~SPM~

SPM..

semalam tgk berita kat tv sibuk cerita pasal budak2 dapat spm 10a+ la apa la.. i know how that feels i was one of them kot.. but then i thought to myself, they must be thinking that their future is gonna be easier after this..

thats the myth/lie that was told to me when i was their age.. teachers, old people told me that SPM was the big jump the wall thats keeping me from an easy life.. guess what children, it was not the only wall..

take me for as example, i had to go to college la and took a level that was way harder than spm.. then go to uni.. with 4 papers to take every semester... nigga please, it didnt get easier... stop this nonsensce..

and it definitely doesst stop after uni.. if ur a fresh graduate still looking for a job ud probably beg to differ but i am not a fresh graduate so i know better..

working is not easy.. not just the task or the job at hand that u need to care about but also people surrounding u.. ur bos ur colleague, ur supplier ur client.. damn dealing with them is just as hard..
well actually, dealing with them is harder..
except for my boss la coz i think hes so nice and positive all the time.. byk keje sibuk caner pon dier takda stress2 manjang senyum jer.. gaji da berbelas ribu... damn!!! i want that!!!

so what im trying to say here is... dont think your journey has ended when your done wits SPM.. it only means new roads have presented themselves and regardless of which path u take... its gonna just as hard as the others... just choose one that u think will make u and ur loved ones have better lives later in the future

okla since aku kat ofis ni i feel not really safe pulak nak tulis blog..

till next time... later~~

hahaha macam budak f4 nyer English..

berikut adalah petikan ayat dalam email yg dihantar oleh bos PWS selepas kejayaan aktiviti di CSC sabtu lepas..

"I would like to Congratulation for successfully carry out CSC KLDC TNB shutdown activities, I am appreciate and would like to say “thank you” to the whole team that have putting your heart and the soul in this project."

haaa... kasihan..

ps : takot nak upload kat fb pasal nnt ada org komen "Please delete this immediately.."

MALAS

only one word.. and thats how its been for the past couple of weeks or so.. ive been infected by the disease.. the disease we all have ..

what i want to do:
1. lay in bed all day eating muruku ikan
2. watch spartacus until my nose bleeds
3. go to the movies and eat popcorn
4. shopping? bowling? macam boring pon ada
5. karoke? suara ada ke pon nak melalak?

haha theres nothing much that i really covet of doing.. just simple things like number 1 and 2..
in simpler words I just need rest.. as im so tired of working already..


and yes ive taken leave last week but only to fill my day with other work related activities.. and so is this new leave im taking on this coming tuesday.. there are already so many things im thinking of doing.. and not rest like i want and should to..


damn it this saturday ive gotta work 24 hours yaw at the darn CSC.. damn damn damn.. but sokey.. i wont be alone..

ok da malas nak mengarang nak tulis in bullet points jer now

• berat da turun 10kg yeay!!
• I can wear my old jeansnow yeay!!
• eee malas nyer nak call supplier mintak quotation ni.. sangat penat.. kalau setakat nak compile prices ni keje mudah jer.. nak design pon mudah jer..
• aaa nak jadi hot macam lee stram

im so bored...

i have nothing else to do hence a blog post.

yes i am working now, still at the office.. waiting for the time to struck 5.30 and then off i go..
but today i'll be playing badminton with the bosses tho coz they had asked me to arrange, book the court etc etc.. so 7pm i'll go to the the sport arena la

tm is supposed to fix streamyx at my new house. supposedly they did it yesterday but he said cannot coz he got job at another place so i set an appointment for him/them to come today at 12 tapi pasal dier bangang dan irresponsible he didnt call me at 12 so i called him he said he cannot at 12.. then he said after solat hed call me back to arrange a new time but he did so hes such an asshole for lying to me twice..

i dont want to call him i just want to make a complain later today.
well if i really want to make a complain i better go now coz its almost 4pm and tm only opens until 4pm..

but im just so lazy and dont want to do anything now..

typing this crap actually makes me look like im doing some work but in reality its all just crap..

ok lets talk about other random stuff..
capeks wife is pregnant already and theyre expecting a baby in september or october this year.. and so is shada.. shes pregnant already.. and how did i know about this?? haha i have my source la..

