Update benda2 random

1. New Project

Sekarang aku dah kena assigned dgn project baru kat tempat keje.. project RS3, agak besar jugak project ni, melibatkan 10 platform sedia ada kat perairan barat Sabah.

Mazlizan yg handle project ni lepas dia lepaskan CPOC pada aku, tapi memandangkan Mazlizan nyer contract da nak habis dan dia x nak sambung dgn SKPW, jadi aku telah di minta untuk mengambil alih project ni dari dia..

ada lagi sorang Telecom Engineer Encik Azwi yg tolong Maz buat project ni, jadi nnt bila Maz da xda, tinggal aku dgn Azwi je la.

So far project ni nampak mcm okay je xda major issue, xda apa2 yg out of the ordinary, but then again i had just joined the team 3 days so mmg banyak nak kena catch up.

Maz's last day is 5 Jan 2017, sebulan lebih je lagi.. hopefully aku boleh la nak catch up on the project issues and progress etc

so nak cerita la sini, last week Azwi shared w me his project folder..
and saiz folder tu 19gb kau.. pening x nak go thru satu2 semua..

padan lah kan ada 10 platform semuanya..

dia pecahkan pada 3 ring, setiap platform tu.. tp mostly byk benda sama je..

so yg aku x puas hati, or rather annoyed dgn Azwi ni is about the way he files his project documents..

dia save dalam folder nama company, pastu nama orang yg bagi documents tu pada dia.. pada aku cara dia x bagus, tak sistematik.. macam aku yg baru join, x kenal orang2 yg handle project tu dari belah client atau vendor, how the hell can i know where to find which documents in which folder..
kena buat WE search, itu pun aku x sure if the documents name is correct or not..

haih la..

ni aku baru go thru suku dari semua folder yg dia copy ke laptop aku ni..

dan dia pulak pergi labuan ada inspection barang dgn pegi supervise cable saddle welding work kat sana.. haih..

lagi satu pasal si Mazlizan ni, dia da pass ke Azwi buat document2 tu pastu dia sndiri x tau which document is the latest yada yada..

haritu masa site survey dia yg ke Sabah pegi semua paltform tu, tapi mcm byk je missing info yg dia x verify during site visit..

aku xda la nak cakap lebih2 coz i know how dificult site survey can be and sometimes, you just forget things.. walaupun kita da buat persedian bagai nak rak, tapi pasti ada je benda, 1 2 detail yg penting atau kurang penting yg kita akan terlepas pandang..

dah lepas pon kan, nak buat mcm mana, jadi kita hadapi je la kalau ada masalah apa2 nnt satu persatu..
aku xda la nak risau sgt pon sbb Azwi ada lagi kan.. supposedly dia yg kena step up sbb dia da involved w the project way earlier than me and he has all the info/details about the project.

ok la nak cakap pasal benda lain pulak

2. Forex

benda alah ni aku masih lagi teruskan, tapi honestly speaking aku da macam x semangat lagi nak buat.. aku teruskan je dgn baki duit yg ada dalam account tu.. tapi takda la se-excited sebelum ni..

sebelum ni aku igtkan senang la nak buat duit dgn forex ni.. boleh guna robot tu dan kita just tunggu je dpt untung..

NO SUCH THING!

yes mmg aku ada dpt profit, tapi x kurang jugak rugi nyer.. in fact lagi byk rugi sebenanrnyer..
so aku mmg xkan nak deposit duit lagi untuk forex ni, aku hanya akan guna apa yg ada skrg ni, kalau rugi habis terus, aku pon akan stop la forex2 ni.. malas da nak buang duit..

no easy money my friend..

semua benda kena usaha tau.. baiklah fokus kat kerja biasa ni je..

3. AMA Campaign

owh tetiba teringat, akhir bulan 12 nnt akan ada offshore campaign untuk CPOC AMA platform..
tentative date 25 Dec 2016..

macam lahanat kan tarikh dia pilih time xmas and new year..
haih rugi la aku kalau pegi offshore time tu..

dah la x dpt cuti ganti, x dpt OT, burn gitu je 2 major public holiday..
tp maybe kalau kat offshore nnt mesti akan ada makan besar kat atas kapal tu nnt..

tp aku xnak makan besar, aku nak cuti lama.. nangis jap la..

so far rasa macam xda apa2 issue nak diceritakan kat sini.. biasalah telecom issues dgn budak omega yg tak settle2 tu.. tapi biar lah budak omega yg settlekan.. tu kan keje derang..

