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Ada a few things on my mind that I feel like talking… just for the fun of it… its not so urgent pun for me to vent, but I think it would benefit me somehow as I plan to write about them in English 100%.. I will try tho… so without further ado, here goes…

Pergi vacation overseas

The reason I include this as one of the topics of my rantings today is because earlier today I saw on Instagram shadha’s post about her vacationing in the UK, I think. Truth be told, its not like I am longing for an overseas vacation, it just seems nice.. and I know me wanting to experience that is not a necessity but more to my wants.. as long as I am able to recognize this fact, I think I will be fine.. I am not one who is willing to spend tens of thousands for a week or perhaps maximum of 2 weeks of vacation… there are other pressing matters that I need to address with the limited financial resources that I have…

But it would be nice tho to be able to afford such vacations once in a while… to just chill and relax in a cozy cottage in the country side, enjoying the cool wind, unpolluted air, the view…

Insyallah one day when the time is right…

Lazy Lazy Lazy…

This is in reference to yesterday, where the whole day I felt super lazy and not in the mood for anything… both my wife and i… we just laid down, sleep for hours till our heads hurt…

But I managed to go for a run in the morning… perhaps me going for that 40 minutes run was the main reason I was feeling extremely tired yesterday… and even in the outrageous tiredness and laziness, my wife prepared breakfast lunch and dinner for us…so not a total lazy day after all… I guess the remedy to this is to just keep moving… if we feed onto the laziness, we will become even more subdued and unmotivated…

Too much of anything is poison, this includes resting… too much of resting or lazing around is also not good, could be poison to us… so remember, everything must be taken in moderation…

Masalah kewangan atau more to kekangan kewangan

Not sure where to start… this feeling of wanting to buy many things, that I consider as not necessities, so I will try my best to put them on hold... as per number 1, there are other pressing matters that I should allocate my financial resources for.. the annual fees for the kids school, also school preparation, buying new books, maybe new bags, new shoes, new uniforms… 

Its not that I have financial problems, its more like financial constraints, which will result in me not being able to spend money impulsively, or lavishly… must be frugal in everything… oh how nice it is if I could just splurge once in a while… well, maybe this is my ujian from God… its okay though, my ujian is not that difficult, I think… hahaha

Doa supaya sentiasa rasa cukup

The concept of feeling enough and not being greedy, I always pray to God that I will always have this.. being grateful for what we have, no matter how little… coz I know it doesn’t take much, it doesn’t cost high to make me feel happy, to entertain myself… I love simple things…

But I admit there are times that I wish for more in life, perhaps it’s the syaitan doing his job kan… I just have to keep reminding myself what I have is enough for my family and i… and what we have, where we are now is the best there is for us… insyallah, to always have faith that this is the best case for us for now, it is what we deserve… 

Of course its not wrong to want more… to have a drive, or ambitions to achieve higher… but not to the point where we lose gratitude… my remedy for being greedy is to always reflect on what I have achieved, what I have been blessed with, and insyallah, no more yearning for something I don’t deserve…

Nak improve diri, improve kerja, better salary etc 

Feels like the topics are somehow related to one another kan… hahaha… speaking of wanting to achieve more, accomplish more… I am glad that I still have this ambition... I want to further studies, get my masters degree… or pursue professional engineer Ir title… this is of course not without its challenges though… but I am glad that I am able to recognize these challenges and know that the timing is probably not the best for me now… and knowing that masters degree or this Ir is something I can always pursue even later in life, this helps… so there is no unnecessary pressure being put on me to achieve this and that before a certain age… I can still pursue this when I am in my 50s… or 60s…

Yes it would be better to achieve them earlier, to get better salary etc… other people can do that because they can afford to… I feel like now is not my time… as long as I don’t give up, I will be good… pursue it when I can, when I am able, when the time is right… insyallah…

About the better salary part, my rezeki had already been decreed by God, so why fret about it… why bother why bother why bother…