ok now im kinda busy coz i have to get involved/sorta handle a few job requests..TNB messaging tender, KLCC CHOC, infineon FAP WLD, P1 PJ new rectifier, KPOC data center, Sin Chew Command center. i am supposed to be new here and im not expected to do a lot but in all of the jobs i mentioned above i had to prepare almost everything.. sesuke hati je derang melepaskan tanggungjawab ke atas aku.. nasib baik aku cool aku boleh handle.. sort of la boleh..

but today cam takda keje.. except for sin chew one i dont know if im supposed to arrange the site visit or bryen will.. aku rasa cam malas nak amek port je la.. buat dunno je la.. lagipon mmg keje dier kot untuk buat site visit..

salu sangat complain pasal keje as if kalau aku keje lain aku akan enjoy my job.. highly unlikely..
work is work kat mana2 pon sama je kita keje ngn orang kita jadi kuli la..
aaa at times like this i envy anak2 raja who dont have to work but boleh hidup senang lenang  je kan..

 aaaahhh... can believe im saying this but i actually miss being/working in the technical team.. things are just so different now... they feel different.. changes are always hard right.. so takpe la.. im trying to adapt to my new environment..


haa talking about this it reminds me of eric tan, then of herbalife then of working hard in life to earn more money become rich etc etc..

i know its good to work hard to earn more and become rich.. but somehow i dont opt for that..

months ago i said something about a friend of mine who was willing to not buy a car, ride a bike to work so that he could save some money coz he wanted to get married buy a house bla bla bla..
then heres a story about eric tan yg keje kuat jual herbalife pasal dier nak jadi kaya hidup senang di masa akan datang..

i have something to argue against what these people are doing la but im not sure if its a strong enough arguement to hold my believe

"the money isnt yours until you spend it"

im the kinda guy who spends his money when he has it.. i dont save much.. if i had been the money saver kinda guy, i probably would have rm30k - 40k in my saving right now.. but i dont..

i spend my money.. coz i think that way way the money is surely mine.. saying this doesnt mean i dont support saving up money for the future.. i also want to save some for my future but i can hardly do that.. thats why i applied for that asb thingy hoping that it will help me save money for my future.. and i will topup my investment next year.. i plan to la..

haih... bila nak naik gaji ni..

okla aku da malas nak menaip.. da takda apa menarik pon nak citer... later~~

another boring day at the office

darn it the internet ni kejap ada kejap takda.. hasrat aku nak menulis blog sejak dari tadi asyik terbantut jer.. tapi la ni da ada lets make full use of it..

as the title suggests yes its another boring day at the office.. bos aku ah yau cuti sampai khamis and he didnt leave me with any job so here i am, still with nothing to do.. so relax2 je la ngadap laptop main internet download citer apa sumer.. aaahh... baik aku lepak umah jer buat sumer ni kan tapi masalahnyer umah aku masih takda internet lagi... lets hope ada la nnt tu.. (ayat tak konfiden)

so far today ive done a few personal stuff la..

i updated my resume and made a few job applications on jobstreet.. haha sesuka hati.. and also ive printed a few posters for tution iklan.. im planning to ajar tution at home la.. have them students come to my house and ill teach them there la.. haha.. this is so random i know..

i saw an ad for rumah lelong yesterday and the price is freaking cheap la 45k only.. my desire to buy a house now is over the roof.. but im still not sure if im eligible to apply for a housing loan right now.. i have a friend si fariq tu who worked at public bank dealing with housing finance.. i think of giving him a call or a visit one of these days la to ask more about housing loan..

well if tiada aral melintang, fariq is probably gonna move in with me.. and thats good news to me la.. boleh la dier tolong bayar sewa umah tu ringankan beban keluarga katanya..

and yes i said he worked at public bank pasal so foolish of him pegi berenti keje kat public bank tu.. haih la manusia ni selalu je menolak tuah kan... sekang ni apa keje kau?? ko suke ke keje sekang tu?? da mula merana mencari2 keje baru balik kan....

wah ngata orang nombor satu padahal nasib aku takda la seindah mana pon..

ok malas nak cakap pasal keje.. aku nak cakap pasal pemakanan..
ok this is another random stuff..
a few weeks back when i went to pd for shadas wedding i met up with my auckland friends who mostly were appalled looking at how big/fat ive become.. one of them rahim told me that after came back to malaysia he too had to control his eating to avoid the unnecessary expansion especially in the mid section.. he said since hes not doing sports regularly like he did in auckland he had to control his eating la..

