ok jom sambung bebel

ok aku nak sambung bebelan aku yg dari pagi tadi tu.. altho i am not sure if i would be able to finish this post today.. haha.. konfirm la x habis nyer harini sbb skarang da dekat kol 4pm da.. lagi sejam setengah je aku ada nak menaip kisah2 hidop aku yg panjang ni.. pastu aku da la suka citer pepanjang kan..

tgk la intro yg kat atas tu.. tah pe2 tah tu pon nak panjang.. ok where did i stop just now?

ok tadi last citer pasal main bola kat old trafford, yg aku ada gado dgn matyer tu..
ok bukan la gado sgt pon.. dia je mulot jahanam panggil aku names, unpleasant names la..
aku honestly x kisah pon dgn panggilan tu coz i had thick skin..

ok nak selit jap cerita kisah office ni.. diantara kisah2 hidup lama aku ni..

boleh pulak budak2 ni argue saper nak pegi t9 la saper nak pegi cpoc la.. sedih la.. tgk je la tentative schedule.. kalau x clash tu xda la masalah.. susah la bebudak jaman sekarang ni.. sakit pulak hati kita ni.. jgn sampai aku charot kau besar besaran kat sini.. x aman hidop kau.. cewah, konon cam ada kuasa mistik je aku ni.. macam la charotan aku kat dalam blog ni power sangat...

power x power la.. sbb blog ni la fatah berenti keje.. eh.. kbye..

ok sambung kisah lama sewaktu berumur 18 tahun.. muda remaja aku..

meh sini nak bebel kisah pelajaran sikit.. walaupon sekarang ni topik pasal akademik ni aku da kurang sbb skarang ni aku bukan lagi seorang pelajar jadi hidop aku dah takda association dgn akademik. anyhow kat sini aku nak citer jugak..

kat kms ni aku amel a level, 3 subjek, physics chem dgn math.. aku da lupa dah pecahan math tu sbb ada pure math p1 p2 p3 pastu ada statistics dgn mechanics kalau x silap aku.. pastu physics dng chem ada 6 paper altogether.. 3 paper amek time AS, 3 lagi paper amek time A2..

AS tu stands for advance subsidiary, well A2 stands for advance 2? haha ntah.. tapi combine AS dgn A2 kau dapat la total A level kau nyer results..

results AS aku agak teruk la di mana aku dapat 2A 1C, kalau x silap aku la.. tapi sebab results A2 aku gempak, dia da balance balik dan aku dapat 3 A.. letup bang bang boom.. 3A so dapat la 15 point, iaitu maximum point, requirement mara kena dapat 13 point, tapi requirement untuk masuk university of auckland 11 point je pon.. so aku kira excellent la time tu..

pastu time kat kms ni aku ada stadi group.. aku nyer SG tu consist of me odie zhariq and syamim.. asyik2 dak2 ni jugak.. the other group utk kelas 6.4 ada david, capek, capdon, matyer dgn afiqkecil.. pastu for the girls there were aidzeera, nanad, janna, mysara tajuddin petai.. eh?

yg aku bangga ni sebab semuorang dalam SG aku dapat 15point.. glamer kan.. huhu ekselent katanya..

haih tetiba rasa xda mood nak citer lagi sbb tadi lawyer call pasal kes umah aku ni developer nak kenakan interest lak  rm3380.. cam vavi.. pastu tadi lawyer call cakap dapat diskaun jadi rm2000.. masalahnyer bukan salah aku kenapa aku nak bayar at all..
so skrg nak tunggu surat lawyer yg buat chronology for this payment to be made.. aku nak gi jumper developer and mintak untuk di waive kan.. sbb clearly derang yg lambat.. kalau aku x nak bayar, what options do i have eh?
haaaaa stress.. saper lawyer kat sini? anyone can advise?

haaa kosongkan minda.. xmau stress2 yg x perlu.. meh kita berbual lagi pasal masa lampau..

apa lagi nak citer pasal kms eh?

owh.. kat sini la aku berkenalan dgn penggunaan wella untuk meluruskan rambut.. of course la perintis atau pioneer menggunakan wella untuk straighten rambut adalah mehayam odienariegerodie..

we were in his room and he was applying the chemicals onto his hair, siap dgn shower cap nyer.. pastu satu block berbau ammonia.. bebudak ni cakap bau loji.. hasil dari pemakaian wella tu rambut odie terus kembang semangkuk mcm rambut rosmah.. dan yg penting nyer lurus..

so i was intrigued and the rest was history..

haaa nak citer jugak.. masa kat kms ni aku suke menenggek kat bilik dino sbb dia ada bawak laptop time ni.. pastu aku salu nyebok maingame kat laptop dia, laptop compaq warna kelabu, kalau x silap la..
time tu aku suka main game lord of the rings.. haha berjam2 aku lepak bilik dia.. bukan nak stadi.. main game je..
selain dino, odie pon ada bawak laptop jugak.. laptop toshiba warna biru, tapi kat laptop odie ni aku suka nyebok nak nonton desperate housewives katakau.. time tu baru season 1..

selain dari odie, adam dgn erwan pon ada bawak laptop.. dan satu benda yg aku takkan lupa ialah bila lila (ariff randzan) hulur tangan dari tingkap sbb nak pinjam laptop dari erwan sbb nak tengok porn.. hahahahaha... sampai mati pon aku takkan lupa benda tu.. kelakar gila bila dino cerita..

disebabkan masa mencemburui aku, aku akan suspend cerita ni kat sini.. esok bila ada kelapangan aku sambung la cerita zaman muda aku ni..

