Bebelan di office

Tuesday 20170704 0955

As usual I am at office with nothing to do.. I am trying to keep my calm and tell myself that I will not always be not busy like this.. coz I really cant handle doing nothing at work and its driving me crazy.. maybe I shud just chill and enjoy that I am so free with nothing to do, but I am effing bored as phuck.. I want to do something, whatever it is I want to do something else other than sitting in front of this laptop and not doing shit..

I watch youtube, watch movies but that’s not how I am, atleast that’s not how I want to be, or what I want to be doing at work.. when im at work I want to be working but..

So that actually makes me wonder if I should work for myself, on my own time, on my own project or business.. that kinda makes sense in my opinion.. but knowing myself, I am also a bit scared to take this risk, which is to leave my steady job and start a business venture, or doing freelance or anything.. something that I will be in charge of, be held responsible for, and surely reap the rewards most of.. well I actually don’t have to leave my job and take the unnecessary risk.. theres Amway that I can do part time, but I just gotta be rajin.. that’s the real issue there.. I am farking lazy ass hoe.. 

Now that I am not busy with work I do complain, mostly to myself, and to my blog, bleating on how bored I am yadayada.. maybe that’s not much that I can do about that now but surely I can work on something else, which is my Amway business..

I have been introduced to the business for quite sometime, its just that I haven’t been really involved and haven’t been taking the necessary actions to succeed in the business..

I haven’t tirelessly tried to find people to sell products on.. 1 thing is that I am not good at it, 2ndly is that I am very shy, 3^rd is that I am very lazy, 4^th is that I hate rejections, 5^th is that I easily quit..

Also they have classes on Isnin and Rabu at night and I have volleyball on these nights so that’s why la I feel so reluctant and malas to go coz vb is so much fun..

I feel like theres too many obstacles that are stopping me from succeeding in this business.. but I am also aware that they are all surpassable.. but I just gotta work very hard to overcome them, and I am lazy.. lolz!!

It all comes back to that, don’t it.. if u want it real bad youre willing to work hard for it.. that’s also a factor why I haven’t started on the business, coz I don’t feel the need, I don’t feel the desire to get there.. I feel quite comfortable with my current living situation so that’s why ive been lazy.. huhu.. simply put, I am not motivated enough..

I am not like those people who see other people succeed and get crazy jealous or envious of their success..  I am the kind of person who likes to chill and take my time, not bothering about other people, minding my own business, as long as I am not in any problem nor causing other people problems then I am contented.. yepp that’s definitely it..

Having said that, I do have a small desire to get richer tho, but its just a small, tiny little candle flame and not big like a forest fire or whatever.. *my analogy is so dramatic

Ok enough about that, lets talk about other things..

Last night my friends from volleyball came to beraya at my house.. well at first only zam and ayie said they’ll come, then last night they were in total 9 people who came.. ada kakton, bonda, opie, raja, memey, petot and beka.. memula igt 3-4 orang je nk dtg kan so I bought 2 packets of bihun and asked my mak to goring bihun je la, beli la jugak fishcake, sawi, and some sotong, beli ais for the drinks.. I made my famous sirap sunquick sampai 4 jug habis.. dan bihun pon habis.. lelz.. bagus la derang byk makan kan, lagipun kita mmg kena raikan tetamu, lagi2 time sambut raya camni kan..

Cumanya jadi mcm x cukup la sbb x sangka ramai pulak yg datang.. bukan nya buat open house pon, datang beraya sikit2 sajor..

Tp derang baik la sbb nak balik tu kena la bagi duit raya kan.. untung la anak2 buah aku masing2 dpt duit raya rm10 sorang..

Tp untuk ahnaf ukail derang bagi sampul special.. total aku kira ukail dpt rm37.. hehe rasa cam terharu pulak sbb derang cakap anak izzue dapat special la..

Aku cam ada la niat igt nak buat housewarming kat rumah sewa sri damnsara tut p aku agak risau jugak sbb rumah tu kecik dan sempit, so kalau nak buat housewarming/openhouse tu mcm sedih pulak nnt x cukup tempat orang nak duduk..

Tetiba rasa cam nyesal pulak x ambik rumah yg besar sikit kat area damansara damai tu kan, tp masalahnya kat sana xda barang2 dalam rumah, ada kitchen cabinet dgn wardrobe semata, dgn ada 1 AC kat hall yg dah agak nazak keadaannya..