so basically, based on what he told me ive decided to do exactly just that.. that is to take small portion for every meal.. half from the usual serving is enough already to sustain your body through out the day unless kau pekerja kontraktor mmg angkat2 batu tu kan kena la makan byk kan.. tapi kalau setakat duduk office ngadap laptop 8 jam mkn half the portion je pon da cukop da ekceli..

i know hes not the first to have said that.. kalau x silap dalam islam pon suruh makan sikit jer jgn sampai kenyang something like that.. kita je yg selalu take things for granted kan when it comes to ajaran2 islam ni.. ok now im following this ajaran and planning to follow it sampai mati..

bukan nak bangga or riak but i think im actually slimmer now that ive followed this kind of diet since the beginning of the month.. thats 2 weeks now.. ok maybe aku je perasan.. tapi as long as it makes me feel happy and confident, thats what matters kan...

another advantage from this diet is that my lunch expenditure is now less than before.. kalau dulu makan kat mamak tu wud cost me around 6 - 7 ringgit per meal.. now that i take half the portion, the mamak is kind enough to charge me half price for my nasi lauk ayam and sayur.. rm350 jer dier amek... haritu dier charge rm2.50 jer.. tah apa dier kira tah aritu.. maybe he was shocked looking at how small my meal portion was that day..

da untung2 dapat save duit on food kan..kalau kat malaysia ni average aku rasa orang makan 3 - 4 kali la.. breakfast lunch and dinner la atleast.. and kalau sehari tu aku rasa ada la dalam rm30 gak kan.. pastu sebulan da rm600 tau... tu tak include kalau ko pegi jenjalan kuar tgk wayang ke makan luar ke apa sumer.. mungking boleh sampai 700 or 800 kan esp sapa yg salu sgt keluar tu..

kalau gaji ko 2500 je sebulan.. belanja on food tu pon da 1/3 atau 1/4 dari gaji ok.. belom fikir pasal loan kereta la, loan itu loan ini.. sesak sesak..

uiks asal random je aku cakap pasal perbelanjaan lak ni..
and that reminds me i need to sort out my perbelanjaan la now.. ok la until next time.. later~~

tension la..

untuk entry kali ni aku nak main taip je apa saja yg terlintas kat kepala aku ni... dan aku malas nak edit kalau ada typo ke apa ke lantak la..

kat umah mak now.. tadi da nak tdo da pasal badan tgh penat tadi petang pegi gym jogging and lift weight skit2.. tapi sebab kepala ni sedang dibebani beberapa perkara yg menekan jiwa dan perasaan... mmg susah la nak tdo.. hence this entry...

tadi duk kat dapor ngn bapak n mak derrang tanya bila nak kawen lak.. aiyoo lambat lagi kot.. derang biasa la pemikiran cam kampung lagi sure la nak aku kawen cepat..
idop aku pon x stabil lagi so mmg tak la aku nak kawen sekang ni kan... aku pon da mula rasa rimas bila derang da bertanya2 pasal ni.. maybe pasal aku tak pernah bawa balik gf ke rumah not like my abang kan.. so maybe derang cam risau la kot.. aiyoo ni la salah satu benda buat aku agak stress gak ni... hopefully pasni takda la derarng nak sibok2 tanya pasal ni lgai pasal aku da tak reti nak menjawab apa... kalau aa jodoh ada la kan...

satu lagi benda yg buat aku stress sekang ni sure la pasal keje kan.. aku cam sedih gila ngn keje aku sekang ni.. well aku da lama pon sedih ngn keje aku pasal gaji nyer yg rendah.. dan da sekian kali nyer pon aku tulis pasal keje aku yg sucks kat blog ni kan... orang yg membaca pon maybe da muak da membacanya... ak pon da muak nak menulis pasal keje.. tapi pasal aku stress sekarang ni aku cam terpaksa la nulis kat sini pasal taktau nak citer kat saper lagi...

keje ok tapi gaji rendah sangat la.. bila2 je topik pasal kerja dibualkan aku akan rasa sangat sucky.. tension la.. aku cam da stuck kat sini.. punca aku masok company ni?? fikir2 sendiri la.... salah dan bodoh aku la pasal percaya sangat kat orang kan.... tapi tu la.. setahun da berlalu and things havent got better and dont seem like it will.. bila fikir pasal ni mesti tension..

