Life Updates aka membebel

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Because I do not have any job to do at the office, I want to post something on this blog today.

I have a few things to talk and share about. Let’s have a go at them one by one

1.       Jalilmas House

I just can’t wait for the construction of the house to be completed. I will be able to save a lot of money as I do not need to rent here in KL.

I am very excited now because my brother’s house Puchongmas had just been completed and the tenants can already collect their keys, provided there is no outstanding payment (late payment charges) pending to be cleared.

My bro said they had to pay rm1000 for the late charges. I do not know the details.

Maybe its similar to my case during cube60 back in 2015, we were charged RM3k++ but after arguments and whatnot, we only had to pay RM60+

The delay was because of CNY and issues with the notification and letters postage yadayada..

Anyhow, as soon as they got the keys to their house, I want to go visit and go swimming there.. huhu..

Eventhough that my house Jalilmas does not have any pool, I am still very excited to be living in my own home.

Yes I have a house already, but having a house in KL feels different from having a house in JB.. hehe..

My wife is excited as she wants to decorate the house with wainscoting panels and other things. I plan to go visit Ikea and draw some inspiration on house decorations when its time to do that.

For now we just gotta hold on and save money for the renovation process soon.

2.       Repair Cube60 House

Last weekend I went to our house at Pulai with my Father In Law to go fix the curtain railing which had fallen off. This was the 3^rd time it was fixed.

The first 2 times the railing fell off, maybe because there was not enough bracket holding the heavy curtain.. also because the wall plugs installed were not long/deep enough to hold the rail/curtain.

So we went to install longer wall plugs the other and hopefully this time around it will stay intact.

We also bought additional brackets to install on the railings but we had bought the wrong type, hence we were unable to install them.

At first I wanted to drill new holes and I did try but for some reasons the new holes just could not be drilled deep enough for the long wallplugs.

My father in law said its ok to use the existing holes and he put in additional screws on the side of the holes to hold the bracket from falling.

From the looks of it, it seemed okay but we can only wish for so much.. so far, no complains..

I was told by our tenant that there was a crack at the gate hinge and that will require some welding and re-painting of the gate.

My FIL also had a look and he said that he has a friend who can do the welding.. I suppose they will do the repair tomorrow. I hope that it will go smoothly.. huhu..

Last but not least, there is an issue with the switchboard, I suspect there is a short-circuit at the output of one of the breakers on Level 1. Syah (my tenant) said when the breaker is turned on, the entire switchboard of Level 1 will trip.

This suggests there is a shortcircuit but I am not sure how to confirm.

My FIL said he will bring an electrician to go check.. again, I hope it will be fine..

3.       Maxis Home Fiber

Last weekend Jup told me that the internet connection at gelang patah, the house I used to rent together with Jufri, had been suspended.

So apparently the account had an overdue payment of 4 months, hence the suspension.

I was never informed.

I just knew when Jup told me.

So I went to Maxis center danga bay to clear the payment (RM645.45), which I paid using credit card.

I wanted to terminate but being a nice person (perasan) I knew that that would bring inconvenience to Jup who is still living there w Shahrol.

If I had terminated the account, they would have to apply for re-connection and that would take 1-2 weeks time, and also would be subject to port availability.

So instead, I chose to help them and asked for the transfer of ownership of the account.

But alas, Jup needs to be present for the transfer to happen.

The next day, we went to maxis center paradigm mall and applied for the transfer of ownership.

I called Maxis just now, the transfer had already been completed. As of now, there is only 1 account of maxis home fiber under my name, for the house at Sri Damansara which I also plan to terminate.

Actually I did ask to terminate that account as well when I was at paradigm mall on the same day, but the person said I couldn’t because they were in the process of downgrading my account from 30mbs to 10mbs.

The day before I had called maxis and asked if I could terminate due to the connectivity issues at SD that is inconsistent. They said I could downgrade to 10mbs and instead of paying rm189/month for the 30mbs, the fees for 10mbs is only rm119.. and I said ok.. why did I??