kendian~~

a burning desire to membebel

hello yuols and salam..

its july already and its my birthday month.. although besday aku dalam masa beberapa minggu lagi, tapi aku cam ada this one burning desire to write this post..

actually beberapa hari sudah ni aku banyak kali terfikir untuk tulis post dan mengimbau kenangan 10 tahun yg lalu..
the similar thing i did when i was turning 20, if i'm not mistaken, when i was in my 1st year of study in NZ, and i wrote a blog post in my friendster blog(that had been deleted) of how my life was, 10 years ago until today, which means since when i was 10 yo till i was 20 yo..

and sure enough there were many stories that i recalled.. and lucky enough for me that i managed to pdf-archive my blog posts(although not all of them) and i plan to upload all the pdfs to the internet, most probably to my dropbox acc.. maybe later.. after this post..

so in this post, i plan to do the same, recall my life when i was 18, and up till today that i am turning 28 in just weeks. in exactly 3 more weeks now that i checked the date.. hehe..

so 10 years ago i was 18, what happened to me?

i was in KMS, my 1st year in KMS.. the date i registered as a student in KMS was somewhere in July if i'm not mistaken..
before that i went to KMPk(Kolej Matrikulasi perak) which i was there for only about a month..
i made friends with many Chinese lads, who were mostly from Perak.. i learned mandarin, and i was quite good at it(so i was told).. i had many Chinese friends than Malays, no Indian as far as i could remember.. and i came up with a chinese/english name for, stephen it was, if im not mistaken..
hahaha i know i was so poyo right.. when i was talking to a new friend, i would introduce myself as stephen..

hahaha now that i think of it, i feel so poyo, but i dont regret it.. its part of my life journey kan..

before i left kmpk, i had a number of frens who were so fond of me, and i had this book, in which they would write their names, address, biodata and some ucapan, promises that we'd stay frends forever.. bla bla bla.. something like that..

i came across that book a few months back(if im not mistaken) and it made me smile, thinking of how naive we were.. so kanak2 kan..

now i already dont know where the book is.. haha and of cos da tak ingat da the names of them boys whom i made frens with..

ok banyak lak kisah pasal kmpk.. padahal banyak lagi benda nak citer ni..

owh i shouldve said this earlier. beware people for this post is gonna be so effing looooooooong...
well i plan to write as long and as many as i can remember..

ok next..

before masuk kmpk i worked at shangrila hotel, before dapat results spm.. kerja sebagai part time banquet waiter..
shangrila KL was not the first hotel that i worked at, the first hotel was hotel hilton KL, dekat2 dgn mandarin oriental, dekat bukit bintang area, not really sure actually, for i am not really good with jalan2 kat KL tu..
then the hotel changed name to hotel mutiara, then Concorde, if im not mistaken..

the first time i ever worked there, i followed my friend amirul hakim, who was also my classmate in middle school(F1 - F3), that was before i went to mrsm jasin.

i still remember we clocked in at 9am, and there was this big event thats happening at night and we plan to work until 11pm that night..
at 11am, when we were setting up the tables for that day's luncheon event, i was already tired and merungut "baru pukol 11??"
and he gave me an advise which to me is very useful and one that i had adhered to all my life, up till now that is..
when i whined like that, he said "kau buat je keje tu, jangan fikir, kau kosongkan otak kau, kau buat dek, kau gerak kan tangan kaki, cucuk pin tu kat kain tu satu satu, and before you know it, its lunch time.. then its time for coffee break, then dinner, then balik.. just do it, dont think"

so thats what i did, walaupun apa yg amirul hakim tu cakap sangat simple, dan very plain, tapi i am honestly grateful for having that with me, had helped a lot in my life, whenever aku berhadapan dgn sesuatu yg tak best, atau bosan atau sedih.. just hang on, and just farking do it.. before you know it, it will be over.. and you'll get the reward afterwards..

so nak dijadikan cerita, kerja aku pada hari tu tak habis at 11 pm as what we had planned, we continued working sampai pukol 5 pm the next day, and for that event, i got paid around rm300++ if im not mistaken..
kalau dulu kena kerja lebih 30 jam nak dapat rm300, sekarang sehari kerja dok goyang telor kat office pon boleh dapat rm300.. huhu..

homai, aku baru cerita pasal 2 benda jer.. x masuk lagi citer kat kms ni..

in my last blog post about this reminiscing thingy, which i mentioned above, i didnt describe fully of my experiences in kms, i just wrote down in bullet points.. but i dont want to just bullet point them all.. i want to cerita each and everyone of them..
yes bish this entry si gonna be so damn long..

ok lepas kmpk, aku pon dapat la offer untuk buat preparation A level kat kms before fly ke NZ..

kat kms aku xda la kesorangan.. my good friend yazri yaakob aka wong.. my bestfren in msrsm jasin..
and there was odie and sola whom i was close with when in mrsm jasin.. there were others la jugak.. ada acap poh(ashraf azmi) pastu ada syamim( maharajadewa capub jasin)..

masa mula2 masuk kms aku xda apa2 kisah sangat la nak cerita.. except masa mula2 tu aku tak suka betul dgn matyer.. nama penuh dia mohd hekmatyer fahmin bin hasan fahmin.. dia budak ex mrsm berseri, which was the best among mrsm for spm 2004,. so i had this presumption that he was berlagak.. and he was from kelantan some more.. back in those days i had a bad impression on kelantan people.. hehe.. i think most of us have had that bad impression on kelantanese before, at least at one point in our lives..

