lesen motor

salam

aku skrg kat tempat belajar memandu imkl setapak dan tgh tggu utk dgr ceramah jalan raya kpp01.. tp penceramah belum dtg.. katanya ceramah ni akan ambil masa 6 jam smpai kol 5ptg ni..
time register tadi kak tu da pesan nnt balik jgn lupa thumbprint lg sekali sbg bukti kehadiran..
baiklah akak..

so rata2 yg ambik lesen ni budak2 muda dalam lingkungan 18 - 22.. aku je yg tua..
ni la da menyesal dulu time ambik lesen kereta xnak amek lesen moto sekali..kononnye time tu rasa mcm x perlu sbb xda plan nk beli or bawa moto bagai..

skrg ni disebabkan kos kehidupan yg meningkat dan its not economical to drive to work, i choose to ride a bike..
which i have been doing for a few months.. and to be safe, and not break the law, i decided to get a bike license.. i am a law abiding citizen after all.. except for the past few months that i havent been..

being here brings back memories of that time when i took the test for my car license.. i failed the 1st time around because of several mistakes i made during the test, which i cannot recall now to be honest..
but i remember of me being pissed coz it took me the whole day waiting and then it had to be postponed, so basically the 1st day i went there but i didnt take the test instead i was wasting my whole day waiting for my turn..
i was so pissed and i chose to let the steam off by writing a note..
it was 2005 if im not mistaken, and i was using my nokia daun phone..

i really liked that phone.. i lost it in a cinema at klcc.. i figured it must have fallen out of my pocket when i sat in the cinema chair..
when i realized it was missing i went back to the cinema and asked but they said it was not found..

although i didnt trust the cinema guy but i couldnt have done anything else.. i just hoped that whoever stole my phone did good things with it..

oh god i ramble too mich..

i do ramble when it comes to telling stories.. stories of my life, which i love to tell, unfortunately not many are fond of listening to them..

maybe ill write a book about myself..
my life stories.. haha.. i doubt itll sell tho coz i am a nobody..

what the hell.. lets talk about something else..

i was browsing facebook, wished some friends birthday and saw that in a few days it is shahirah adibah's birthday..
she was the top student in my batch at mrsm jasin. she got 4.0 cgpa, meaning she got perfect score 4.0 flat for all 4 semesters.. shes so clever, smart, hardworking.. the perfect scorer..

while she was excellent in academics, there are other aspects that she was lacking tho.. she wasnt the best leader i must say.. she was the president of emc.. she was clever but wasnt assertive when it comes to her actions..
and maybe because of that some people respects her solely because of her exam results but not her as a person..

well its life and nobodys perfect, but she has led a pretty succesful life, it seems to me..
working as a doctor in UK, married with a son..
shes the kampung kinda girl i guess always in baju kurung and tudung labuh..
wanita muslimah puteri lindungan kaabah kinda gal..

me as an outsider sees that shes great in all aspects of life.. got good job, happy family, someone who portrays herself as a saint..

am i jealous? honestly no..
but it sounds so ridiculous to be jealous of her..

but for some weird reasons my mind is set to compare myself to her, my life to hers..
its automatic.. i didnt plan but it happened, i tried to compare, and it made me question why i even tried..
its not healthy.. i guess thats probably because of how i was brought up.. how the people around me have taught me to react..
everything and everyone that was born in this world came into this world so pure.. no ill feeling towards others.. its the people and environment who shape our minds and make us who we are.. bad and good..
i notice the bad in me, i do the good too..
its importamt to be able to see them and know where to work more on..

oh god i ramble again..

my words may sound ludicrous to others.. they kinda sound ludicrous to me too.. but it dont matter..
people who think, who want to think will understand..
and even if noone understands or wants to understand.. i dont GAF..

i am so bored at this kelas/ceramah..

ok la i better start trying to listen to the penceramah..
talk to you later

kebosanan

halo yuol..

harini sangat sendu dan lemau

xda mood untuk buat apa pon..

xda mood nak keje, bukak fb pon boring, bukak instagram pon bosan..