That’s why the process was still on the way and I couldn’t terminate the darn account.

And for terminating the account before the contract ends, I will be penalized rm500,

but I think its probably for the best, considering that I rarely use the internet at my house.

I am already using umobile unlimited data plan, having a home fiber connection feels redundant and I get to save rm119/month and I think that’s better.

4.       My FIL loan me Rm2000

I was speechless when he suddenly gave me the money.

Earlier I said I wanted to go to post office to withdraw my asb money, which I wanted to use to pay for the maxis penalty rm500 and credit card.

Maybe he didn’t want me to have to go to aeon bukit indah (about 30 mins drive from Skudai) just to withdraw the money, he went to an ATM machine while we were on our way to paradigm mall from my house at Pulai (he was driving), withdrew the money and gave it to me.

I was terkejut beruk!!

I still haven’t paid him yet.. I have not got the chance to go to the bank to take out my asb money yet, but I will.. He also said its ok, no rushing to pay him back.. lolz.. anak menantu mengambil kesempatan..

I was surprised but I could not possibly refused him when he handed me the money.. and as I was really shocked I just accepted the money then..

bila la nak pegi bank ni huhu... maybe lunch hour esok la..

5.       I have many errands to run

I feel like I want to take a day off just to settle some issues and run some errands.

Go to the bank and deposit my coins

Go to the bank and withdraw my asb money

Go to the workshop and repair my motorbike (its been 2 months cannot start, I suspect the carburetor problem)

Go to service my car and fixed the alignment

Go wash my car

Go buy stationaries for class – Gunting, ubat pensel tekan, pemadam, correction tape

6.       I want to buy a new motorcycle

Previously the bike that I bought 2^nd hand from Azwi never gave me any headache. It was working well but since the cannot start problem had recurred 3 times, I feel so frustrated.

So right now I want to sell that bike (honda wave WQR) and buy a new bike..

Should I wait until April though?

Now I only have 1 month pay slip (Feb 2018) and I am not sure if I would be eligible to apply for loans..

But I suppose for small motorbike I can get a loan from the shop itself and not from the bank..

But before I can buy a new bike, I need to repair my bike first.. last time it cost rm30 to fix the cannot start problem.. I wonder how much it will be now..

Maybe tomorrow I will take MC leave and go fix my motorbike and settle my errands as well.

7.       Project at Port Klang

So from after CNY until last week Friday I had to report to site at Port Klang, which is 1 hour drive from my house at Sri Damansara, but could be up to 2 hours if the traffic was bad.

The project had been completed and there was no major issues.

But of course la my boss Mr Teo had a few things to comments this and that..

At first I was a bit sad and upset with him commenting and him pushing.. then I simply didn’t give a phuck..

Lantak la kau, asalkan kerja siap.. lolz..

I didn’t even pay attention to him rambling but I suppose the next time around I will do a better job and hopefully there will be less issues..

I still don’t know which site I will have to go next.. maybe to Kuantan, maybe to Terengganu.. I asked Mr Teo and he said he will advise later.. for now I will just stay at the office melagha doing nothing.. lolz.

So I guess that is all for now.. till next time.. later~~

Death thoughts

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weirdly, recently i think about death quite often.

my wife told me she had a dream that i had died from an accident. she was davastated.

we spoke not so long ago about the fear of death, i told her that i no longer have that fear.

Death is certain and its just the matter of how and when.

having said this,

doesnt mean that i wish to die soon.

if possible i wud want to see my kid(s) grow up.

i love them w everything i have.

i am just saying that i am not afraid to die.

if i am not meant to live to old age,

i accept that.

i dont have any regrets.

for all i know,

i have had a wonderful life.

i think i have been a good person for all my life.

abide by the rules.

i have been blessed w many gifts and opportunities.

i have had a fair share of fun, joy and tears and i am grateful for all of them.

i pray that on the day that i leave this world, i will go in a good proper way,

i will be able to say the syahadah,

and i will die in iman and islam.

above all, that is the most important.