why i disliked this kid? pasal dia cam suka condemn aku.. or mungkin aku je yg perasan kot.. pastu dia cam pandai, which made me envy him even more.. and he was good in volleyball.. damn that was the real thing that made me dislike him..
hahahaha.. so fani la my younger self.. pasal tu orang tu tere dan pandai aku nak tak suka dia lak..

but now we are good, matyer and I are good, i think.. we dont talk anymore.. we're still friends on fb but we dont talk anymore.. nothing to talk about i guess..

masa kat kms jugak aku da start active tulis blog kat friendster.. i would write about the randomest thing.. about my fly trip pergi hisap shisha, shisha nyer dapur tu jatuh berderai.. pastu pasal kisah main snooker dgn nizam, matyer, boy, mon, miji.. pastu pasal kisah cinta monyet kanak2.. pasal kisah stress aku (aku pon xtau kenapa aku stress sgt time ni)

mungkin perkara biasa la tu budak nak membesar, nak rasa stress, nak memberontak la itu lah ini lah.. tah per2 je kan.. xpe la, its part and parcel of growing up.. we dont just get born and know stuff.. we learn and some had to learn the hard way.. maybe i was one of them... oops digressed.

i had this one friend, a girl, who read my blog, i mean used to read my blog on frenster.. i know because she would leave comments.. nama dia aidzeera.. and yes we went to NZ together, she took EE but i think she didnt finish.. then we lost contact.. but i heard from people that she changed her field of study from EE Engineering to Law(so random, right)
and she was living with her bf in NZ, went to grape orchard and went wine tasting with her bf, then she got into a fight with her frens coz she'd borrow their money but never pay them back.. hmm.. sampai situ je kisah hidup aidzeera yg aku tahu..

my point here is, i had high expectation for her because she was brilliant, very good and fluent english.. but from stories of her that i heard, she might have not ended up so well... well then again, who am i to judge?? entah2 dia lagi berjaya dan bahagia dgn hidup dia sekarang..
i shouldnve judged.. i wish we had remained in contact but we didnt.. i dont know how did it get to this.. well maybe thats normal.. we cannot keep all of our friends forever.. over time, people just drift apart and thats normal..
like i said, its part and parcel of life..

in kms i had great teachers.. i had mr selva who taught us english.. hes a short indian guy in his late 50s when he taught us, that means he must be in his late 60s now.. he would always ask questions to make us think, on current issues, and sometimes on sensitive issues involving races and religions.. i
dont hate him for that.. i enjoyed having deep and fruitful conversations with him on these topics, although i was not so very well knowledged when it came to agama, but atleast the talks which we had with him, made us think.. and thinking is not a bad thing, right? yg penting kena sentiasa ada panduan yg betul, dan berasaskan ajaran islam, alquran dan sunnah.. cewah..

then i had Pn Khairiah who taught us chemistry option paper.. option paper which was paper6 of A level chemistry, she is the only teacher from kms that i still keep in touch with.. boleh kata stiap kali raya i would go visit her at kajang with odie, zarik dan lain2.. she still knows me, im touched..

i like her way of teaching, yg sgt specific dan point oriented.. she taught us how to read between the lines, to identify the important points in long text passages, which were so boring and daunting.. so for that teacher, i thank you..

ok i dont feel like talking more about teachers, nak cakap pasal benda random yg lain.. kat koop kms dulu ada jual nasi lemak yg sedap dan dadih yg best gila.. dadih sejuk yg susu dia perisa susu dutch lady tu.. harga dia rm1, or rm1.50 kalau x silap.. aku selalu gak la beli dadih dan nasi lemak koop tu..
pastu memalam ada orang jual berger kat sebelah DS, pon kesukaan aku gak tu..

kalau fly salu pergi makan kat foodcourt kat ampangan, kena jalan past penghulu cantik, pastu lepas pacific mall.. pastu baru sampai ampangan.. makanan paling femes kat situ adalah rtkd.. roti telur kentang daging.. owh leleh air liur bila teringat balik.. combination sos dan mayonaise dgn rtkd tu adalah terbaik.. sekarang xtau la ada lagi ke tak.. huhu.. kenangan sungguh..

ok nak cakap pasal benda lain pulak..
dulu kalau kat kms, keluar dating pergi la terminal one atau seremban parade, makan anw kat depan seremban parade.. aku rasa anw tu dah tutup dah kot.. i read it in the news not so long ago..

kat kms, petang2 aku salu main volleyball with my boys..
antara pemain volleyball tegar kat kms adalah aku, erwan, zhariq, saser(faizal hama), dalino, adam medic(skandal zhariq), bakhit bahot, matyer, david danding, senior pisang, senior putih terengganu(x ingat nama)
pastu ada jiji(dia suka kat senior putih tganu tu).. pastu kadang2 ada capek(skendal dalino), capoh, odie and syamim pon ada, boleh tahan ramai jugak la budak turun main volleyball.. cukup la 2 3 team kadang2 tu.. tapi sorry la aku da x ingat sangat semua orang..

sometimes main bola kat padang depan kms, yg kami panggil old trafford..its not a football field pon..

its like a moderate sized lawn, maybe around 25-30 meters in width and 60-70 meters in length, or maybe less.. so kat situ la main bola petang2..

