeing this is to know which habits that I can actually get rid of or supposedly improved on..

Spoiled kids Habits that I am exhibiting
a. Choosing the easy way

hahaha.. this is truly me, I do not like to be in difficult situations, (well, who does?)
so because of this I tend to do only the easy things, and find shortcuts to make things easier..
I still don't think that's a bad thing though, but apparently according to this, this is a habit of a spoiled kid, and I guess there is some truth to that to a certain extend.
I know that being in difficult situations, facing hardships are important to make us tougher, to make us more resilient to challenges.. as told by the butterfly story..

its just my habit that I don't like or don't want to have difficult things..
I guess sometimes its not up to us and we just have to toughen up and make it thru.. God knows whats best for us, am I right?

I keep thinking to the situation I am in currently with regards to being jobless, I just cant help it..
darn it, I need to worry less about this.. read the du'a stat!!

b. Disliking work

Well, I think I am not the only one who wishes they do not have to work for a living in this world..
Perhaps if you are a royalty who already has tonnes of money and you really don't know how else to spend your time, then the idea of working might seem interesting to you
I am disliking work, could also be because I have not found the work that I enjoy doing.. maybe it'll change if I found the kind of job that is fun and enjoyable for me.

This is still a struggle for me cuz I am still not sure what that is, and It will require me to really think if we were to go into that in much details.. so I suppose I will leave that as it is for now and revisit it again one day, once I know for certain what kind of job that I find enjoyable to do.


Working Kids Habits that I am lacking

a. Cooperating/Participating

I must admit all these while I have always preferred to do things on my own, and I guess that has led me to become too independent to a point where I feel I do not want to participate in anything unnecessary, or to cooperate with anyone if the situation does not call for it.
I am still not entirely sure of why there is this need for "working together".. maybe its because I have never really been in a situation where working together is crucial.
I dislike working with other people cuz it might lead to miscommunication, and the other person might not fully understand your idea and I feel like its such a hassle trying to make them understand..(I am selfish, aren't I?)

 

sometimes miscommunications can make people fight and the relationship becomes sour and that's what I try to avoid really.

b. Managing time/stuff/frustration

I think I can improve on this, like improve a lot.. its a continuous thingy trying to get better at this..
managing time inshallah I will get better in time, and same goes to managing stuff..
this includes managing my expenses as well, I suppose.. I don't often buy unnecessary stuff anymore so I think that's an improvement, but still so much that I can improve on..

I often use this blog as a means to let go of my frustrations about anything in life.. and its been helping me since I first writing a blog, which was since 2006..



3. aliff syukri menunjuk-nunjuk

I think this is self-explanatory and I simply dislike it.
not only him for the matter, anyone in this world who is having a nice life and often shows off their wealth on social media, I really dislike this kind of people.
I pray to God that I will never be like them.
I would rather not be rich if I would end up being like that.

here I say nice life, well when I give it a second thought, maybe they only show the nice part of their life.. maybe they want to inspire others.. or maybe they simply want to show off.. well in fact, we must realize that what is shown often tells only a fraction of the whole story.. I am sure they have their struggles and challenges too, which we don't know about..
so instead of judging them, lets make du'a for them, shall we?

just don't judge!!

4. My hopes for the new year

I want to have another child.. and no my wife is not yet pregnant with our second child.. inshallah if God wills it, soon..
There is no rush
maybe its for the better to have a 2 or 3 years gap between children..

I also hope that my motivation to do my masters degree will not be fade and die.
I know there is a chance that it might, but inshallah I will work hard and persevere..

I hope to not buy anymore unnecessary stuff/impulsive shopping..
hahaha this is also self-explanatory.. now that I am not working, I gotta be more careful with my spendings and only buy the important things..

5. aida azlin

I have been following this Singaporean girl on FB and she posts motivational videos once every 2 or 3 days and I have enjoyed watching her videos.. (I have not watched all of her videos however, aint got the time yet)
she always has a positive outtake on things and that's what I like about her.
some of the things that she has highlighted in her videos are things that I can really relate to and that are close to my heart.. so that's why I like and follow her on FB I guess..

and she always says inshallah and Alhamdulillah in her videos which I find to very soothing and nice.. I suppose that has affected my way of writing a little bit?


6. Brighterwhite

I have purchased this teeth whitening kit from Australia since last month but I have only used it since 3 days ago.. its because it didn't come with the battery for the LED accelerator thingy and I kept forgetting to buy the batteries..

I went to buy the battery one time then realized that the LED actually requires 2 numbers of battery.. it was very frustrating.. why did I not check properly.. but nonetheless its working now and I have been using it for 3 nights and I am seeing the results..
I did take the before photo and I will take the after photo when I have completed the 7 day challenge using the whitening kit..
my teeth feel extremely clean after using it..
the 1st time using my jaw felt really weird as I have to hold to LED in my mouth for 30 minutes.. but now its not so much.. 4 more nights and we will see the results..

this will be the last "unnecessary" thing that I purchased for myself and hopefully it is worth it..

i will end this blog post here as I am feeling sleepy and i think i have said all the important things for now.. also because my laptop is acting crazy right now..

so till next time.. later~~