Movie reviews – Carry on, lucky baskhar, the expert, conquer lahad datu, Amaran, one cent thief

Carry-on with taron egerton, Jason bateman… I like this movie… a bit slow in the beginning, then started to pick up from the middle to end… overall I give it 7 out of 10… do I wanna watch it again?? Maybe…

Lucky Baskhar is an Indian, tamil I think, movie about a guy who was struggling financially… theres a comedic vibe to the movie, making the viewers feel like it’s a chill movie, and enjoyable… no lovey dovey scene, mostly about family love… some aspects of the movie about the BR, banking thinking, rigging the stock market etcetra, I don’t completely understand it but its not a matter because I still enjoy the movie… I give it 8.5 out of 10… will I watch it again?? Probably not… because its close to 3 hours long

The expert is a malaysian movie with aaron aziz, Syafiq kyle, mimi lana, remy ishak and that other big guy I don’t know the name of… I like this movie, I think the director is a Malaysian Chinese, I can see the style of the movie is quite similar to American heist movies… with the taste of Malaysia, portraying the troubled relationships between the father and the kids…

I would give this movie 7 out of 10… and yes I will watch it again…

Conquer lahad datu is based off a true story about the attack on Lahad datu by the terrorist from Sulu if I am not mistaken.. they claimed their rights on the land being the Sulu Sultanate kin, something like that… it is an okay movie… that part when the police was beheaded took me by surprise I must say… and when anding got shot, that’s when the story picked up for me…

I give it 6 out of 10… I probably wont watch it again…

Amaran is an tamil movie… also based on true story… and it’s a sad movie… hats off to the actress who played indhu, the wife of the major Mukund… she promised to not cry at the funeral of her husband and she didn’t… another sad scene is at the end when they show the actual footage of major Mukund singing the song to his daughter… I give this movie 8 out of 10… do I wanna watch it again?? Yeah sure…

New phone for my son

I probably should not have bought him a new smart phone… technically its his first phone… and he is only 8 years old… the main reason I did it is because I keep seeing the ads on tiktok of the phone techno 30 5g… and for its features the price of Rm450 is really cheap… its only 1/3 the cost of my realme phone, but with similar specifications.

Also, I figured he could use it when he goes for his math class on Sunday… both my wife and I will still monitor how he uses the phone though, its not complete freedom for him to use as he pleases… also, previously he was using the old oppo phone which my wife bought in 2020, and its already in poor condition… its fine I guess, its not that expensive…

This morning I saw his face on whatsapp… he knew how to add his own photo on whatsapp… seeing his cute face makes me happy…

Owh, just to mention… buying that phone makes me feel excited, and I just felt like I needed to have some kind of excitement in life right now… so thus far, that purchase is not something to regret about…

I think that is all for now… hopefully I will update my blog more frequently from now on… though I doubt that… hahaha…

Till then.. later~~

Lets vent!!

At the start of the day I was feeling okay, nothing in particular that is making me feeling unease or unhappy…

Then I turned on my laptop and open web browser and saw one of the bookmarks I have which is the iecex cert website, then I went on to search Aida’s name and there it was… her name is there… she is certified and I am not… then I was reminded of the problem I had with regards to my own certification… and that made me feel so down and perhaps upset…

I don’t know what I should do… I probably should inform my boss if this, but I just don’t want to… its making me feel ashamed sort of… that I failed the iecex practical test… which is more frustrating to me is when the training provider didn’t even bother to inform me that I had failed…

Maybe I will txt him again, coz I think I did pass the 001 atleast…

Enough of being upset… its still early in the morning and I don’t want my whole day to get ruined because of something silly such as this…

Next topic… Proton perdana 2.0…

This is such a random, and probably impulsive decision… I had made a booking to try to purchase a new car… proton person of the year 2018… I went to lotus bandar baru bangi for some groceries shopping and I saw the car there, decided to have a look and it was inexplicable thing that pushed me to actually made the booking for the car… the booking is RM100, and the car dealer will assist to apply for loan for the car… if not approved then I will get the RM100 back… if approved, I get the car…

