wah bersawang da kot ni..

salam..

oh god da lama nyer tak update blog.

dan byk betol benda nak citer.. ok satu2 aku citer..

harini majlis reception my abang tarmizi with his wife cik timah..
their nikah was last week held at pontian.. my whole family went there..

todays kenduri was ok2 je nothing much yg compelling or good enough to me to be shared here
owh just one thing..
the pakcik catering who prepared food for the event looked like my arwah pakngah.. my cousins and anak buahs were sad and some even shed tears when they saw the pakcik catering.. they took photos and hugged each other.. i cant really imagine how that felt like.. id be mostly i think.. but maybe quite happy also.. seolah2 melepaskan kerinduan?? hmm.. dunno.. macam tu lah..

all in all, it was an okay ceremony.. all went on as planned and thats good i think.. altho it could also mean boring for me coz ive alwasys had a flare for unpredictable and spontaneous things.. today lacked of those so i say its just..so so..

to hell la to what i think kan.. its my brothers reception kot.. not mine.. so nak sibut pehal kan aku ni..

ok ill move on to talk about other things in my life
the gintell massage chair had arrived.. awesome stuff.. i sit on it like 30 minutes everyday since i got it... after gym, id go take my shower and just sit on the chair and enjoy the massage.. although i had wished for the more expensive type for it could massage my buttock as well but i couldnt buy that one so its ok.. ill just massage my buttock myself.. maybe in a few years when i can afford the more expensive one ill buy it then.. maybe by then there will be other types which are way better from that one kan..

ok nak cakap sikit pasal kerja..

lately im super busy.. like crazy busy everyday like that..
 ni aku cuti friday n saturday email da penoh keje menunggu di office.. but for now i dont want to care about them yet.. i will start on monday 9 pm when i ought to work..
 ok malas nak cakap lebih2 la xda pekdah..

haa teringat this one thing i want to talk here.. merely just sharing my opinion.. altho perhaps id be sharing it with myself only here but nvm itsokey..

i was in the car listening to capital fm and heard this social service reminder/message that talked about kesaksamaan gender.. or something like that..
the first one was about educating our children.. basically what i can conclude from the reminder was that it is okay to let our kids be who they want to be.. let them be kids to discover where their niche / the kind of persons they want to be etc etc..
and also saying something like never teach our boys to hate pink love blue, not to play with dolls only cars guns etc..
i wish i can find the whole text that i heard in the radio and post it here.. but i cant..
not that i cant i just didnt even try to google it.. sebab aku malas.. and i dont think it matters.. after all this is for me eyes only right?
well to me they were right to a certain extent.. in some things it is okay to let our kids be free and discover the world, discover their likings and interests in the world..
but that does not mean we ought not to interfere with their life.. we are here to guide them to be good people.. letting them exploring their individuality is vital but it can also be misleading should we take it for granted..

i will use myself and people around me as an example to support my statement.
i am a soft person, a sissy. i know that.. ive known that fact since standard 2 when the kids at school started calling me pondan, lembut, bapok etcetra.. and it hurt back then.. it nearly killed me but thank God i survived, but not with little difficulty..
ok digressed a bit..
i know i was born this way.. but my parents had never allowed me to be soft.. and yes there were times when even my dad called me lembut and oh god i wanted to cry.. but i didnt.. i toughened up.. in fact what he said made me want to be more of a man, walk talk like a real man.. or like other men.. so i wouldnt feel so excluded.. i tried to suppress my flamboyance attitude and control my actions in public.. i befriended boys who were not soft.. i have my abang tarmizi to thank for this.. if it hadnt been for him, id never have normal boy friends growing up.. and if it werent for my dad, my sis (my whole family la senang citer) maybe i wouldve ended up like some sissy kids who played with girls and in the end of the day didnt hesitate to dress like a girl, get boob jobs, become hookers, mak ayam etcetra..

ok back to what i was trying to say.. parents should be wary and look after their kids development while they still can.. melentur buluh biar dari rebung is very true indeed.. help your child be the person you and everybody will be proud of in the future..
dont say bullshit like "even if my son is gay im still proud of him"
thats just bulls.. when the time comes u realize your gay son will never have their own children, then u can go fuck your pride of.. orang melayu kata, time tu jgn kau nak menangis tak berlagu..

be the parent.. being parent does not mean to only SUPPORT what your children choose.. but to GUIDE them as well.. and also punish when they do wrong..

well unless if really dont care how they turn up, then suit yourself la.. but atleast have the civic awareness to not let your children become psychopaths sudah la..  or worse a homicide killing hundreds in a locked supermarket.. *random

so to whomever reading this, just know that being parent is not easy.. that day you decide to become a parent is the day you are putting someone else's importance ahead of your own.. thats when your child safety, well being etcetra comes first in your life... so everybody, think thoroughly and make the decision wholeheartedly..
children are not like school or work assignments.. they are your responsibilities for life..

ok sangat random aku da jadi fadzilah kamsah pulak malam2 ni..

damn byk nye nyamok pulak ni haddoi..

ok da sakit tengkok menaip bongkok ni.. till next time later~~