~langit tak selalunyer cerah... dan mendung pon tak semestinya akan hujan...

salam,

harini bukan la hari paling bagus bagi aku, kerana terdapat beberapa perkara yg aku harap tak jadi tapi sudah jadi..

tapi bukan juga hari paling buruk, kerana at the end of the day, literally just minutes ago i found back something that i wish never to lose again... a recovery that i will forever be grateful for..

nvm, i will get to them one at a time..

today i had to work until 4 pm.. i personally think the TSD team didnt need my assistance at HDC, but since mr Chan had personally asked for my help since earlier this week, i felt its a courtesy that i should honour to him since he was my boss once.. and also i felt it could be fun to work in TSD with them lads like i did before.. coz honestly, i miss doing it, and miss them boys also..

after work, reached home at 5 more or less.. badan da penat.. but i promised my kak to go back w maju today.. and since i didnt go back last week, I really thought i should go back today.. also, i wanted to avoid unnecessary sulking by my dad.. he was mad and is still mad at me because i didnt go back last week.. even now hes not talking to me.. tapi takpe la, i hope it will pass sooner or later..

ok where was i??

yeah i promised to go back but time tu i was so damn tired already.. then atat and hazmeer came to my apartment coz he wanted the installer for my lord of the rings II game.. and we played kinect also... it was so much fun.. but i had to leave at 630 la coz if i didnt then id be late to reach w maju and my dad would be forever mad at me pulak kan...

reached w maju close to 730.. and i was a fool coz i said id join the games night at shadas house in damansara.. but considering everything that had happened, i thought i really couldnt join them there.. so i had to cancel... i didnt want to make things worse between me n dad..

but the worst thing was yet to happen.. my niece aleya played with my ipad and i dont know how it happened but it fell on the tile floor and the screen went black.. i didnt see this so i didnt know.. she returned the ipad to me and i thought that it had run out of battery so plugged it in for charging la..
my nephew aiman saw what happened and he told me what aleya did, so i went to check the ipad.. i tried to turn it on but it was not turning on.. i connected it to itunes on my laptop and heard the beep sound.. and it could also be sync.. after that i check the screen and found that the left side had fallen off from the socket...

Oh god i was so furious.. nak nangis, nak jerit, nak marah... but i held it all in... i went to my sis and showed her the thing... then she went mad, jerit2 kat aleya tu... budak tu diam je buat dek je.. didnt even say sorry.. haih la budak2 zaman sekarang... are we as parents or uncles too soft in child upbringing that we dont hit our children like our parents did to us?? thats a question with an obvious answer but still no action, no change, just mere words..

then my kak said she would pay for the repair later.. haaah i doubt it.. sekarang pon die da hutang aku rm2k already... repair screen tu aku rasa dalam 500 kot.. but tu pon aku tak sure la boleh repair ke tak..
i was quite stressed up la.. and frustrated.. i posted this on facebook..
"

Nak marah pon x guna benda da jadi.. Tp last2 aku jugak yg sakit balik.. Haih la... Langit x selalunya cerah...

"
for some reason i feel like i couldve been more tough(garang/tegas/scary?) on her... but then again, shes not my child... i cudnt just go and hit her when her mother was there... i dont know where the line lies... was i supposed to hit the kid?? and if i did, to what end?? i really didnt want to sort of cross the line and assumed the role of a father to punish the kid as if she was my own... this is something im not sure of of where it stands and what i should do...

this reminds me of another incident a few weeks ago at my parents house.. my other niece khayrin daughter of my kakngah, she made a mess at the house and i told her mum la to get it clean.. but she told me to clean it pulak.. then i said la, bukan anak aku yg buat sepah.. then she got mad saying shouldnt berkira coz according to her khayrin was also my daughter (sort of?)
sesuka hati je kan... when it comes to cleaning up shit, lending a hand, giving help, u say that la... tapi kalau aku pukol anak kau kuat sikit nnt dier nangis kau tarik muka kat aku pulak.. bukan tak pernah jadi.. aku pernah je pukol anak kak aku sekali tu kuat sikit pastu da tarik muka taknak cakap ngn aku... so tell me where does the line lies???