xtau nak buat apa

nak buat keje mcm xda keje..

rasa sangat tak tentu arah skrg ni..

so i asked myself, what do i want?? what do i want to do??

i cannot answer that.. coz i simply dont know.. i dont, do i?

i want to sleep

i want to lay in bed and do nothing

i want to watch gempak superstar on my ipad

i want to watch the good wife marathon

i want to go jogging and workout

i want to buy supplements for workout

i want to lepak and tido

i want to cuti


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sedih kan, jawapan aku jawapan seorang yg malas.. sangat pemalas..

itu jawapan jujur..

aku sedang dalam mode malas..

mungkin org lain juga pernah mengalami mode malas sebegini

aku xda motivasi untuk kerja..

aku xda motivasi untuk buat apa2..

aku nak tido je rasa..

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rasa mcm bangang pulak bahagian yg atas tu, so aku nak tulis apa aku nak buat, only this time, its something yg lebih logic, and attainable, and useful..-ish?

aku mahu

1. pasang lampu kat dapur

2. pasang katil kat 2 bilik kosong

3. tukar kereta

4. beli motor

5. ambik lesen motor

6. tulis novel

7. read english books

8. run a marathon (5km je lah)

9. save money and start a business
antara business yg aku nak buat ialah
a. pusat bowling
b. salun/barber
c. badminton court
d. futsal court
e. ladang nenas
f. kedai runcit

10. bake a cake


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aku sangat random

aku tengah bosan gila

perasaan tak keruan

i need cuti

boss x bagi

bongok punya tara Guna

kalau aku cuti, apa aku nak buat??

1. tido dan bangun kol 12 tghari

2. drive uber

3. pergi gym

4. pergi jogging kat titiwangsa

5. pergi swimming

6. pergi kedai used car tgk kereta 2nd hand

7. pergi daftar kelas memandu untuk ambik lesen motor

8. survey motor 2nd hand

9. tengok wayang

10. makan seoul garden


da xda mood da..
ok bye~~

oh another update, yeah why the hell not..

Salam people..

i am no offshore onboard MDLQ platform, as usual..

its so boring here..

i cannot stream any video due to the oh so slow internet like snail..

so i do the next best thing, read blogs..

i havent blogged for quite some time i guess..

i looked back at all the old blogs i used to visit when i was younger..

blogging was so the in thing in the late 2000s.. its not anymore..

i feel nostalgic..

now we have fb and ig, and people are just not into blogging anymore.. its kinda sad actually when i visited all the old blogs that i used to follow religiously but not have been abandoned..

in malay we call it bersawang, coz most of them stopped blogging in 2011, or 2012..

that is after ig started taking over the social media world..

but as we know this thing is fleeting, and before we know it, there will come a new damn thing and ig would be the thing of yesterday..

anyhow, i am just so bored and stressed here, there are too many problems with work..

at this point i truly cannot care less.. whatever goes..

and of course this makes me feel demotivated and devastated..

i so dont wanna work makan gaji anymore..

hmm.. its okay, i dont want to talk about that anymore.. i'd rather talk about other things..

i checked beautifulnara old blog entry and he wrote in english, reading the articles is just funny.. haha.. not that his english was terrible or anything like that.. but for some reasons i find it funny if we use english when talking about local entertainment scene..

similar thing i felt when i watched channel E and there was this story about Aaron Aziz..

yes he's singaporean, and the voice over was done by marion caunter whose english is undeniably good, but it doesnt sound quite right..

when she said Balai Polis Bandar Utama,
or Anugerah Bintang Popular..

these phrases, just do not go with the english language, in my opinion..

on another random note, i am now watching and catching up on the series The Good Wife.

it isnt the best series out there but i enjoy it.. just enough..

maybe because i have enjoyed watching Suits, that i find The Good Wife is just as good, maybe less..

i dont want to talk about work, nor to think about it, but i cant help it..

maybe because i am responsible-ish?

whatever the reason is, its bugging me.. i wish i can just turn it off, raise my hands up in the air like i dont care.. but no.. i freaking care..

maybe if i quit then i wouldnt care..