time main bola ni aku salu dituduh bermain secara kasar.. haha.. maybe aku mmg main kasar, sebab aku kaki bangku kot.. so aku main redah je lah orang kan.. aku pulak mmg badan jenis besar kan.. rangka besar so bila tolak orang main bola tu tentu2 lah budak lain tu akan tewas.. haha..
ada satu hari tu aku gadoh ngn matyer pasal bola ni la.. i dont remember how it went, dia nak sepak bola, pastu aku masukkan kaki aku in between, so dia gi sepak my kaki instead, kitorang pakai boots so aku takda la sakit pon kena sepak, tapi dia nyer kaki tu mungkin terpeleot  ke apa ke so dia sakit and he called me names, to which i didnt respond and i just left there..
that night he came to my room and apologized.. and aku as the bigger person(literally bigger) accepted his apology and moved on

alamak aku ada kerja nak kena buat sekarang ni.. so untuk itu, post ini akan di gantung di sini dan akan di sambung bila aku habis kerja petang ni.. or esok pagi.. depends.. lantak la ni blog aku sukati aku la bila nak sambung..
tapi aku mmg ada byk gila lagi citer nak membebel kat sini ni.. kau tunggu kau.. siap la kau... haha

meh sini layan lagu hasnol sambil melayan perasaan.. lagu wajib karoke aku n odie.. kononnyer..
lagu yg aku layan sambil menaip blog post ni.. kasi feeling2 old times gitu..

kbye..later~~

puasa time already.. huh so fast la..

Salam semua..

pejam celik je kita da berada dalam bulan ramadhan dah.. tahun 1436H.. if im not mistaken la.. hehe.. atau dalam kalender masihi tahun 2015..

its the second day of fasting here in Malaysia.. jam baru menunjukkan 0851H.. masih panjang jer perjalanan puasa kita pada harini..

ok seperti biasa la.. aku da lama x memblog jadi banyak la cerita nak share kat sini kan..
tp actually semangat aku nak memblog harini mcm samar2 je sebenarnyer.. boring jer..

1. Bulan puasa dan niat ibadah tahun ni

aku pun x sure nak tulis apa sebenanrnye tapi tadi dapat satu msg dalam group whatsapp, ada org ni kasi gambar meme berkaitan puasa dan tetiba terlintas lak nak membebel kat sini pasal gambar tu..

ntah la taktau la this time around aku rasa cam fake je gambar ni.. mungkin aku terlalu negatif.. tapi aku cuma rasa je.. xda pon aku buat kecoh ke apa..
perasaan agak berkecamuk yer sebab aku cam xtau caner nak explain apa yg aku rasakan ni.. huhu..

oh speaking of niat untuk bulan ni.. ofcoz la nak puasa penuh.. dan insyaallah dgn izin Allah aku nak buat teraweh penuh gak.. tp tu mungkin agak sukar berikutan aku kena pegi sarawak ahad ni untuk job di miri

2. Naik platfor Perisai pacific 101 kat Sarawak

oh ahad ni aku dgn nikman akan ke sarawak untuk buat PM servicing job untuk system Fire and Gas Detection.

aku takda pon pengalaman atau knowledge banyak dalam system ni.. and neither does nikman..
kita lenjan je la.. buat je apa yg tahu dan yg penting kita konfiden sajork.. haha..

haha taktau nak borak apa da.. next~~

3. Tak jadi pergi UK dan x jadi pergi Korea

i have mixed feelings about this actually.. about the UK part, yes i was pissed at a certain someone who suddenly decided to send someone else instead of me.. tapi aku tahu its no use to dwell it in.. whats past is past.. lagipun nnt akan ada opportunity lain kan.. insyallah

about this korea thingy, we had a meeting haritu dgn bos besar Abang D and tetiba lak ada 2 orang lain yg willing to go to Korea, bila Mr Dang cakap boleh balik seminggu before raya.. sebelum ni xda pon nak volunteer.. tetiba aritu kata "I can go to Korea bla bla bla"
such a suck up ass nyer budak.. whats the word eh untuk pengampu ni?? suck up la kan? ke kiss ass? ntah la.. yg penting maksud nyer sampai..

well thats that.. so aku xyah kena gi kora before raya.. tapi after raya mungkin kena pergi.. tp mungkin x jugak.. sumer depend on abe lie.. sekarang dia kat korea dan akan balik 26 june.. ikut planning nnt 25 july dia kena pergi balik korea dgn nikman.. aku sebagai back up dia je, in case kalau dia xnak pergi..

aku mixed feelings sbb aku nak pergi jugak sbb nak duit banyak.. kalau pergi ni boleh dapat dalam rm30k gak kot more or less.. banyak tu bai.. aku da la nak pakai duit banyak sbb nak masuk rumah bagai..

tp aku nyer bini xnak aku pergi lelama sbb dia kata die xleh ditinggalkan lelama.. haih.. like i said la.. mixed feelings..
moga semua dipermudahkan Allah..

all in all, I am happy that i get to celebrate ramadhan and syawal here in malaysia with family..

ok next..

4. I'm about to be a father

huhu.. the reality still feels so surreal.. my wife is pregnant.. dia mengalami rasa x sedap perut, loya2 dan demam2.. so kita pon pergi la klinik pastu doktor tu suruh buat UPT(Urine Pregnancy Test) and keluar la 2 line menunjukkan hadirnya ECG dalam her pee..
hehehe.. walaupon aku xtau apa tu ECG, aku dgr Doktor tu cakap camtu..

Ya Allah seronoknyer rasa.. doa kami da termakbul.. sekarang baru 1st trimester so kena jaga elok2.. makan benda2 yg elok.. ni da puasa x sure la boleh puasa ke tak..
aku cakap kalau boleh tahan, puasa la.. kalau x tahan jgn paksa diri.. kalau memudaratkan dibenarkan untuk tidak puasa..

nnt next weekend ada appointment dgn Dr tu sbb nak scan bagai.. by that time aku da balik dari Sarawak insyaallah.. hehe..