Rindu anak

The below is my ranting from last year that I found in my icloud notes..
tetiba feeling rindu kat anak comel lepas baca.. huhu..

padahal jap je lagi jumpa je kat umah kan.. its just not something that can easily be explained.. huhu..
so here it goes..

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harini aku dok rumah jaga ukail.. kita berdua je..

this morning i made nasi goreng and ukail ate quite alot..

him eating my cooking and liking it made me feel so happy..

its the kind of happy that i never felt before..

in the afternoon i went out with ukail to the clinic where the doc examined his rashes.. the doc gave me 2 days mc to continue to take care of ukail until friday.

balik tu i bought pisang goreng n kepok leko.

ukail seemed very excited to eat the kepok leko.

and sure he did eat, but seketul dua je yg lelain dia buat memain comot2..

aku buat air milo dia pergi kacau2 sampai tumpah sikit atas karpet. terpaksa la aku sapu guna kitchen towel yg tinggal sehelai dua tu..

alamak lupa pulak nak beli kitchen towel time shopping tesco online td..

baju ukail da comot and dia yakk and i wanted to clean him..

dia rebel x nak aku bukak baju n seluar dia.

menjerit sekuat hati.

but i managed to remove his clothes and took him to shower, of during which he screamed his lungs out as if i was abusing him..

finished w the shower he continued his rebel agaisnt his daddy when i wanted to put on his diaper..

omg the struggle was real..

i smacked his buttock once and he stop moving left and right..

only then i managed to put his diaper..

he continued being angry at me.. he smacked me and scratched me..

hit me with a hanger..

did he learn that from me?

i felt very sad..

i didnt pay attention to him.. and left him in the room and went outside to watch tv..

i didnt watch tv but i did some coloring on ukails coloring book..

slowly he came back to me and kacau me.. he wud take the color pencil from my hand and conteng2 on the book..

i shifted my attention to my laptop and played asntm s3 that i have stored in my old acer laptop..

of course ukail came to me seeking attention..

i put him on my lap and he started kacau me and smacked the laptop..

i held his hands and he screamed again wanting to get down so i let him..

as soon as he was down he wanted up again.. hish budak kecik ni..

i know he wanted attention.. he was bored..

thats life my son..

it aint always beautiful..

it aint always gonna be great..

youll feel happy and youll feel sad..

i wish i could protect you from the latter but i know sadness is apart of it..

it will bring you good too..

hardships will bring you good too..

that too you will have to face..

there will be occasions where i will not be able to help you but i hope u will know that i have not and will never stop loving you..

ayat cliche kan..

but i mean it every word..

or maybe he wanted some frens.. ok aku pon nk anak lg tp things are difficult now.. sometimes i feel like i want to quit life.. if i had more kids n i quit life then kesian my wife pulak

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I know the post seems unfinished.. whatever lah..
this post is also an unfinished one.. kinda.. lolz..

kbye..

Mentality

Hola people,

There are a few things that I feel like are worthy to be shared here. so without any delay, here they are

1. Driving with Grab

So basically it has been about 2-3 weeks that I have been driving for Grab and I have experienced some things, maybe not much, but I gotta say that I have concluded that I cannot do this full time.

huhu I should've known, right? Well, I think I knew but its really about experiencing it first hand that u will know for sure..

so I will share a lil bit hot its like driving for Grab. To be honest, its not really bad, especially when it comes to earning the money.. but u gotta be driving long hours, also be willing to get stuck in traffic during peak hours.

I would usually start at 7am, an break at 12 noon, then resume at 2 until 5 or 6pm, depending on my mood and energy. On average, we can earn about rm200 a day after deduct the cost for petrol and commissions from Grab.
Driving for Grab is good if you're doing it part time, or you only want to do it temporarily. it definitely is not something that I wish to do forever.

2. Financial Freedom Mentality

This is actually the real reason that made me want to write a post tonight.
its like a revelation, or a realization that came to me while I was driving grab one day.
Being Financially independent is everyone's dream. not having to go to work, but still able to maintain your life expenses.