although i havent, and probably wont, i kinda know that quitting my job would be a decision that i would regret.. maybe not.. who knows?

the job is ok, not so bad, but sometimes i feel like it isnt worth it..

have to go offshore, work 6am to 6pm, no OT

small pay..

have to work during public holidays, no OT, no replacement leaves..

come to think about it, it does suck big time..

but no use to cry over spilled milk, this is the decision i have made and i need to live with it..

not to say live with, but more like, i need to make the best out of it..

i am so tired, and sleepy..

i slept at 2am last night coz i was watching The Good wife marathon..

i shouldnve, but i didnt care..

i thought that last night i just had to give that to myself, indulge in watching series altho i knew i coudnt really afford it..

i do that sometimes..

when i am feeling stressed and i feel like i need to get away, i do get away and simply dont care about the consequences..

i think i know, i realize that it is not good for me..

but sometimes u just cant be bothered anymore, and u just want to do what u want to do..

like when theres something i want to buy, and i know that i cannot really afford it.. i would still buy it,
indulge now, despair later..

typical me..

when theres something i want to try, and even after careful consideration (sort of) and my conscience decided that i should not do it, but i probably wont listen.. coz i still want it..

maybe its coming from this one advice that i heard long ago, and i believe when it was said to me, it was regarding buying or shopping for something i fancy..

i was told, i dont remember by who, when theres something i want, i should hold my desire first, go home, or divert my mind, and after a while if i still keep thinking about it, if the thought of it does come back, then i might as well just go and get it..

maybe this advice isnt the best to follow neither.. but what do i know.. not that i care..

i think that is it for me today, i think i am too lazy to continue this entry, i also dont see any point of it, and do not see how it can be of any help to anyone..

so till next time this is izzue signing out.. daa~~ later~~

hanchur hanchur aku..*pose fazura

Ya allah sedih nye aku rasa sekarang ni

Sedih, kecewa, nak nangis..

Fon aku jatuh dari tingkat 5

Hancur berkecai skrin depan

Frame pun herot

Berkecai la jugak hati aku

Ya allah kenapa aku diuji sebegini?

Aku bukan byk duit

Tu pun masih hutang

Ya allah aku mintak ampun atas dosa2 aku

Aku kira ni balasan buat diriku

Atas kesalahan2 aku yg lalu

Yg sedar atau tidak

Juga atas sifat kedekut aku

Aku sedar aku jarang bersedekah

Aku insaf

Aku akan lebih byk bersedekah

Aku redha ya allah

Ni balasan utk aku

Supaya aku x leka

Supaya aku insaf

Supaya aku akan lebih byk bersedekah

Lebih byk tolong org2 dalam kesusahan

Walaupun sgt susah untuk aku terima

Tapi aku redha

Insyallah aku akan okay

Rezeki allah itu luas

Bukan rezeki aku nak pakai fon tu lagi

Aku kehilangan nya pada hari ini

Insyaallah akan dpt yg lebih baik masa depan

Aku terima seadanya

Ujian buat aku

Sesungguhnya ujianku ini sgt la kecil

Berbanding dgn umat2 manusia yg lain

Aku harus sedar dan bersyukur

Akan nikmat yg aku kecapi selama ni

Boleh hilang dalam sekelip mata

Sekiranya kita tak bersyukur

Ya allah aku mohon kekuatan

Sesungguhnya hanya dari Kau aku meminta

Hanya Kau berkuasa memberiku kekuatan

Aku mohon kau ampuni diriku

Dan beriku kekuatan

Menempuh hari2 mendatang

Dgn ujian besar ni

Aku tahu ujian ni x besar mana

Tapi aku ni x sekuat mana

Aku sedih ya tuhanku

Aku nak nangis

Sesungguhnya kau mengetahu perasaanku

Sure la Kau tahu

Kau kan All knowing

Penat la ya Allah

Aku tahu aku gila dan pelik

Sbb cakap dgn Tuhan cam aku cakap ngn member

Aku rasa kau x kisah

Bukan aku kurang ajar pon

Aku lek2 je..