4. New baby

Not sure why but lately i have started wanting a new baby..
i love Ahnaf Ukail w all my heart..
tp rasa mcm best kalau ada anak lagi.. so nnt ahnaf ada la adik nak main2..

kitorang plan nak tunggu ahnaf umur setahun setengah, baru akan cuba utk dpt 2nd child.. lagi pun skrg ni keje pun x secure lagi..

sbb bukan kerja permanent, kerja contract ni kalau company da xnak, habis je contract nnt dia x sambung habis la..

tp aku macam biasa xda la nak menggelabah tits sangat.. paling2 aku bawak je la uber, kalau rajin boleh gak dapat rm6k sebulan.. tp kena rajin la..

btw i dont mind utk dpt baby girl or boy.. tp my wife nak anak gegirl.. nak hias2 cantik katanya huhu..
pada aku yg penting anak sihat dan sempurna Alhamdulillah..


5. Sola

Aku pon xtau nape aku nak cerita pasal Sola dalam blog post ni..

so tadi kat office Mazlizan tanya aku samada aku kena sola ni ke tak. sbb dia cakap dia ada member yg study NZ, buat prektikal sama dgn dia dulu time tahun 2010..
aku cakap la sola dgn aku kawan baik kot dulu time kat NZ kitorang study buat school project sama2 kot.. main game RA3 kat umah dia sampai pagi.. #goodtimes

Maz asked if i had Solas number, i remember him being in that whatsapp group but i never saved his phone number before..
theres this an unknown phone number in the whatsapp group and decided to just call and there he was.. sola picked up the phone.. aku yg lupa nak save nombor dia sbelum ni..

dah lama x jumpa Sola, apparently he came to my wedding reception at wangsa maju.. aku je lupa..

dia masih setia kerja dgn texas instrument.. da makin gemok, biasa la tu..

sempat tanya pasal adik dia Sufian, masih di Otago NZ, tgh training jadi specialist kat hospital sana..
wow!! berjaya adik beradik dia..

well, i hope nnt one of these days dpt la jumpa Sola balik, lepak mana2 ke.. we'll plan of something..

6. Lazada

while at office, xda keje biasala aku akan melayari internet dan akan browse barang2 kat lazada dan aku nak beli je byk barang ni..

ni list2 barang lazada yg aku nak beli

i. luggage kecik

ii. Pam elektrik

iii. TV 32" utk bilik atas

iv. meja utk tv

v. Jam Jepun yg cantik dan murah

vi. 1TB external

banyak kan barang2 aku nak beli..

tp xpe.. kita kumpul duit dulu.. ada duit nnt beli la.. huhu

7. Exercising

ohmygod!! i really need to exercise!!
da berkurun x pergi gym..
semalam nak pegi gym, tapi sesampainya aku kat gym yg aku biasa pergi kat 99mart wangsa maju tu tengok2 gym tu da permanently close..
sedihnyer..

tapi takpe la nak buat caner lak kan.. harini aku akan survey kat area situ mana ada gym lagi..

i need to exercise and be slim again.. and cntrol my diet, which is the hardest thing to do.. coz i love to eat

8. Cheesecake Blueberry

baru je kat atas tu cakap nak ekesesais dan nak jaga makan, tapi i cant help it.. i love cheesecake.. ni ada resepi yg simple untuk dicuba..

9. Petronas Pengerang

this is random but just now i got a phone call from an unknown number asking if i was interested to work in petronas pengerang as a telecom engineer..
mesti la nak kan..
itu je dia tanya..
pastu dia cakap akan forward my resume to petronas..

aku x berharap sgt pon sbb aku percaya pada rezeki dan ketentuan Allah.. kalau ada ada la.. kalau xda pon xpa..


okla sampai di sini saja la aku nak bebel..

aku nak pegi kench sbb kat ofis ni sejuk gila babs..

later~~

apa aku nak jadi??

hi all,

so today at office i am feeling bored as phuck..
i dont have any job at the moment, only simple things like following up and stuff..

when i get bored, i think.. and i know i am not happy right now..
i need to do something that makes me happy..
but i simply dont know whats that..

when i was a kid things were a lot easier..
i was happy all the time, i guess..

when asked what i wanted to be when i grow up, i gave a few different answers..
when i was 8, i wanted to become a fireman.. not sure why but i remember telling the teacher this when she asked.

when i was 10, i wanted to become a lawyer, at this time i noticed that i had a quite good ability in speaking.. so i thought i could become a lawyer.. but this ambition sort of died when i learned that you need to be good in sejarah.. and i just dont like reading and remembering things so i ditch the ambition

when i was 12, i remember wanting to become a pilot, people told me i need to be good in math to become a pilot and i was good at math.. but i was scared of flying, didnt want to die of plane crash so the thought of that sorta stopped me from pursuing pilot as a career.

when i was 14-15 i wanted to become a TV presenter. i remember there was a show on ntv7 about travelling and i wanted to become the host of that show. this dream of mine is yet to die for i still want to but i think i cant anymore coz i am already old..
a few years back i was at mid valley, there was a career fair and at the tv3 booth they had a camera and people were auditioning as a tv presenter.. at first i wanted to try but i got nervous and shy.. so i didnt.. maybe i dont got what it takes to be that..