tapi adakah setahun masa yg masih awal?? awal??? aiyoooo takda la awal pon.... orang lain tu fresh grad pon gaji da besar... orang lain nasib lain?? haaa yes thats what ive been telling myself nasib orang lain2... tapi the fact remains yg keje aku gaji sucks...

and yes aku da tukar department now bukan lagi teknikal service department buat keje servicing buat keje teknician, buat keje storekeeper, buat keje delivery boy... sekarang tidak lagi...

i know my position has changed... pendek kata keje da up sikit la now duk opis ngadap laptop email2 bagai jer sekang ni... tapi gaji nyer??/ masih macam tu yawww.... kalau naik gaji pon ciput jer naik nyer... company ni mmg da adat resam dier pekerja kelar masok pasal dapat keje nyer senang tapi gaji nyer sedih la... orang yg pandai dan lucky dapat la keje masok company yg lebih besar dan gaji lebih besar...

those yg pandai tapi not so lucky still stuck kat company ni wishing to jump to other big companies but still to no avail... aku rasa aku tergolong dalam kumpulan tu la... tapi mungkin jugak aku ni masih terlalu awal???
aaaaah!!! bullshit la awak.... da jelak aku dgr aku masih awal so ni masa belajar lagi... buto la aku da malas dan fed up da dgn ni sumer.... apa yg aku dapat?? stress jer aku dapat dari dulu lagi....

dalam hati ni mmg aku marah kat seseorang yg bawa aku ke company bangang ni... mmg aku marah... lagi aku marah bila dier langsung tak rasa bersalah... tapi teknikelly mmg la aku yg buat decision dan dier tak bersalah tapi pada masa tu aku baru abes belajar... what do i know kan... mengharapkan orang bagi guide... guide jadah apa nyer sekang aku yg menanggung tekanan perasaan...

ni ada satu lagi berita yg memberi tekanan perasaan kat aku ni... in my hands now ada satu surat public mutual mak kasi tadi aku tgk macam rugi jer investment unit trust aku ni.... adoiyai... da la kat radio sekang ni cam ada iklan suruhanjaya sekuriti pasal nak elak orang ramai terlibat  pelaburan yg salah dan tak menguntungkan ni kan... aku takot la kalau aku pon dalam kelompok tu gak...

ni aku baru sms agent unit trust public mutual aku ni nak minta jumper so that i can know exactly how my investment went through out last year and how much return profit aku dapat, if there is any...
aku harap agent yg ni takda la lepas tangan buat taik mcm agent cimb wealth advisor yg aku invest dulu tu la...

tu pon bila fikir2 balik mmg sakit hati ok... invest 10k ni... dier citer ke main setahun return average boleh dapat 10% ... aku pon tertarik la kan... tu teros letak 10k tu... balik lepas 3 tahun duit tinggal 9600... macam babi tak?? siap boleh rugi lagi..
pastu bila call agent bangsat tu tak angkat telefon.. msg ajak jumper pon dier buat bodo jer... last2 aku pegi sendiri office cimb tu keluarkan duit aku... sakit hati je fikir kan... haih la nasib badan...

aku tau da byk da aku citer perkara2 negatif dan taik yg da jadi kat idop aku ni kan...

tapi aku mmg seorang yg optimis.. tidak dapat tidak mmg aku akan fikir perkara2 yg positif tentang life aku sekang ni walaupon sebenanyer mmg sucks gila kan nasib sekang ni... dgn takda gf ner... keje gaji ciput nyer.... investment rugi lagi...

aku mmg ada menaruh harapn yg nasib aku akan berubah... aku masih lagi percaya yg nnt bila the time comes aku akan dapat keje gaji yg best.... dan pasal gf atau isteri tu, aku nyer prinsip senang jer... sumer nyer di tangan Allah... aku nak tolak tak dapat... dan nak paksa pon tak dapat... yg aku harap ialah supaya parents aku takda la gesa aku pasal ni lagi... aku mmg rimas... buat aku rasa taknak balik rumah pon ada...

and oh btw, aku da buat loan asb tapi masih takda berita la aku pon taktau lepas ke tidak... tapi should be no problem la... nnt bebila aku nak call la pegawai bank yg ambik aku nyer application aritu... tapi tunggu la akhir bulan ni ke bebila...