ok malas nak panjang2 citer pasal ni la... at the end of the day, they are  family... so kita beralah la... kalau ngn orang lain kita boleh beralah, dgn family takkan nak berkira sangat.. lagipon budak tu baru 8 tahun umor nyer.. and i dont think she purposely smashed my ipad to the floor kan..

well, the ipad screen tercabut made me miserable for a few hours la.. coz i was also worried for my financial standing as of now.. da la mak pon ada mintak tolong sikit for my brothers wedding ni.. and last week i paid traffic nyer summon and roadtax and cars insurans, now im so pokai... im broke!!!
bila la nak gaji ni..

so terpaksa la ditangguhkan niat nak shopping baju keje baru, nak shopping jam guess bagai... sumer benda tak penting haruslah ditangguhkan dahulu...

haaa like i said earlier la i was upset and miserable for a few hours after the incident, then i encountered a recovery of something i consider as great and priceless for me.. a memoir of me when i was a teenager.. my diary/journal when i was in kolej matrikulasi perak... and the earlier months in kolej mara seremban, and this was before i started my friendster blog...  oh god how i was such a teenager... the hormones and the naivety...
and that book was also the testimonial book where there were pages where my KMPK friends wrote goodbye words, farewell testimonials for me when i was leaving KMPK for KMS...
I read it all just now... everything ever written there.. and that made me smile...

kalau ikotkan aku nak je aku salin balik everything in there and post it here... but that would be ridiculous now, wudnt it...
but one thing for sure, i would want her to read it too... and i would want her to know whats in the journal/testimonial...everything and not one word less... i just want to share with her something like this.. something that is so precious for me... and i want her to know that this simple thing is what i treasure the most in life.. and this sort of thing that can make me smile again after my ipad is jahanam already...


now i wish i have the lens printer yg mcm dalam citer ghost protocol yg mamat tu pakai untuk make photocopy of the nuclear launch code tu.... so cool, tgk kertas tu, blink the eye and the page is printed somewhere else...

kalau aku ada lens tu da lama aku print/scan the content in that book and post them somewhere.. here maybe or somewhere else..

ok i think that is all for now... initially i wanted to go into more details of some of the things i wrote in the book... stories of how my crushes went from A to B to whoever it was la after... hahahaha... kelakar nyer diri ini time tu... sampai kisah mountains aizeera n thuraiya pon ada dalam buku tu... the jiggling balls as i described it back then...

and my english was tunggang langgang la, as expected of teenagers yg baru nak up ni..

Gosh!! The best thing right now is that I have someone whom i can share this feeling with, someone who is as equally excited as I am about the journal recovery... huhu... but too bad theres noone i can think of.. i wish that shed be excited... i would think she would be interested if it was 2 years ago... but now not anymore... many things have changed...

aaarhh.. this is another sad story... its better to leave it for another day..

so sampai di sini saja... later~~

lame dull life is what mine is..

damn people its been ages..

many things had rendered me slow at blogging these past few weeks but i think im gonna make an exception today.. i will post something today no matter how short or long it may be..

well, for a fact its no secret that many have taken place during the period that i havent been blogging.. and i just cant figure out on what i should start rambling on..

well maybe the primary reason why i had this sudden feeling to blog is just to explain why i havent felt like blogging.. ok now that sounds kinda silly realy..

been busy with work?
had no time?
had nothing interesting to blog about?
lame dull life has made me stupid and not interesting and i hate it..

ok maybe just a quick rambling on some so random things..

i love the show spartacus.. need not mention the reason for that.. watch and ull know what i speak of

i love going to the gym.. and also the results im seeing after almost 3 months been working out regularly.. but still a long way to go..
i will try to make it a habit and continue going to the gym even after ive reached my goal.. but for now the goal seems farfetched and that means i aint stopping any time soon.. not stopping at all would be better..

ok random gila cakap pasal gym..