when i was 16 i went to mrsm jasin and my interest in science and engineering began.
i hardly knew what an engineer is and what they do for a living. i remember one of my classmates brother had just completed his degree from the UK in chemical engineering and i was inspired. ever since that, i had always wanted to become a chemical engineering or a chemist.
after watching the movie Alcatraz, in which Nicholas Cage is a chemical weapon specialist, i was inspired and interested to become a chemist or a chem engineer. i carried this ambition with me thru out mrsm and kms until at the end of 1st year in Auckland i suddenly changed to Mechatronics engineering..
WHY THE EFF DID I DO THAT??

to be honest, i largely regret that decision. i didnt like electronics nor mechanical that much but i knew i could do it.. i was confident in my skin and knew for sure that it be easy for me, and it was quite okay.. i wouldnt say it was easy but it was doable, and i did it..
altho i may have not gotten 1st class degree, but 2nd class upper is good enough, in my opinion.

so what was the reason that i changed to Mechatronics. i'd say mainly it was because people kept saying it was 2nd hardest course for engineering after biomedical, so i thought i wanted the challenge.
i was stupid!
i should not want to be challenged.
i should want the one that offers the best future, the best career out of it, not the hardest.. or the 2nd hardest.
i was stupid!

speaking of stupid decisions, i think i repeat myself in making stupid decision when i left Omega and go work for Sapura Kencana.
i wanted to challenge myself, i said
izuan was stupid!
i wanted more responsibility and bigger scope of work, yes i did say this
izuan was really stupid!

i should want the things that make me happy, not the things that challenge me..
granted that being able to overcome the challenges and rise to the occasion does give me a certain satisfaction and happiness.. but there are other ways to be happy!!
i dont got to go thru all the harships to be happy, just buy a happy meal from mcdonald to be happy, aint gotta do mechatronics, aint gotta change job, and move to freaking KL, 350km away from my family..

clearly, it was not a good decision, i see that now..

but what the heck man, i was stupid and i thought it was a good decision at the time, that it would open up more doors for me, to bigger companies like Petronas or exxon or whatever, or so i thought..
i dont care about big companies, or open doors anymore.. i hardly care about working anymore..

but i cannot not think about it coz if i dont, i dont get paid.. how in the hell am i gone pay for them bills man..

shit life is hard!!

anyhoot, lifes gotta go on..

the question is.. what do i wanna be now?

of course it isnt just about what i wanna be now, its also a question of whether or not i can be it, or if it is feasible? or doable?

lets just go thru at all the possibilities

from the top of my mind, based on interest/passion
1. TV presenter/MC/Host
2. Motivational Speaker
3. Businessman
4. Teacher

Based on ability
1. Teacher
2. Engineer
3. Insurance/investment agent
4. Uber driver
5. Businessman


its so sad now that i am doubting myself to be able to do any of the job i listed there.
i didnt have doubts when i was small.. this is what growing up does to u.. instilling self doubt..
its inevitable..
maybe you dont feel it now coz u still young, but as u get older.. ull start to feel this..
feeling old, incompetent, inadequate, ready to just hang the towel..

is this what they call quater life cirisis?? i am not that old to have mid life crisis tho.. huhu..

i dont want to be gloomy and depressed anymore.. i want to focus on happy thoughts.. so instead i will list down the things that make me happy, and insyaallah i will try to do it one thing at a time..

1. exercising and catching pokemons
2. getting paid and have lotsa money (mcm xda kaitan je)
3. being with and making my family happy(unfortunately this requires lotsa money. See no2)
4. playing games on laptop/ipad/phone
5. watching movies/sports events on tv while being blanketed in an AC-ed room
6. eating garret popcorn, red velvet cake, american cheesecake, pasta, alfredo, pepperoni pizza, strawberry coklat (damn i love to eat!!)
7. play badminton, play bowling, play volliball, play frisbee.
8. play kejar-kejar, baling selipar and hide & seek (so kanak kanak)
9. having pretty skin (tetiba)
10. buy new car (see no2)

damn its hard to list down things to make me happy.. and unfortunately it revolves around having lotsa money.. its so superficial..

maybe i need to do a muhasabah and learn to change my self, my desires and my niat..
channel those into more islamic stuff.. so that peace would find me easier.. or is it the other way around?
so that its easier for me to find peace..
if your life revolves around more to Islamic and spiritual stuff, its probably gone make life easier.. coz expectation is less, and more achieveable..

thats not a bad idea man.. i ma give it a try.. be more religious, more spiritual.. insyallah life would be much easier..
Allah wills it..

okla i think this is the end of the post.. till next time people~~