dan sekang ni pon da mula fikir2 nak buat loan rumah aku igt nak beli rumah apartment je la harga dalam 100k-150k la... aku da tanya da member aku kalau umah tu 150k bayar bulan dalam 600 jer... lebih kurang sewa rumah aku sekarang ni jer... baik aku beli rumah tu pastu bayar kat bank la 600 tu tentu2 bila da abes bayar nnt rumah tu jadi aku punya...

tapi yg merunsingkan aku tu aku nak beli rumah kat mana?? aku takot kalau aku beli rumah kat area sungai besi sekang ni... nnt kalau aku tukar keje office tukar ke shah alam ke damansara ke mana2 da masalah pulak jauh lah... pastu nak pindah la ke area office baru nak sewa sana pulak kan... dua tempat da nak bayar mati la nnt...
haaa mungkin itu bukan masalah sgt pon kan... aku boleh jer sewakan rumah tu nnt... hahaha so kalau mcm tu baik aku beli rumah kat area yg mendapat sambutan... supaya tentu2 nnt ada orang nak sewa je kat sana...

haaa panjang nyer entry dan sumer benda pon sungguh random..

btw, aku ada dpt laptop baru office bagi since aku da masok solution team ni... suker la jugak dpt laptop... tapi kalau dapat gaji besar lagi aku suker...
bak kata bos baru aku si ah yau tu by end of this month or next month dapat tahu la gaji naik ke tak... should be naik la dier kata... tapi yg aku sedih tu... naik nyer sikit... gaji fresh grad kat tempat lain pon lagi tinggi dari gaji aku yg da keje setahun ni.... aiyoooo tekanan perasaan balik da bila teringat pasal bnda ni...

aaaahhhh dah la... malas da aku nak fikir pasal ni... buat penat mengabihkan bogheh jer... bukak la jobstreet tu... klik2 je la keje mana2 yg nampak menarik tu... kalau ada interview pegi je la kan and see how it goes kalau dapat keje baru gaji better blah je la kan... huhu... ok nnt bila ada internet unlimited nnt aku pegi la apply2... sekang ni guna internet phone jer yg data nyer da tenat ni... nak buat mcm mana ni je yg ada buat masa ni...

lagi satu benda sedih yg menekan jiwa is internet kat kampung malaysia tu takda... aku pegi tm aritu cakap la nak pindah kan... dier cakap takda streamyx kat umah baru aku tu... i was like...  couldnt believe what i was hearing... mcm tak logic... tapi dier cakap dier takda... so pasal tu dier kena request technician tm buat survey kat tempat tu la apa la... nak konfemkan number aper tah dier cakap aritu i was too appalled i couldnt focus what he was saying...

so itu la kisah nyer... kalau betul takda streamyx kat sini nnt kena terminate la acc aku yg sekarang ni.. tapi aku rasa ada jer kot pasal kat umah aku tu bila aku bukak laptop nampak byk jer wifi network... takkan la dalam byk2 tu takda yg streamyx kot.. nnt bebila kalau aku tak malu aku nak tanya la orang2 sebelah rumah derang ada pasang internet streamyxx ke tak... pastu bagi nombor telefon rumah derang ke tm point supaya derang boleh check ngn existing customer kat sana kan...

yeah ill do that...

tapi in the case yg steramyx mmg takda... amek U mobile la kot... haha whatever la...

okla aku da malas nak menulis ni pon da panjang mcm haram kot...takper la... tjuan nyer pon pasal aku nak meluahkan perasaan kan... aku nak citer kat orang lain pon cam tak best lak pasal nnt nyusahkan dier lak kan.. so citer kat depan laptop je la...

ok la aku nak stop kat sini nak tido la... later~~~

i am myselfs bestfriend... and some other random stuff

salam..

yesss.. today im gonna be talking about bestfriend.. do i have one? i dont know.. maybe i did but not anymore.. but thats okay coz lately i think i dont really need a bestfren.. i have myself to be my own bestfren..

ive been outstationed for 17days now.. and all this while ive been alone and i did everything on my own.. independent katanya.. ok ada la sekali tu kuar ngn afiq kechik time kat KK but thats it.. yg lain2 tu mmg aku sorang2 je la..