and also kalau pasal gym sure nak cakpa pasal aci malik and aci subang.. hahaha lawak la aci aci yg pegi gym ni.. especially aci malik yg setting treadmill sejam.. orang lain da abes lari da dier sibuk nak tekan2 lagi kat treadmill tu... god knows what she was doing so long tekan2 mesin tu..
and also aci malik sangat fond of this machine untuk back excercise tu.. hahaha dia akan visit that particular machine several times.. i wonder whats her aim is.. getting slimmer? or bulding muscles to become malik nor?? haha thats how the name aci malik came about.. really funny..

today got no job meh?? haaa dunno.. dun care.. ada je keje.. that stupid csc el light and keluar sign need some changes some more.. bodo betol la.. benci bila kena buat keje sama dua kali..
and today got that FAT for proton switchboard.. i hope nothing out of the ordinary will happen.. or else i'd be damned..

aaaahhh bosannyer hidop sekarang.. need to find ways to make life more interesting and better.. want to go out often but got no money.. want to make more money but not ready for the commitment.. need to enjoy some more but feel like need to save money... buy new things??? what things?? and for whom??? banyak nyer persoalan.. damn i shouldnt burden my head with all these questions..i just want to watch spartacus some more..

okla nak sambung buat keje.. buat la apa2 pon.. haha..

~SPM~

SPM..

semalam tgk berita kat tv sibuk cerita pasal budak2 dapat spm 10a+ la apa la.. i know how that feels i was one of them kot.. but then i thought to myself, they must be thinking that their future is gonna be easier after this..

thats the myth/lie that was told to me when i was their age.. teachers, old people told me that SPM was the big jump the wall thats keeping me from an easy life.. guess what children, it was not the only wall..

take me for as example, i had to go to college la and took a level that was way harder than spm.. then go to uni.. with 4 papers to take every semester... nigga please, it didnt get easier... stop this nonsensce..

and it definitely doesst stop after uni.. if ur a fresh graduate still looking for a job ud probably beg to differ but i am not a fresh graduate so i know better..

working is not easy.. not just the task or the job at hand that u need to care about but also people surrounding u.. ur bos ur colleague, ur supplier ur client.. damn dealing with them is just as hard..
well actually, dealing with them is harder..
except for my boss la coz i think hes so nice and positive all the time.. byk keje sibuk caner pon dier takda stress2 manjang senyum jer.. gaji da berbelas ribu... damn!!! i want that!!!

so what im trying to say here is... dont think your journey has ended when your done wits SPM.. it only means new roads have presented themselves and regardless of which path u take... its gonna just as hard as the others... just choose one that u think will make u and ur loved ones have better lives later in the future

okla since aku kat ofis ni i feel not really safe pulak nak tulis blog..

till next time... later~~

hahaha macam budak f4 nyer English..

berikut adalah petikan ayat dalam email yg dihantar oleh bos PWS selepas kejayaan aktiviti di CSC sabtu lepas..

"I would like to Congratulation for successfully carry out CSC KLDC TNB shutdown activities, I am appreciate and would like to say “thank you” to the whole team that have putting your heart and the soul in this project."

haaa... kasihan..

ps : takot nak upload kat fb pasal nnt ada org komen "Please delete this immediately.."

MALAS

only one word.. and thats how its been for the past couple of weeks or so.. ive been infected by the disease.. the disease we all have ..

what i want to do:
1. lay in bed all day eating muruku ikan
2. watch spartacus until my nose bleeds
3. go to the movies and eat popcorn
4. shopping? bowling? macam boring pon ada
5. karoke? suara ada ke pon nak melalak?

haha theres nothing much that i really covet of doing.. just simple things like number 1 and 2..
in simpler words I just need rest.. as im so tired of working already..


and yes ive taken leave last week but only to fill my day with other work related activities.. and so is this new leave im taking on this coming tuesday.. there are already so many things im thinking of doing.. and not rest like i want and should to..


damn it this saturday ive gotta work 24 hours yaw at the darn CSC.. damn damn damn.. but sokey.. i wont be alone..