Rumah yg sri damansara ni agak kecik sikit, tp da ada mcm2 barang dalam tu.. ada katil, peti ais, mesin basuh, meja makan, meja tv, sofa, ada tv gemok, pastu lampu tepi dinding tu, basically mcm da agak complete la jugak nak dok dalam rumah tu kan, Cuma ada beberapa benda minor je nak kena tambah.. like the other day my wife and I went to tesco to buy them.. we bought iron board, rak kasut, garment double pole, laundry basket, iron.. we wanted to buy blender also but didn’t coz I thought the ones theyre selling on cjwowshop looks better with more free gifts.. for the stove, we definitely will buy the Mugen from CJwowshop that also comes w a set of knives as free gifts, aint that great?

Well, speaking of cjwowshop, recently I bought the Leagoo handphone from them, and it costed me rm400.. I really wasn’t thinking so much, prolly it was an impulsive shoppin but who cares, right..

The phone has arrived and I have already played w it, so far its ok.. everything works, I am just a bit disappointed with the camera coz the image is quite blurry, and when we want to navigate away from the camera, the phone froze for a second or two before switching to the home screen.. but I guess I cannot expect the phone to be as smooth like an iphone or Samsung yg mahal2 tu.. I paid rm400 for it, so I really cant expect much, can i?

Also came as freegift of the purchase is a VR goggle, a selfie stick, flip cover, and a headphone.. I feel like its such a deal buying this phone.. now I just need to buy an SD card to expand the memory of the phone.. the reason I feel so annoyed with my 16gb iphone is because of the small memory it has, and I cant have many things stored in the phone, cant have many apps installed, need to transfer photos to laptop frequently.. that’s just so annoying.. so that’s why I bought the leagoo phone..

I mean I am not financially stable or abundant right now, or else I wudve bought an iphone 7 256gb or something like that.. huhu.. suka sangat feeling2 kaya padahal x pon..

What I will do if I had extra cash right now is to invest in asbf financing..

Coz I already done that back in 2012 when I first got the 100k asb loan, then another 100k in 2014.. but because I wanted to buy the jalilmas house priced at rm213k, I had to cancel my asb so that my credit score will be strong enough for the house loan..

So now loan rumah jalilmas da lepas, and I recently got an increment coz I changed job from Sapura to Iql, so I guess I wud be able to get a 100k asb loan.. I have already submitted all the documents, except for my June Pay slip.. which I will ask from HR shortly to give to the RHB officer..

Owh recently I checked, RHB offers the lowest interest rate for asb loan, so I thought why not apply from rhb now.. previously I was with Maybank.. and I had the worse experience w the officers when I wanted to sell my asb cert.. so right now I feel like rhB is okay, why not right.. maybe ill just start w 100k and we see how the condition in the future if I can afford it will want to up it to max 200k.. but that’s still a long way to go.. I was there already but had to turn back.. and losing 25k to the forex durjana definitely didn’t help.. 

Sigh.. whats past is past la kan.. why cry over spilled milk bak kata omputeh..

Next story!!

Malam ni ada main volleyball kat titiwangsa, so I thought I will come early, maybe after solat maghrib around 8pmlike that, and I want to run  for about 30-40mins before main vb.. I should start exercising and taking care of my body right.. maybe ill drive tonight.. why not..

Owh lupa nak cerita ni pulak.. this morning got a whatsapp txt from azhan in that gb whatsapp group, hes having a get together beraya potluck at his place this coming Sunday, so I think im going.. this weekend I will not be going back to jb coz I gotta work on Saturday halfday, so I better use the weekends to to beraya at peoples houses kan.. I already have an open house to attend to on Saturday.. aie my classmate from smwm2 kelas ibnu khaldun had already ajak people to come to his house this Saturday petang, and I have that azhan potluck thingy on Sunday.. I feel so excited.. its like mcm kat Auckland dulu2 every weekend ada orang ajak pergi open house and beraya..

And also ayie vb said malam Saturday got someone buat open house also, with tema baju merah or something like that but I cant recall he said whose openhouse.. I mean why not kan I go join them since he already invited..

I am glad that I have all these invitations to go to, but I still think about my wife.. my guess is that shes not really happy that ill be going to these openhouses.. I think if it was up to her, shed want to stay at home and not have fun w my frens, coz she will prolly be staying home at her parents house w our son.. so its kinda of unfair to her.. and she doesn’t like it that I live life as if im a single guy in KL.. lelz..

I swear I have never been acting around like im single and when people ask I will tell them that im married w a child.. and hopefully with more children in the future..

I feel like this is enough ranting for the day.. and also I am not really in the mood to carry on membebel in here.. till next entry.. later bijes~~