Sedih la ya Allah

Xtau la sampai bila aku akan bersedih

Ikut hati aku nak nangis je dan berkabung sebulan

Belum habis bayar lagi fon tu bak ang

Mana aku nak cekau duit nak bayar ni

Adoi ya allah

Xda cara lain ke Kau nak uji aku?

Cara ni mmg aku lemah

Kau mmg tahu kelemahan aku

Rasa cam nak bunuh diri pun ada tau

Mesti kau cakap ni ujian aku

Hmm.. aku stress

Bukan stress

Tp ntah la

X keruan perasaan aku

Berkecamuk

Nak tido dan harap ini semua mimpi

Izzue meroyan di laut

Salam


Itu hari time kat laut aku bosan dan rasa nak meroyan tapi sebab aku malas nak menaip dan sbb xda tenet jadi aku buat voice recording sajork..


kalau rajin dan berminat nak dengar aku meroyan boleh la download dari link kat bawah tu..


#jangankecamsaya


https://www.dropbox.com/s/vat649vg4r20zsn/20160127%202030.aac?dl=0


https://www.dropbox.com/s/62z6rspe2t7nmcf/20160131%200730.aac?dl=0


https://www.dropbox.com/s/0n4r1p23d5kw3es/20160131%201845.aac?dl=0


sekian,
daddy izzue

random things.. i just want to write stuff

Hello and salam to all,

Now i am at offshore, onboard of platform MDLQ/MDPP, in Muda Field, Gulf of Thailand.
I am at my so called office, one of the 2 places where i can get wifi.
my work is almost finished here, remaining to do endurance test of the Wimax Link from this platform to 2 remote platforms, JKB and MTA, the test to JKB has started since yesterday, will finish by 3PM tomorrow.
the next day we will proceed to do the test to MTA which will take another 48 hours, that means the soonest that i will demob is on 25th of Jan, by boat.
i still need to check the boat schedule tho.
for today, my plan is to perform inspection with CPOC operation representative to clear the construction punchlist from before.
well, truth be told, even if we performed the inspection today, it will not close all the punchlists because we still do not have the nameplates and cable taggings.
but i will try to get all the punchlists cleared as many as possible, altho highly unlikely
theres another issue pulak, the endurance test ni mcm akan fail je.. huhu..
stress la keje ni.. mcm2 masalah..
tapi mungkin mmg mcm ni la kan bila baru2 keje, projek  pulak cuci tahi orang punya.. so mmg byk la masalahnyer
tapi mungkin jugak ni peluang untuk aku belajar, make me tougher, and gain valuable experience..
skrg link ke mta ni mcm down je, sbb aku try call x dpt.. aku x dpt nak check link ptp sbb aku kat ofis skrg.. malas pulak rasanya nak pegi LER tu semata2 nak check link.. huhu
sbb salu stress keje ni, kadang tu rasa cam nak quit je.. nak keje simple2 yg x stress.. tapi nnt aku akan rasa cam x best sbb seolah2 tewas kepada stress.. aku rasa aku lebih kuat dari itu, meaning that i believe i can handle it..
need to remind myself too, that all this hardship, the problems etc they are not for forever.. sumer benda pasti boleh diselesaikan..
tapi aku akan tanya balik diri aku, is it worth it?
adakah semua stress ini berbaloi?
aku x boleh terlalu stress sbb akan affect my health, i think..
or maybe it doesnt affect..
anyhow, i'd prefer to not risk it.. and not be in stressful situation for a long time..
im in the process of looking for another job, office job, less stress..
but does that kind of job exist?
senang start bisnes je.. tapi betul ke senang? aku xda experience, xda modal, byk commitment, pasti tidak mudah..
hmm.. citer pusing punya pusing mesti akan balik ke kisah duit, dan perbelanjaan.. mmg xleh nak lari..
tapi aku akan cuba untuk kurangkan bercerita pasal duit..
aku nak cerita something yg agak membanggakan, dan juga merisaukan,..
untuk buat endurance test ni, ia akan mengambil masa selama 48 jam..
test equipment yg digunakan, di bawa oleh Omega kesayangan, is JDSU Ethernet Smart Class, which runs on DC battery. However the battery can only last up to 5 hours.
to run the test for 48 hours, would mean the test equipment needs to be hooked up to its power adaptor (230VAC) and be in continuous charging mode.
at mdpp, there is no problem since our telecom cabinet is equipped with 3 pin socket that serves 230VAC power.
at jkb, we dont have continuous AC power. however, there is continuous DC power that feeds the existing WCS and SIS system.
the PTP enclosure that we installed last mob in November takes power from this DCDB.
i have been planning to utilize this DC power from PTP Enclosure for months, and last few days Usop went to JKB and tried to setup the power for the test equipment as i have planned.
but unfortunately it didnt go as planned as the enclosure was not big enough to fit all the additional equipment required, including the test equipment, JDSU, the power inverter, socket adaptor and JDSU power adaptor.
so i came up with a plan to introduce an additional Ex type enclosure to house the JDSU, power inverter, power adaptor and socket adaptor.. we just need to run 2 cables from the PTP enclosure to the new Ex type enclosure..1 run power cable and 1 run ethernet cable.
so my plan worked.. the test equipment can be charged..
but what im worried of is..
the platform is unmanned, and the glanding on the new enclosure is not perfect, we coudnt find any m25 to m20 reducer for the gland, so we just used the existing m25 gland for the 2 runs m20 cables.
we taped the cables so it become thicker and glanding would be fairly okay..
another thing is that the ptp enclosure didnt have enough spare holes.
but it did have 2 breather valve on its side and on its bottom.. so i used these holes for the power cable and ethernet cable, meaning now there is not breather valve on the ptp enclosure.. i am so worried, i hope the enclosure will not burn or anything like that..
esok aku akan pergi check and see if semuanya ok..
just now aku check link tu da drop from 40mbs to 25mbs.. and the link lost pun da banyak.. confirm2 la endurance test tu akan fail, sebab rquirement cpoc ni nak 99.995% availability.. tadi aku check availability dia da drop jadi 80%.. haha..
bila aku check plotter graph dia tunjuk, 10 jam yg lalu link drom jadi 10mbs je.. haha.. mmg gagal..