ok da malas nak mengarang nak tulis in bullet points jer now

• berat da turun 10kg yeay!!
• I can wear my old jeansnow yeay!!
• eee malas nyer nak call supplier mintak quotation ni.. sangat penat.. kalau setakat nak compile prices ni keje mudah jer.. nak design pon mudah jer..
• aaa nak jadi hot macam lee stram

im so bored...

i have nothing else to do hence a blog post.

yes i am working now, still at the office.. waiting for the time to struck 5.30 and then off i go..
but today i'll be playing badminton with the bosses tho coz they had asked me to arrange, book the court etc etc.. so 7pm i'll go to the the sport arena la

tm is supposed to fix streamyx at my new house. supposedly they did it yesterday but he said cannot coz he got job at another place so i set an appointment for him/them to come today at 12 tapi pasal dier bangang dan irresponsible he didnt call me at 12 so i called him he said he cannot at 12.. then he said after solat hed call me back to arrange a new time but he did so hes such an asshole for lying to me twice..

i dont want to call him i just want to make a complain later today.
well if i really want to make a complain i better go now coz its almost 4pm and tm only opens until 4pm..

but im just so lazy and dont want to do anything now..

typing this crap actually makes me look like im doing some work but in reality its all just crap..

ok lets talk about other random stuff..
capeks wife is pregnant already and theyre expecting a baby in september or october this year.. and so is shada.. shes pregnant already.. and how did i know about this?? haha i have my source la..

ok now im kinda busy coz i have to get involved/sorta handle a few job requests..TNB messaging tender, KLCC CHOC, infineon FAP WLD, P1 PJ new rectifier, KPOC data center, Sin Chew Command center. i am supposed to be new here and im not expected to do a lot but in all of the jobs i mentioned above i had to prepare almost everything.. sesuke hati je derang melepaskan tanggungjawab ke atas aku.. nasib baik aku cool aku boleh handle.. sort of la boleh..

but today cam takda keje.. except for sin chew one i dont know if im supposed to arrange the site visit or bryen will.. aku rasa cam malas nak amek port je la.. buat dunno je la.. lagipon mmg keje dier kot untuk buat site visit..

salu sangat complain pasal keje as if kalau aku keje lain aku akan enjoy my job.. highly unlikely..
work is work kat mana2 pon sama je kita keje ngn orang kita jadi kuli la..
aaa at times like this i envy anak2 raja who dont have to work but boleh hidup senang lenang  je kan..

 aaaahhh... can believe im saying this but i actually miss being/working in the technical team.. things are just so different now... they feel different.. changes are always hard right.. so takpe la.. im trying to adapt to my new environment..


haa talking about this it reminds me of eric tan, then of herbalife then of working hard in life to earn more money become rich etc etc..

i know its good to work hard to earn more and become rich.. but somehow i dont opt for that..

months ago i said something about a friend of mine who was willing to not buy a car, ride a bike to work so that he could save some money coz he wanted to get married buy a house bla bla bla..
then heres a story about eric tan yg keje kuat jual herbalife pasal dier nak jadi kaya hidup senang di masa akan datang..

i have something to argue against what these people are doing la but im not sure if its a strong enough arguement to hold my believe

"the money isnt yours until you spend it"

im the kinda guy who spends his money when he has it.. i dont save much.. if i had been the money saver kinda guy, i probably would have rm30k - 40k in my saving right now.. but i dont..

i spend my money.. coz i think that way way the money is surely mine.. saying this doesnt mean i dont support saving up money for the future.. i also want to save some for my future but i can hardly do that.. thats why i applied for that asb thingy hoping that it will help me save money for my future.. and i will topup my investment next year.. i plan to la..

haih... bila nak naik gaji ni..

okla aku da malas nak menaip.. da takda apa menarik pon nak citer... later~~

another boring day at the office

darn it the internet ni kejap ada kejap takda.. hasrat aku nak menulis blog sejak dari tadi asyik terbantut jer.. tapi la ni da ada lets make full use of it..