Dalam app "the bump" yg my wife download tu dia cakap pada time ni size baby tu baru besar poppyseed.. comel kan..

ikut apps tu jugak, my wife is due in late february or early march next year.. doa2kan yer..

bila fikir2 balik mmg amazing kan caner semua ni berlaku, process procreation ni.. if this isnt proof enough of God's power, I dont know what is..

I am so grateful.. and bersyukur ke hadrat Ilahi.. tu yg niat nak taraweh penuh tu.. hehe.. bukan bernaza.. tapi rasa cam sangat bersyukur yg mmg ikhlas aku nak buat lillahitaala.. lagipun bukan susah pon.. dan insyaallah nnt terbuka hati untuk ibadah2 yg lain pula.. sama2 la kita doa..

owh now baru teringat.. my wife and i already bought flight tix nak ke paris bulan 1 tahun depan.. haaa.. xtau la boleh pergi ke tak ni sbb da pregnant.. aritu masa beli x pregnant lagi.. huhu.. worst case scnenario is terpaksa burn je la ticket tu.. nak buat caner kan.. kesihatan dan keselamatan lagi penting daripada bersuka ria..
insyallah ada rezeki lebih nnt boleh pergi..

haaa da xtau nak membebel pasal apa da ni.. dan perot pon rasa da memulas2.. rasa nak ke jamban dulu yer anak2..
sehingga bertemu di lain masa..
daaa~~~

bulan May

aku rasa sangat bosan yer sekarang..
dan ye aku sedar yg aku tgh makan gaji buta kat ofis ni sbb xda keje.. stress jugak dgn org kora yg asyik delay pemergian aku ke kuwait ni..
time2 mcm ni yg buat aku sedih dan kesal sbb x dpt pergi korea.. aku rasa x perlu la aku cakap byk pasal x dpt pergi korea ni sbb nnt ada org yg akan tersinggung.. xpe lah, biarlah aku yg tersinggung.. sbb perasaan aku hanya aku yg tahu..

ok moving on to another subject..  well, ekceli theres no subject to be exact..
i am feeling bored with no job to do.. nak tgk movie pun rasa cam x best sbb skrg dah ada mamat dok belakang aku.. mamat yg department training tu.. muka die cam selalu nak serius je and i am not close to him, not friends with him.. rasa cam risau la kalau2 die report kat boss kata aku keje asyik dok tgk movie je kat ofis ni..

so untuk mengelak dari kelihatan seperti aku sgt free dan makan gaji buta, aku rasa baik aku memblog daripada nonton movie.. atleast nampak macam aku tgh menaip, ilusi seperti sedang membuat kerja.. tapi kalau dia tahu blogspot die tahu je yg aku x buat keje senanyer tapi tgh update blog..
tp lantak la.. i still think its better than tgk movie..

aku bercakap dgn faiz tadi, die bgtau yg job kuwait ni da konfem, based on his teleconversation with the Daelim PIC.. he asked me if we should purchase the air ticket already, i advised him to wait for the korean to reply his email, then to forward the email to Sandra for ticket purchase and N for cash advance release.. i think thats the right step.. so setakat ni kita tunggu je la email orang daelim yg tak kunjung2 tiba..

ok next thing nak bebel kat sini pasal job yg kat filipins tu.. disebabkan ina the only person left dari group project rmp2, so dia la yg handle soalan2 dari org petron pasal acs system yg dah diinstall kat sana.. brand elid.. aku yg pergi commissioning bendalah tu dan masa aku pergi mmg xda masalah semua controller dah online.. aku rasa aku ada update kat blog ni dalam post2 yg lalu.. kalau x silap aku la.. tp aku x igt sebenanyer..

disebabkan aku masih dalam loop email tu so aku masih lagi tahu apa yg berlaku.. once a while ina akan tanya benda2 teknikal pasal acs tu yg aku sndiri x sure sbnanyer.. pasal aku pergi dulu buat installation and checking sikit2 je.. x masuk la detail sampai sql purging whatever shit..

oklah, bosan cakap pasal kerja.. nak cakap pasal increment..surat increment HR baru issue.. i got mine yesterday.. dapatla naik gaji sikit.. tapi sikit sgt la aku dapat.. aku agak sedih la tapi kesedihan aku tu xda lah melampau disebabkan dalam group whatsapp servis tu Matyen dah bgtau yg budak2 servis increment sikit x macam budak projek.. sbb budak servis byk pergi site dan dpt allowance and OT yg 2 3 kali ganda budak projek dapat.. tp aku rasa ini alasan bullshit la.. mana boleh sbb kitorang dpt allowance jadi increment rendah.. jadi budak projek yg pergi site tu should get increment rendah la jugak? kan kan?

well, company ni mmg pernuh dgn bullshit tp aku malas nak fokus on the bad things of it.. maybe im an optimist who prefers to see the good in people or in this case, my company..

org cakap kita kena bersyukur.. ye aku bersyukur, tp dalam hati still rasa x adil kalau derang decide mcm tu...

and nak lawan caner pun.. ni company orang.. kita pekerja kat sini.. ada keje ni pun dah syukur dah sebenanyer..jaman sekarang ni dah la byk company buang pekerja sbb harga minyak jatuh..
lagipun ni naik gaji kan.. bukan turun gaji..
pasal naik Sr ke x tu aku x kisah sebenanyer.. aku kisah pasal gaji je..