sekarang pon modulation dia limited by wireless condition, previously it was running at maximum mode..
sangat menjengkelkan perkara ni sbb kegagalan berlaku ketika kita nak buat test tu pulak.. astaghfirullah.. dugaan tuhan sungguh..
anyhow aku da shoot email ke budak2 omega kasi derang yg pening fikir.. aku malas la nak pening2 untuk derang..
tadi aku check cctv, memula tu nampak je gambar untuk 2 camera yg kat MTA tu.. tapi pastu tetiba hilang.. tengok kat cmd pon ping ke cctv 12 dah putus, putus kat workstation, meaning mmg link ke mta da break.. try call 3502 dgn 3503 pon x dapat tadi.. stress kan.. stress sgt sekarang ni..
nak balik~~

okla sampai di sini saja aku meroyan, aku harap aku akan diberi kekuatan dan guidance oleh Tuhan untuk menghandle masalah2 ini dan balik dgn fikiran yg lega..

nak meroyan jap la.. nak release stress

point entry ni adalah untuk aku meroyan sbb dalam kepala aku ni skrg tgh berat dgn benda2 yg sgt stressful berkaitan kerja.. btw, today is friday 15/1/16

1- commissioning yg dah x nampak masa depan

2- client nak buat endurance test selama 48 jam, dalam SAT procedure 24 jam je.

-3 Client ada dua team, project dgn operation. Untuk start commissioning kena dapatkan ptw dari cpoc operation

4- cpoc operation mintak provide cert Ready For Commissioning (RFC)

5- RFC pending cpoc project sign

6- cpoc project xda representative kat mdlq, sbb dia pergi mdb ada keje kat sana. si sekson siam tu

7- earliest boleh dpt rfc is this evening, and hopefully no issue, boleh dpt ptw and start commissioning esok 16/1/16

8- after commissioning is endurance test yg ambil masa 48 jam, so kalau start tomorrow evening, maksudnya petang 18/1/16 baru akan habis endurance test, assuming xda link putus or whatever

9- nak buat endurance test tu kena ada power 230ac continuous on both sides. Side aku mdpp xda masalah sbb mmg platform ada power 24/7

10- masalah kat platform remote sbb derang xda power continuous.