as the title suggests yes its another boring day at the office.. bos aku ah yau cuti sampai khamis and he didnt leave me with any job so here i am, still with nothing to do.. so relax2 je la ngadap laptop main internet download citer apa sumer.. aaahh... baik aku lepak umah jer buat sumer ni kan tapi masalahnyer umah aku masih takda internet lagi... lets hope ada la nnt tu.. (ayat tak konfiden)

so far today ive done a few personal stuff la..

i updated my resume and made a few job applications on jobstreet.. haha sesuka hati.. and also ive printed a few posters for tution iklan.. im planning to ajar tution at home la.. have them students come to my house and ill teach them there la.. haha.. this is so random i know..

i saw an ad for rumah lelong yesterday and the price is freaking cheap la 45k only.. my desire to buy a house now is over the roof.. but im still not sure if im eligible to apply for a housing loan right now.. i have a friend si fariq tu who worked at public bank dealing with housing finance.. i think of giving him a call or a visit one of these days la to ask more about housing loan..

well if tiada aral melintang, fariq is probably gonna move in with me.. and thats good news to me la.. boleh la dier tolong bayar sewa umah tu ringankan beban keluarga katanya..

and yes i said he worked at public bank pasal so foolish of him pegi berenti keje kat public bank tu.. haih la manusia ni selalu je menolak tuah kan... sekang ni apa keje kau?? ko suke ke keje sekang tu?? da mula merana mencari2 keje baru balik kan....

wah ngata orang nombor satu padahal nasib aku takda la seindah mana pon..

ok malas nak cakap pasal keje.. aku nak cakap pasal pemakanan..
ok this is another random stuff..
a few weeks back when i went to pd for shadas wedding i met up with my auckland friends who mostly were appalled looking at how big/fat ive become.. one of them rahim told me that after came back to malaysia he too had to control his eating to avoid the unnecessary expansion especially in the mid section.. he said since hes not doing sports regularly like he did in auckland he had to control his eating la..

so basically, based on what he told me ive decided to do exactly just that.. that is to take small portion for every meal.. half from the usual serving is enough already to sustain your body through out the day unless kau pekerja kontraktor mmg angkat2 batu tu kan kena la makan byk kan.. tapi kalau setakat duduk office ngadap laptop 8 jam mkn half the portion je pon da cukop da ekceli..

i know hes not the first to have said that.. kalau x silap dalam islam pon suruh makan sikit jer jgn sampai kenyang something like that.. kita je yg selalu take things for granted kan when it comes to ajaran2 islam ni.. ok now im following this ajaran and planning to follow it sampai mati..

bukan nak bangga or riak but i think im actually slimmer now that ive followed this kind of diet since the beginning of the month.. thats 2 weeks now.. ok maybe aku je perasan.. tapi as long as it makes me feel happy and confident, thats what matters kan...

another advantage from this diet is that my lunch expenditure is now less than before.. kalau dulu makan kat mamak tu wud cost me around 6 - 7 ringgit per meal.. now that i take half the portion, the mamak is kind enough to charge me half price for my nasi lauk ayam and sayur.. rm350 jer dier amek... haritu dier charge rm2.50 jer.. tah apa dier kira tah aritu.. maybe he was shocked looking at how small my meal portion was that day..

da untung2 dapat save duit on food kan..kalau kat malaysia ni average aku rasa orang makan 3 - 4 kali la.. breakfast lunch and dinner la atleast.. and kalau sehari tu aku rasa ada la dalam rm30 gak kan.. pastu sebulan da rm600 tau... tu tak include kalau ko pegi jenjalan kuar tgk wayang ke makan luar ke apa sumer.. mungking boleh sampai 700 or 800 kan esp sapa yg salu sgt keluar tu..

kalau gaji ko 2500 je sebulan.. belanja on food tu pon da 1/3 atau 1/4 dari gaji ok.. belom fikir pasal loan kereta la, loan itu loan ini.. sesak sesak..

uiks asal random je aku cakap pasal perbelanjaan lak ni..
and that reminds me i need to sort out my perbelanjaan la now.. ok la until next time.. later~~