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Omgeee
kekenyangan aku sekarang… baru lepas makan lunch nasi kukus abang bo.. kenyang
molek… ngantuk pulak tu..
Sebab tengah
bosan dan taktau nak buat keje apa… jadi marilah kita membebel dalam ni.. untuk
menjadikan penulisan ni lebih terurus, mari kita buat dalam bentuk point form..
1. T7 Annual Gala Dinner
Theres nothing much to talk pun… last Friday 17/12/2021 ada annual dinner
t7.. the food was ok la.. Chinese course dekat hotel pavillion.. syok jugak la
makan hotel kan.. da lama jugak tak rasa makan hotel..
Da lama jugak tak dress up cantik2 utk dinner… so gigih la aku buat
rambut, sembur perfume baru mistix men warna putih yg sangat harum aroma nyer
ittew.. I think I looked good, puffy but still good.. damn I so need to go to
gym and lose weight… ok I will cover the topic of gym in the next point.. lets
talk more about the dinner..
Ada la lucky draw but I feel like something fishy sebab yg menang lucky
draw sumer selected few ajer.. dan those yg menang sumer mmg company men.. yg
permanent position..
Ye I don’t have any proof if the draw was rigged.. but it sure felt that
way.. anyhow, its fine la.. I didn’t have to pay anything pun for the dinner
nor the draw… but if it was rigged, then I wish the company to lose money in
the following years… haa tiber nak emo… kan da kena carot…
Besides that ada competition tiktok videos la… and I just couldn’t be
bothered to join.. it turned out semua yg ada video submission company akan
bagi RM300.. rasa cam nyesal lak x submit… submit yg bodo2 je pon da dalam 300
kan senang2.. huhu.. maybe next time..
Rasa tu je la kot pasal dinner… on to the next topic..
2. Gym
Dah lama dah rasa nak start pergi gym dan exercise sbb badan da makin
mengembang.. makin gemok.. so plan nyer nak pergi join gym celebrity fitness
kat endah parade tu.. should I or should I not??
maybe I should go check it out dulu… haritu masa dinner kat subway endah parade
tu aku Nampak the gym but I didn’t go ask pulak.. tengok la petang ni or esok
nak pergi tanya la..
Besides gym aku mmg nak diet la.. tapi da makin tua ni makin susah nak
diet.. contoh macam harini.. makan mmg x jaga… sumbat je sumer benda kan.. dan
cepat nor la rasa lapar nyer… padahal pagi tadi da makan roti canai 2 keping… lunch
makan nasi kukus ayam goreng pulak..
Ada jugak terfikir nak puasa tapi mcm susah bebenor la pulak rasanya nak
menahan perut yg asyik kelaparan jer ni.. adehai..
Takpe, kita mulakan dengan gym tu.. kalau da bayar rm300 sebulan, kena
la gigihkan diri untuk pergi workout kan.. kalu x terasa rugi pulak bayor nnt..
Semoga diberi kerajinan..
3. Alkhautar annual fees
Macam random jugak topic ni.. sebab nyer tengah berkira2 nak pergi gym
tapi at the same time nak kena set aside duit untuk bayar annual fees utk
preschool anak2 dekat alkauthar ni..close to 6k for 2 kids.. rasa mcm botak
kepala aku ni..
So harapan nyer tentulah duit dari trading aku ni..
Harini trading agak sendu yer… sumer sebab last week Friday aku x close
position so membawa la ke harini…tengah floating lagi tu.. tapi x banyak..
dalam usd8 jer… nak close sekarang pun x boleh… balik nnt kat umah la baru
boleh sbb guna AWS VPS kan.. and only accessible thru my desktop at home..
Disebabkan annual fees ni rasa mcm stress jugak sbb nak berjimba beli
barangan2 yg bukan2 pun x boleh sbb mmg kena simpan duit.. tapi takpe la..
untuk anak2 juo..
4. Interview
Just nak share last week Thursday when I was in kemaman I had a virtual
interview.. apply dekat linked in on wenzday tu rasanya.. aku main apply je
kan.. lepas tu dapat phone call dan terus set interview..
So I think it went well but I never know kan.. kadang kita rasa ok tapi
x dapat keje tu… ada jugak yg rasa mcm shit tapi dapat pulak keje tu..
So I think I just wait and pray for the best la..
Aku mcm excited sbb ni permanent position tapi akan kena pergi site juo
la.. so aku still x sure how I will do if I got the job.. gaji naik sikit la
dari sekarang ni..