xpelah, aku malas nak sedih2.. aku nak bersyukur.. rezeki Allah tu luas..

owh speaking of rezeki Allah luas, aku rasa aku nak cari side income la.. hehehe rasa nya dari dulu lagi aku da niat nak cari side income ni tapi disebabkan kemalasan, niat ni tak pernah di bawa ke execution..
tp kali ni aku cam nak nekat sikit.. sbb xmao memalas da..
oh aku rasa cam bersemangat nak buat side income ni sbb bebaru ni aku ada gi jumpa dgn sorang akak ni.. dier agent cwa unit trust.. selain dari tu die agen prudential jugak.. die buat cwa utk kwsp dgn prs jugak.. die nampak seperti sorang yg baik dan bertudung labuh gitu.. so dia dah mendapat keyakinan aku..

aku dah buat prs dgn tambah epf unit trust aku dgn dia.. prs tu masuk 1k, yg epf tu masuk 2k..
sbb aku nye epf x byk.. hanya mampu masuk 2k sajork..

owh utk yg tak tau PRS tu stands for Private Retirement Scheme.. boleh lah goole utk tahu dgn lebih lanjut yer..

owh back to me getting started on this side income thingy.. i will start lepas balik dari kuwait nnt la kot.. sbb kuwait ni cam da konfem kan.. bila la aku nak stadi unit trust, pastu gi training cari customer bagai..
ataupun, aku start sbg agent prudential la.. hmm... aku pun x sure lagi sebenanyer..

masa jumpa dgn akak tu aritu aku gi ngn wife aku la.. aku suggest supaya wife aku yg start jadi agent tp nampak mcm die x berminat.. x minat xpe la.. aku berminat.. biar aku je yg join.. tp kena tunggu timing yg baik sikit la..

ok next topic la..

aku da makin gemok, tu semua da tahu.. tapi aku rasa cam ada semangat baru nak gi gym kuruskan badan bagai.. tapi selalu x dpt sokongan.. tp pokok pangkalnyer diri aku sndiri.. kalau x dapat sokongan pun at the end of the day, ni badan aku.. kaki aku.. kalau aku betul2 nak pergi bersenam, aku boleh je pergi.. tp ni tidak.. rasa malas sgt menebal yer... diri sndiri yg malas nak bersenam tp nak put the blame on other people kata tak bagi sokongan la ape la.. padahal diri sndiri yg malas..

kalau x dpt sokongan tapi hati da nekad nak pegi, mesti boleh je pegi.. nak seribu daya kan..

haa nak citer gak skrg ni aku tinggal kat umah mertua aku kat pekan nenas dgn my wife and his bro only.. my MIL and FIL now living in mutiara rini rumah abg ipar aku lagi satu.. utk 3 bulan akan datang ni derang akan stay sana sbb my BIL punya wife skrg sambung stadi kat jepun... buat PHD.. aku pon x faham sgt kenapa 3 bulan je.. tp itu lah ceritanya..

so kat rumah pekan nenas tu kitorang kena la hidup sndiri.. masak sndiri.. basuh baju sndiri... well mostly my wife la buat hehehe.. tp ada la tolong sikit2..

owh speaking of house kan.. rumah kitorang khabarnya akan siap boleh didiami bulan julai atau ogos tahun ni..
insyaallah..

ada lah diskas sikit2 pasal perbelanjaan nak masuk umah baru nnt ni.. nak pasang grille la.. pasang lampu kipas AC semua.. pasang kitchen cabinet, pasang closet bilik.. pastu barang2 perabot rumah macam tv, sofa, katil, meja makan, peti ais, dapur induction (glamour yuols)
so semua2 barang ni membawa ke jumlah kasar RM43k++
mmg pening kepala tgk amount yg byk yg nak kena spend masuk umah ni kan..
pastu check la.. ok skrg saving ada berapa, check kwsp acc2 ada berapa, pastu estimate berapa byk lagi boleh simpan sampai bulan 8 tahun ni..
ok set ada Rm46k++

hahahaha excited nyer bila tgk duit cukup nak masuk rumah ni.. rasa cam ringan pulak beban kepala ni.. sbb bila fikir pasal duit ni kan mmg selalu akan stress..
tp bila da buat kira2 mcm ni dan tgk duit tu cukup rasa cam yakin sikit la nak masuk umah baru ni.. tu pun bajet 43k tu kitorang letak over2 sikit la.. insyaallah cukup la duit tu nnt..

ni dpt pergi site ni mmg nak simpan duit la ni.. x mau da spend on benda2 yg merepek dah pasni..

okla yuols.. tangan da penat nak menaip.. mata pun da berair sbb lama sgt ngadap pc ni..

hoho.. sehingga ke lain masa yuols.. harap2 nnt birthday aku my sayang belikan pc sebijik utk umah baru kita.. huhu.. xpe sbb nnt boleh claim PCB..

owh speaking of claim PCB, aku buat e filing bulan lepas, kenapa still xda berita dari lhdn? bila nak bagi pulangan lebih bayaran cukai aku ni? x byk pon.. ada la dalam rm200.. tp ok la tu..
boleh aku buat bayar PRS aku tu..

okla till next time.. later yalls~~

gosh it is April now... already??!!