11- aku dah highlight ke orang2 kat MTA, kalau derang x prepare power utk buat test tu, itu masalah kau derang, bukan masalah aku

12- walaupun begitu, nnt akan jadi masalah aku jugak

13- mmg dah resmi keje ni macam ni.. orang lain buat taik kita jugak kena bersihkan

14- tadi Guna cakap derang nak demob on 17/1/16.. so camner nak buat 48 jam endurance test kalau mcm tu

15- jadi kesimpulan nyer mmg x nampak masa depan nak buat endurance test ni

16- aku seriusly dah givap dan aku cam like whatever la kau.. kalau x dpt buat kali ni, nnt next mob buat la.. lagipun mcm byk je lagi issue..

17- pastu ada issue cable cat5e ni pulak..

18- cpoc dah specified dalam specs derang nak cat6, kenapa la pulak pergi beli cat5e

19- mazlizan, engineer SK yg handle benda ni, attend FAT ape sumer, dah tahu dah pasal cable ni, tapi xda highlight or takda action, sampai la cable tu di installed at platform

20- sekarang cpoc suruh tukar cable, pastu retest balik.. meaning that yg sebelom ni pasang, test semua adalah sia sia..

21- aku risau disebabkan cable cat5e ni, nnt cpoc project refuse untuk sign rfc, dan menyebabkan kerja2 commissioning aku terbengkalai.

22- nak kena tunggu cable tu sebulan lebih baru sampai, pastu nak kena pasang balik, test bagai..

23- yang si Ong ni pun, dia yg install kat offshore bulan 11 lepas, tapi tak pernah nak highlight, sekarang bila da jadi issue, dia nak aku sorang2 settlekan

24- team sapura yg kat mta pun bila kita minta tolong langsung takda respons. dalam email cc je boss semua tapi sama je takda hasil

25- memang la scope telecom ni dianaktirikan

26- bengang pulak dengan team cpoc project ni

27- si hazlin tu dah agree nak sign rfc tapi sekarang dia dah blah

28- yg ganti dia encik siam sekson ni asyik xda kat mdlq, dia asyik ke mdb, skrg xda orang nak sign aku punya rfc

29- lepas ni nak check barang2 cctv pulak dan clear checksheet

30- mazlizan ni prepare checksheet pun consider la jugak benda tu boleh lepas ke x boleh lepas

31- yg nak menjawab nyer aku sebab aku yg conduct inspection dgn cpoc

32- kalau kau nyer checksheet mintak benda yg bukan2, mcm mana aku nak provide

33- mintak neoprene sheet dari team MTA utk punchlist clearance, tapi tak hantar ke sini pon

34- derang anta sorang scaffolder sbb electrical tech yg ada kat sini x berani nak naik tower

35- sekarang ni scaffolder xda keje dok goyang kaki sbb xda material nak buat punchlist clearance

36- cpoc operation pun sorang2 perangai astaghfirullah

37- aku suruh kau witness je, dan tulis remarks dalam checksheet, bukan suruh kau accept

38- yg akan final accept is mr sekson, tapi dia sekarang ni kat mdp

39- this is unnecessary delay. kalau hazlin dah sign haritu, sure dah complete dah commissioning aku

40- pastu cpoc ni nak mintak bandwidth priority pulak.. sedangkan itu kena buat thru router dia by cpoc it.

41- aku dah highlight dalam email, dan skrg tunggu cpoc IT yg confirm. should be no problem pasal derang boleh setting remotely from KL

42- communication dgn redang pun sangat hopeless.

43- internet kau selalu down, lepas tu bila call semua orang xda dalam office

44- aku simply dah give up

45- nak balik

*emoticon nangis airmata jurai2