harini bukan la hari paling bagus bagi aku, kerana terdapat beberapa perkara yg aku harap tak jadi tapi sudah jadi..
tapi bukan juga hari paling buruk, kerana at the end of the day, literally just minutes ago i found back something that i wish never to lose again... a recovery that i will forever be grateful for..
nvm, i will get to them one at a time..
today i had to work until 4 pm.. i personally think the TSD team didnt need my assistance at HDC, but since mr Chan had personally asked for my help since earlier this week, i felt its a courtesy that i should honour to him since he was my boss once.. and also i felt it could be fun to work in TSD with them lads like i did before.. coz honestly, i miss doing it, and miss them boys also..
after work, reached home at 5 more or less.. badan da penat.. but i promised my kak to go back w maju today.. and since i didnt go back last week, I really thought i should go back today.. also, i wanted to avoid unnecessary sulking by my dad.. he was mad and is still mad at me because i didnt go back last week.. even now hes not talking to me.. tapi takpe la, i hope it will pass sooner or later..
ok where was i??
yeah i promised to go back but time tu i was so damn tired already.. then atat and hazmeer came to my apartment coz he wanted the installer for my lord of the rings II game.. and we played kinect also... it was so much fun.. but i had to leave at 630 la coz if i didnt then id be late to reach w maju and my dad would be forever mad at me pulak kan...
reached w maju close to 730.. and i was a fool coz i said id join the games night at shadas house in damansara.. but considering everything that had happened, i thought i really couldnt join them there.. so i had to cancel... i didnt want to make things worse between me n dad..
but the worst thing was yet to happen.. my niece aleya played with my ipad and i dont know how it happened but it fell on the tile floor and the screen went black.. i didnt see this so i didnt know.. she returned the ipad to me and i thought that it had run out of battery so plugged it in for charging la..
my nephew aiman saw what happened and he told me what aleya did, so i went to check the ipad.. i tried to turn it on but it was not turning on.. i connected it to itunes on my laptop and heard the beep sound.. and it could also be sync.. after that i check the screen and found that the left side had fallen off from the socket...
Oh god i was so furious.. nak nangis, nak jerit, nak marah... but i held it all in... i went to my sis and showed her the thing... then she went mad, jerit2 kat aleya tu... budak tu diam je buat dek je.. didnt even say sorry.. haih la budak2 zaman sekarang... are we as parents or uncles too soft in child upbringing that we dont hit our children like our parents did to us?? thats a question with an obvious answer but still no action, no change, just mere words..
then my kak said she would pay for the repair later.. haaah i doubt it.. sekarang pon die da hutang aku rm2k already... repair screen tu aku rasa dalam 500 kot.. but tu pon aku tak sure la boleh repair ke tak..
i was quite stressed up la.. and frustrated.. i posted this on facebook..
"
"
for some reason i feel like i couldve been more tough(garang/tegas/scary?) on her... but then again, shes not my child... i cudnt just go and hit her when her mother was there... i dont know where the line lies... was i supposed to hit the kid?? and if i did, to what end?? i really didnt want to sort of cross the line and assumed the role of a father to punish the kid as if she was my own... this is something im not sure of of where it stands and what i should do...
this reminds me of another incident a few weeks ago at my parents house.. my other niece khayrin daughter of my kakngah, she made a mess at the house and i told her mum la to get it clean.. but she told me to clean it pulak.. then i said la, bukan anak aku yg buat sepah.. then she got mad saying shouldnt berkira coz according to her khayrin was also my daughter (sort of?)
sesuka hati je kan... when it comes to cleaning up shit, lending a hand, giving help, u say that la... tapi kalau aku pukol anak kau kuat sikit nnt dier nangis kau tarik muka kat aku pulak.. bukan tak pernah jadi.. aku pernah je pukol anak kak aku sekali tu kuat sikit pastu da tarik muka taknak cakap ngn aku... so tell me where does the line lies???
ok malas nak panjang2 citer pasal ni la... at the end of the day, they are family... so kita beralah la... kalau ngn orang lain kita boleh beralah, dgn family takkan nak berkira sangat.. lagipon budak tu baru 8 tahun umor nyer.. and i dont think she purposely smashed my ipad to the floor kan..
well, the ipad screen tercabut made me miserable for a few hours la.. coz i was also worried for my financial standing as of now.. da la mak pon ada mintak tolong sikit for my brothers wedding ni.. and last week i paid traffic nyer summon and roadtax and cars insurans, now im so pokai... im broke!!!
bila la nak gaji ni..
so terpaksa la ditangguhkan niat nak shopping baju keje baru, nak shopping jam guess bagai... sumer benda tak penting haruslah ditangguhkan dahulu...
haaa like i said earlier la i was upset and miserable for a few hours after the incident, then i encountered a recovery of something i consider as great and priceless for me.. a memoir of me when i was a teenager.. my diary/journal when i was in kolej matrikulasi perak... and the earlier months in kolej mara seremban, and this was before i started my friendster blog... oh god how i was such a teenager... the hormones and the naivety...
and that book was also the testimonial book where there were pages where my KMPK friends wrote goodbye words, farewell testimonials for me when i was leaving KMPK for KMS...
I read it all just now... everything ever written there.. and that made me smile...
kalau ikotkan aku nak je aku salin balik everything in there and post it here... but that would be ridiculous now, wudnt it...
but one thing for sure, i would want her to read it too... and i would want her to know whats in the journal/testimonial...everything and not one word less... i just want to share with her something like this.. something that is so precious for me... and i want her to know that this simple thing is what i treasure the most in life.. and this sort of thing that can make me smile again after my ipad is jahanam already...
now i wish i have the lens printer yg mcm dalam citer ghost protocol yg mamat tu pakai untuk make photocopy of the nuclear launch code tu.... so cool, tgk kertas tu, blink the eye and the page is printed somewhere else...
kalau aku ada lens tu da lama aku print/scan the content in that book and post them somewhere.. here maybe or somewhere else..
ok i think that is all for now... initially i wanted to go into more details of some of the things i wrote in the book... stories of how my crushes went from A to B to whoever it was la after... hahahaha... kelakar nyer diri ini time tu... sampai kisah mountains aizeera n thuraiya pon ada dalam buku tu... the jiggling balls as i described it back then...
and my english was tunggang langgang la, as expected of teenagers yg baru nak up ni..
Gosh!! The best thing right now is that I have someone whom i can share this feeling with, someone who is as equally excited as I am about the journal recovery... huhu... but too bad theres noone i can think of.. i wish that shed be excited... i would think she would be interested if it was 2 years ago... but now not anymore... many things have changed...
aaarhh.. this is another sad story... its better to leave it for another day..
so sampai di sini saja... later~~
No comments:
Post a Comment