Salam makhluk2 sekalian alam.
harini khamis 16 April 2015, jam menunjukkan pukol 0837..
pejam celik je da bulan april dah ni..

lama betul aku x update blog.
no reason actually.. aku just malas.. juga sebab aku dah xda byk masa berseorangan..

dulu2 aku byk menulis sebab aku ada byk masa bersendirian sbb belum kawen..
and most of the time i would write about sad stuff, mostly to console myself.. to cheer myself up..

but now i dont need to anymore.. i am not alone most of the time.. there are always things to do with le wife..

and also, there is no sad stuff going on in my life at the moment.. and Alhamdulillah for that..

but today I am posting a blog entry.. well atleast i am trying to.. to be honest, I am not entirely sure if this post will meet its completion.

damn my hands are already tired from typing.. its not half page long yet.. nampak sangat da lama x menaip.. dah berkarat.. speed menaip pon dah slow.. macam jaman2 baru nak bukak hotmail dulu..

well, apa yg nak diborakkan kat sini yer??

oklah seperti biasa, random stuff.. apa saja yg terlintas di fikiran..

this morning aku baru je plan cakap nak gi gym kat bini aku, then i guess my MIL heard me and then she said "malam jumaat x payah la pegi gym"

oopss speechless pulak.. kita baru ada semangat nak workout mengeluarkan peluh.. semalam dah x pegi gym sebab gi makan mesjid depan rumah tu.. aku pun sengal x bawak baju sukan semalam masa keluar rumah tu..

haaih.. perasaan nak bergym petang ni membuak2.. we'll see if I could persuade my wife to join me instead.. hehe..

ok next nak cakap pasal apa.. topik hangat di media sosial sekarang antaranya adalah berkenaan GST and komen Dr M suruh Najib letak jawatan sebagai PM. Nak komen byk2 pun x guna kat sini..

basically I agree with Dr M, all he had done up till this day is ask questions.. valid questions that the people have the right to the answers to.. 2 major questions that I can recall, 1st is about the death of Altantuya and execution of Sirul who had murdered the Mongolian woman.

2nd one is about 1MDB abd the missing of RM42billion of its fund.

but it seems like Najib is just ignoring him.. and to me that only shows how incompetent of him as a leader.. and that will hurt him in the next GE which will be in a few years..
tapi nak buat caner kan, there are still idiots who will vote for him.. and theres this possibility of having a biased, unfair, non-transparent election.. x telus, x jujur..
if the accusations by the oppositions in the last GE13 were true, then I pray to God to punish them corrupt beeches di dunia dan akhirat..
dan semoga orang2 teraniaya ni dilindungiNya..

Berkenaan GST tu pulak, I suppose it could help the country to improve its economy and some say its a fair way to ensure everybody who lives in the country and enjoying everything it has to offer, will contribute and pay their share fairly..
although fair is a subjective word. Equal does not necessarily mean fair..

oklah, enough about that..

lets talk about work.. aku ni actually was scheduled to go to Kuwait this week.. but this darn Koreans of Daelim still havent given us a firm date of this mobilisation.

test gear dah rent dah Rm4000/mth..
visa dah prepare.. cash advance da dapat rm3.5k.. kang kalau cancel trip tapi cash advance dah habis sebab shopping online byk sangat.. sakit pulak hati kita ni..
btw, saja nak share kat sini kuwait dinar ni mahal gila weh.. cer tgt exchange rate kuwait dinar against MYR

but this morning Faiz (the PIC of this project) told me them Koreans will revert with a firm date for us to mob to Kuwait..

I am excited to go to Kuwait mostly because we will transit at Dubai.. and owh we are flying Emirates there.. not business class though.. altho it wouldve been awesome if it was.. hehe..

taktau la naper rasa cam sexcited je nak pegi Dubai.. mungkin byk sgt exposure from Holywood showing how beautiful Dubai is.. tapi kalau gi Dubai pon, cuma transit sahajo.. 12 hours transit if I'm not mistaken.. sempat la jugak nak gi jenjalan, selfie kat Burj khalifah and what not..

but me wife is not happy that I'm going to Kuwait, because I will be gone for a month.. I am not happy about that too.. and I am sorry I am not expressive enough.. but of course I'll be missing her..

i am just the kind of person who prefers to only focus on the positive side.. who believes that we should only focus on the positive side of things.. in every decision, every journey, there will be good and bad, loss and gain.. but why sorrow when you can celebrate??

thats how ive always been.. lifes too short to be sad..kan? kan? KHENNNN.... *nazimothmansangat

previously I was supposed to go to Korea for 3 months but I didnt go because my wife didnt let me.. yes I know it sounds like she's controlling me, making the decision for me.. but I do not mind it.. believe I made the right decision by not going to Korea.. because I care.. because she matters and because I respect her say in our marriage.

lagipun, ada job lain yg aku boleh pergi seperti south acis atau Kuwait ni, thats why its was ok for me to decline going to Korea.. tapi kalau memang xda choice, nak xnak kena la pegi Korea.. walaupun the prospects of going to Korea tu macam x menarik jer.. hehe..

oklah, enough about work..

this month is the first month I pay for my housing loan.. bank OCBC, interest rate 4.45% and mothly payment is rm1706.. and kalau masuk life insurance great eastern tu rm220.. so every month bayaran rumah in total is rm1926.. ok pitam sebentar..

pening kepala gak ni.. caner nak bayar bulan2 depan ni.. sebab tu la aku cakap kat bini aku.. I cannot afford to not go outstation because thats what pays for ze hauz..

i know that we still could afford to pay the house even without my overseas allowances.. because my wife's pay is almost the same as me.. but I dont want to ask her to pay.. I feel better about myself if only I pay.. call it a man's ego if you must.. I dont care.. after all, everything that Men do, be it for himself or for others is to make themselves more attractive to ladies.. hahaha..
I agree with this to a certain extent.. that i read about here ..  no 6

http://aplus.com/a/6-things-that-men-want-women-to-know?so=686b8429-fbd9-4472-b6fc-820ab37dc757&ref=ns

aku rasa there will be a next trip to Korea after Raya, and I hope my wife wont oppose me to go there then.. hehe fingers crossed..