i admit there were times when i felt like screaming my lungs out so that people wud notice me and id not feel alone anymore.. but that is just stupid and crazy and of coz i didnt do it.. being alone sucks people.. im telling u it sucks big time..

i thank all the people whom ive kacau, whom i txted and  dgn baiknyer melayan txting ngn aku during those times i felt lonely and was close to meroyan..

so why do i say i am my own bestfren?? haaa coz i always know what to say and what to think to make me feel better.. about everything.. and i am very thankful for that.. grateful to God who made me this way.. kurang bergantung sikit kepada orang lain and i think thats a good thing..

actually i wanted to talk about my job, comparing to the time when i was still jobless.. how much i have changed.. how much i have gained.... i had nothing before and now i have money, a car, a 42" tv, an iphone, an ipad etc etc... ok malas nak fikir byk2.. dan tetiba rassa cam malas dan cam tak perlu je nak tulis kat sini pasal tu.. *pemalasnyer aku

less than 24 hours i will be in KL.. and that is awesome.. i cannot wait to come home..

tadi my sis called and she said nnt ada interview kat astro nak cari pengacara macam aznil.. im flattered that she called me to tell me that.. she thinks i have what it takes to be a good pengacara.. huhu.. ok bangga sikit.. tapi do i really??
 maybe dulu aku rasa aku ada la bakat sikit2 dalam pengacaraan, public speaking or paling tak pon membaca berita.. tapi aku tak pernah try pon bakat tu.. mungkin its way harder that it looks kan..

i remember back when i was in primary school i entered a pidato competition in malay.. (elocution eh dalam english?).. i was confident before my turn.. i thought that i wud not stumble and i could deliver my points smoothly but thats not the case.. i was a mess.. haha.. point ke mana tangan ke mana sumer benda kacau bilau.. and my head started to heat up and i think my head just changed colout from ceklat to merah.. haha.. so malu and nerves..

so berbalik kepada kisah aku nak jadi pembaca berita ni kan.. i am considering to go audition actually.. i owe it to myself to go try.. and altho i know theres a possibility im gonna make a fool of myself during the audition, atleast i go give it a try.. and thats better than not trying at all.. huhu.. the audition is in january rasanya.. ok aku sangat katak bawah tmpurung now coz i dont have a tv at home..

my source of information is facebook and  download to watch tv series.. kalau berita2 yg kecik2 ni mmg aku taktau la..
aaaa ary malik tersingkir dari masterchef malaysia.. aku suker dier sebab dier cantek walaupon da 40tahun umor..

damnit im so damn full after eating at sugarbun kapit ni.. its like mcd but dodgier.. haha sesuker hati aku jer kutok tempat orang.. beger dier sedap la jugok tapi nothing beats mcd punya fries.. tak caya tanya qamarol arifin ombak ghendu~~

and i read the poem posted by izzaty pwc on fb pasal english pronunciation.. heres the link

http://www.thepoke.co.uk/2011/12/23/english-pronunciation/

aiyoo pening kepala aku nak menyusun lidah nak nyebut the words.. and i think half of them pon aku tak tau maksud and taktau how to pronounce.. but its a nice read la.. give it a try..

shada is getting married this sunday.. aaahhh the first of GB to get married.. i feel old already..

i still remember that time when we were in auckland, making that farewell video for shada.. ada soalan tanya what kind of a mother shes gonna be.. haha.. soalan yang menyebabkan bali meloncat keriangan tu... haha lawak je igt bali yg overexcited tu.. huhu bali sengal..

but for sure shes gonna be a cool mum la.. tapi taktau la if she plans to have children awal ke tak kan.. nnt sure dier ajar anak2 dier main mafia la.. main black magic la.. dan sbgnya..

haa tak sabar nak balik.. tak sabar nak mendownload di rumah dgn internet yg laju.. tak sabar nak balik wangsa maju jumper ibu bapa nak kasi pearl ornaments ni, ceklat2 ni, fridge magnet yg sazalina mintak.. and also tak sabar nak jumper kengkawan time knduri shada nnt.. sure meriah nnt.. GB reunion katanya.. sengal qayum tak dapat join lak.. so sengal..

okla da malas nak tulis da.. nak cari2 gambar lak nak menghiasi blog katanya..

ps - i made a few vlog videos but theyre not gonna be put here.. huhu.. malu..