seksaited then dissapointed... lifes a rollercoster

salam and hellow everyone..

damn im feeling so bored
now in the office altho its a freakin saturday.
haiyo.. i really need to find a job where i dont have to work on saturdays.
but nevermind, maybe some day i will..

so bored now.. dont have much to do.. waiting for suppliers to come back with their letter of support for the celcom tender

ok let me just get to the point here..
theres actually one reason why i want to blog now.. altho it might sound stupid, but yeah its happening..

i am in that position again.. position, situation, circumstance.. whatever u want to call it..
the last time i was in this situation was back in 2007..
i was head over heels.. i couldnt stop thinking about it.. and i was the one chasing..

and yes of coz it took quite some time for me to recover from the sucky situation i was in.. then i became this hard person, heartless? even to a point where i said id never be able to love of fall in love again..

now im feeling like its starting to happen again.. i will get to that but not just yet..

that time when i was recovering from the heartache and pain of being rejected, unwanted.. it was difficult and i didnt like it one bit..

but lifes a roller coaster.. the table was turned where i became the chased one, not the chasing one..
there were a few people who wanted to be with me.. so i felt good about myself.. and i started to treat people badly..
and started to become selfish.. saying things like "kalau ko xnak aku, aku kesah ke? belambak lagi menunggu"
oh yeah i said that!!

but now the wheel is starting to turn again..
i am starting to fall for some one now.. and.. i have mixed feelings..

i was really excited.. especially when it wasnt me who initiated the whole thing.. so you can imagine how excited it was for me..

but now i realize that its not always sunshine kan.. things can get ugly very fast..
hmm.. maybe its not ugly yet.. its just me whos thinking too much and making too many assumptions that arent necessarily true..

i think i will just take it as it is.. no heart feeling, nor overly attached emotions just yet..

i will not be the first one to say it!!!

ok over sangat statement tersebut!!

okthanksbye~~