   

nampak sangat la the main reason nak pergi Korea sebab nak ngompol duit kan.. haha yes I admitz.. and i haz no shame in admitting that.. moneys important BIJ!!

haaa perut terasa seperti memulas petanda berry2 mahu dibebaskan.. jadi aku harus habiskan blog post ini di sini..
insyallah bertemu lagi di masa akan datang.. mungkin 3 bulan dari sekarang..

daaa~~~

indonesia

salam semua..

mmg dah lama aku tak menulis di sini..
aku anggap itu suatu lumrah di mana keadaan berubah, mungkin juga manusia termasuk diriku..
jadi aku berubah,
menulis blog bukan lagi satu priority..
emang nya sebelum ini juga bukan satu priority cuma barangkali kebelakangan ini aku tidak punya kesempatan yg byk utk menulis.
aku ada di indonesia sekarang, atas urusan kerja.

ada di sini utk sebagai supervisor utk menyelia dan memeriksa kerja2 pemasangan system PAGA utk projek Banyu Urip di kawasan bernama Bonorejo dekat Jawa Timur.
aku percaya aku pernah menulis tentang projek ini dalm entry yg lalu, sewaktu aku masih training di Singapura sekitar lewat tahun 2013zz

di sini, aku menetap di Hotel Mega Bintang di daerah Cepu, Jawa tengah di mana perjalanan ke Bonorejo mengambil masa kurang lebih 30 minit.

aku ke sini bersama Azlie, rakan sekerja di Omega.
Namun hari ini dia ke Lamongan yg jauh nya dalam 3 jam perjalanan dari Cepu.
aku berasa tak senang dgn pemergian Azlie ke Lamongan kerana kerja yg dilakukan di Lamongan itu bukan dalam skop kerja utk kami di sini.

tapi aku tak mahu bikin ribut dan buat kecoh.
aku rasa aku tak bakal berdepan masalah kalau berja seorangan di sini hari ini.

cuma pada waktu ini aku tidak boleh bikin apa2 kerja kerana permit yg belum dapat kelulusan.
jadi aku cuma nunggu di bawah building OB-02 ini utk permit nya siap.

aku merasa sakit perut,
dan mengalami cirit birit.
tak pasti pula apa yg ku makan sehingga cirit birit sebegini, atau mungkin itu adalah gejala tahunan buat diriku. bila dtg bulan januari atau februari aku pasti akan cirit birit.
aneh, bukan?

sudah dekat seminggu aku mengalami selsema dan hidung berair.
aku rasa aku tau apa puncanya.
kerja di tgh panas di waktu siang hari lalu tidur di bilik berpendingin hawa di malam hari.
aku syak ini lah punca selsemaku masih belum mahu hilang..
sudah habis pun ubat selsema yg diberi doktor minggu lalu,
sekarang aku hanya makan panadol utk selsema.
namun sudah 2 hari aku berhenti makan panadol itu kerana aku tak mahu aku punyai kebergantungan terhadap ubat2an.

aku mahu menulis lagi namun battery phone aku sudah hampir habis.
aku harus berjimat supaya dpt berhubung dgn org lain jikalau keadaan memerlukan.

aku rasa sangat lapar skrg #random

sehingga di lain masa.. kendian ~~

tak keruan

salam everyone..

oh tuhan it has been so long..

as usual i will feel a lil guilty for having abandoned this blog for so long..

then i would say things like "oh gosh so many have happened.. bla bla bla although its really odd that i dont seem to be able to tell them here.."

yup.. thats it.. thats about right..

its 10.10am right now..

i am planning to go out with my wife at 11am..

owh yes.. i am a married man now..

it has been 1week since my marriage..

haha i told you.. so many have happened..

ok apa lagi nk cakap eh..

pelik kan..

otak jadi blur..

lidah kelu xtau apa nak kata..

merasa tak keruan?

mungkin juga tp aku sndiri xtau apa punca

rindu hidup bujang?

barangkali

chuak hidup sbg suami orang?

the fear is constant

tapi x perlu nak runsingkan tentang itu semua.. x dpt apa2.. instead kita kena bersyukur dan nikmati apa yg da ada dgn kita..

xda apa yg sempurna dalam dunia..

i know this..

aku penat..

adakah aku tertekan berpunca dari kenaikan berat badan?

jadi aku stress bila aku nak shopping baju/seluar sbb bila gemuk pakai apa pun x cantik..

atau mungkin aku merasa terganggu akibat insiden ubat batuk semalam?

yup.. itu boleh jadi..

haha byk pulak siri soal jawab dalam diri yg aku zahirkan dalam blog ni..

adakah aku pelik? aku x rasa begitu....

kadang aku rasa seperti aku adalah seorang psikiatris atau shrink utk diri sndiri yg bermonolog dalaman to make me feel better

i need to be doing something that makes me happy..

being married does make me happy..

but there are also other things that make me happy..

i should be doing them too..

like going to the gym..

i like that.. and its good for my health too..

i should be doing that..

i will.. insyaallah..

sampai di sini sahaja..

rasa blur..

rasa penat..

later~