I don’t know if it’s a good thing and I have doubts coz it will be a new loan for the hire purchase, something that I feel I should undertake at this point of time…

But u know what, if its meant to be it will be… if it isn’t, then its also okay… if the loan is somehow approved and I get a new car, I will sell the axia, which I believe can give me approximately 10k… with the extra cash, I can clear my credit card debt, or I can just use it to splurge… lolz… probably the former…

Moving on to the next thing on my mind…

My wife received an invitation to apply for Sr HR position at Vertiv… well this is good news… I hope she gets the job… I don’t know if it is a good job, but I can only pray that her new work would be better… come to think of it, any job would be better than the one she currently has… here is hoping…

I don’t even want to elaborate on why I said that… suffice to say that her colleagues and boss are from hell… so I really hope she finds a better a job… not necessarily a better salary, just a better job in terms of the people and work environment… coz honestly, with our current living arrangement, with 10k/month for the household is already enough in my opinion…

Ok.. lets move on to the next one… Grab driver…

Last night I did grab again… its been 4 or 5 months I have on hiatus.. just because I didn’t feel like doing it… last Friday I did after the 5 months pause, and last night I did again…

I have to say the customer demand at bangi area is not as high as bukit jalil… most of the time I just waited for the ping… then I decided to drive up north to be near KL, then I managed to make 5 bookings there, which amounted to ~RM50… I know its not much but its better to have something than nothing…

Last Friday I made ~RM90… not bad I guess…

I don’t know if I will do again tonight… I will have to see if I will be in the mood or not… I want to, but I feel like my wife doesn’t want me to work tonight… coz she said it will be better for me to do during weekend so I can get more, coz I will be doing longer hours during the day…

My issue with weekend is that I don’t like driving during the day coz its hot… I prefer driving at night coz it is much relaxing and easy… I actually enjoy driving while my Desperate Housewives are playing on my car android player… huhu…

Ok next topic… bonus and increment…

Last week I had my performance review with my boss, which in my opinion went quite okay… nothing bad in particular… I don’t know how my performance is in his eyes… but I feel like I am meeting all the expectations, except on the renewable energy section…

I don’t really have high expectations or hopes with regards to the bonus or increment… I think I will get some, but I know better not to have really high expectations…

I am just so excited to be getting the extra cash from the bonus payment… same like the extra cash that I will get from selling my axia, I will use it to clear my credit card debt, and all the other debts, whichever applicable…

Hahaha… its such a grown up thing kan…

And I want to take my family to eat seoul garden… its been quite some time since our last seoul garden buffet…

Next grown up topic that I feel excited to share is about the Renewable Energy Technical Day…

Last week, my bosses boss Ir Dr Petter gave a talk on Renewable Energy… I enjoyed his presentation thoroughly…

He talked about the why, how, what etc.. he touched on the 1.5 degC by year 2100, the paris agreement, policy on banning ICE, reducing CO2 level, CCUS, Fuel Cell Vehicle, H2 production, Green Energy… In the 2.5 hours of his presentation, not once that I felt bored… I was so engaged and I have even more respect toward him… I also happen to care for our Earth just as much and quite aware of the importance to have Green Energy etc… so Go Green!!

On an unrelated topic, a few nights before, I watched a documentary on Netflix which talked about the meat industry in the US, and how the cow cattle ranches are producing so much CH4, which is a Green House Gas that contributes to Global warming…

After watching the documentary, I feel like being a vegan is such a good thing… but I don’t know if I can go vegan all the way… I love cheese so much…

They have cheese alternatives in the US, which is made from nuts, perhaps almond, but I don’t know if we have that in Malaysia… perhaps in a few more years we will…

Maybe when I am older and financially more stable, I will opt to being a vegan… coz believe it or not, being a vegan aint cheap yall…. 

I think that is all for now… till next time… daaa~~~