Pastu ada benefit medical card utk whole family katanya..
Haritu tebiu dengan HR dgn PM dia.. PM tu mcm banyak explain pasal
project yg dia jaga.. usually kalau orang beriya share pasal project tu dia nak
ambik kita la tu kot.. so aku mcm seronok la jugak.. tapi selagi belum ada black
& white I can only wish and pray for whats best for me la..
Contract aku dengan tanjong pun sampai end of the month je.. so masa
tebiu tu aku bagitau la I would be available by 1 Jan 2022..
So now I am at a waiting game.. wait for the interview results and official
offer, then I will inform my PM at tanjong, and see if tanjong will counter
offer.. although that’s highly unlikely but whatever it is, I will wait and
see.. maybe I should inform tanjong that the new offer is a permanent position
with gaji sekian sekian, and see if they will counter offer..
Oh Allah, I seek from you to give me patience and also to grant me with
the best options for me..
Doa beriya tapi solat zuhur pun belum.. lets finish this rambling soon
so I can go solat zuhur..
5. Property agent
Just nak share la my plan.. in the event yg mana aku x dpt the job offer
from the new company… and tanjong also decides to not renew my contract.. then I
will try my luck at becoming a property agent..
And in the mean time untuk sustain kehidupan I will rely on my trading
income money…
So we will wait and see and pray…
Back to praying jugak kan… which is a good thing la coz I always go back
to asking from God…
6. Kemalasan melanda
Semenjak dua menjak ni kemalasan aku sangat memuncak yer..
Well actually ive always been a lazy mofo but dunno la since last month
mmg rasa malas yahamats….
Taktau nak describe caner tapi mmg malas la..
Boleh kata hari2 jugak aku doa supaya dihilangkan perasaan malas tu.. tp
still malas juo..
Ada dengan ceramah ustaz hanan attaki… dia kata kalau kita berdoa dengan
Allah tu, kalau belum dpt.. kita kena sentiasa doa.. so aku pun bercadang untuk
terus berdoa supaya perasaan malas aku ni akan hilang dan aku menjadi seorang
yg productive dan tidak malas…
7. Masa depan
Macam random dan agak vague je topic masa depan ni.. begitu juo la masa
depan aku sekarang ni… mcm susah nak explain tapi I simply cant imagine what I would
be doing in 5 years time… or 10 years time…
I cant possibly expect my trading will continue to be great in the
future like it is now… for short term mmg ok la.. tapi aku mcm x Nampak masa
depan dengan trading..
Masa depan sebagai engineer or manager pun aku x Nampak…
Truth be told, I am clueless with what I want to pursue… rasa mcm takda
arah tujuan.. I just go with the flow.. just do whats in front of me without
having a vision or a goal.. what I want to achieve in years to come.. rasa mcm
loser.. what I am waiting for??? Waiting to be inspired?? Waiting for someone
to point me in the right direction??
What direction is that?? How do I know it’s the right direction??
How long do I need to wait??
Is waiting the right thing to do??
Eh macam2 pulak persoalan dalam kepala ni…
Apa2 pun I will go back to basic.. which is to ask and pray from God..
truly that’s the only constant that I know and I am sure of… just go back to
God and ask away..
Yes I will stick to praying and asking God with regards to every aspect
of my life, insyallah itll work out somehow…
8. Banjir
Sekarang ni Selangor, KL, N9, Pahang sedang berlaku banjir.. selain dari
tu berlaku tanah runtuh dekat highway karak..
Supposedly aku kena pergi kemaman semalam.. tapi disebabkan banjir dan
tanah runtuh.. jalan ke kemaman pun tutup..
Aku mmg malas nak pergi pun sebenarnyer.. especially when I think about
the possibility of my contract not being renewed..
But as soon as the road is accessible, I will go la to kemaman…
But I need to get TRF approved first… need to discuss with my PM Nasrul
Hadi, when exactly should I be going to kemaman…
I need to go to tok bali actually to identify and verify the E&I
materials… rasa mcm sengal tu pun nak suruh aku kan…
Eh malas sungguh la rasanya.. apa2 pun we wait and see..
Okla da takda apa2 nak update sini… I want to go solat zuhur and pray
sebanyak2 nyer dengan Allah semoga semua urusan dipermudah dan aku dapat keje
yg baik.. dan hilang rasa malas… dan aku berasa senang dan tenang…
Daaa~~~
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