Having this dream is not wrong, but it could be damaging to some people.
It could lead to you becoming extremely lazy and unmotivated for work.

I was first made aware and began to dream of being financially independent in 2016 when I was working for Sapura. it began when I first started to be involved with Forex investment (which made me lose a big chunk of my saving).
For several months the Forex thing was going well where I could get about USD1000 every month, and I thought that it could actually replace my job in paying the bills etc.

I started to become very unmotivated to work, and lazy to do my job.
its like an illness that was harming my mind slowly from the inside.
and that laziness stayed with me even after I left Sapura and worked with IQL.

after doing Grab for a few weeks, I feel like this kind of mentality is very damaging and it has cost me quite a lot and I need to get rid of it.
I am not sure if getting rid of it is easy, but at least I have realized it now and I do not wish to be consumed by the thought of not having to work for a living.
I realize now that working is important, not just for the money to pay the bills, but also for your self development at the very least, it will prevent me from becoming a lazy and unmotivated person. well here is hoping,

but above all, I have God to thank for making me realize, be grateful to for all that He has given me, also Him to ask from for everything that I will get in my life in the future, insyallah

3. MLM Business

I believe every person around my age must have had the experience of being approached by a family member, or an old friend, or an acquaintance that you hardly know and be invited to join an MLM business

I certainly have.. and I have always had this mindset where MLM is bad, and at the back of my mind I dislike it and wish that I will never have to deal with it again.
but..
things can change.. I think its unfair to have that kind of mindset to condemn all MLM businesses.
at the very least, we should first offer the benefit of the doubt, to listen about the business, give chance and space for the person inviting you to the business to explain, then make judgement. Surely its never a must join thing. I think its only fair to listen and understand how the business is before deciding anything.

sometimes the one thing that you dislike and wish to be kept away from are the very thing that you need to the most in your life.
what I am saying is, that we should be fair and give chance for this type of business. You never know, right?

4. Job Offer Kuantan

To make things short, I have got a job offer from a local company recently as an Instrumentation Engineer, I was interviewed by the Managing Director and he actually offered me by the end of the interview. Maybe he was impressed by my communication skills, or maybe by my academic results.
maybe a little bit of both.

The pay is not bad.
but the catch is that he mentioned that I will be working at sites in Kuantan for about 6 months.
its for the BASF PETRONAS petrochemical plant project.
I don't have all the infos yet actually. I told him that I will tell him my decision of whether to accept the job or not by this Wednesday 24/1/2018.
I have talked about it with my wife, and we agree that I should take the job if I didn't get any other offer by next week.


5.Job interview

I have a job interview tomorrow for a UPS company, Vertiv. co. I suppose its quite a famous UPS company, one that I dreamed to join when I was working w PWS back in 2012.

for some reasons, I don't have that dream anymore.. well, what can I say, things have changed.
The HR actually sent me some notes for me to study coz she said there will be an assessment after the interview to test my technical knowledge.
I have gone thru the notes but not thoroughly. Maybe I will continue to study the notes after I completed this blog post. Maybe.. huhu

I am actually very tired however coz this evening I went to taman layang2 kepong w my wife and Ukail and I jogged and rode a bike
I needed to keep my fitness level up to prepare for the PTD assessment this coming Thursday& Friday.

Owh God I have a busy week. On Tuesday I have an appointment to do skin analysis w a consultant for my skin condition that has deteriorated.

I pray that itll go smoothly and my skin condition will get better, insyallah

6. Family

I felt the urge to talk about how disappointed I felt towards my family earlier when I was in wangsa maju, more precisely towards my nieces and nephews but now I feel like its really no point to do that.
they are still my family and hopefully things will be better next time when I come home to wangsa maju

another thing is that, my wan(grandmom) passed away on 16/1/2018. My mother's mother..
I don't know why but I am not sad or devastated by her passing. I feel like it is something that everyone could have expected. She was 93 years old.
I hope that people will not misunderstand me, but my wan was very old and had had a good life and her passing is probably something good for her, this is my opinion.
I was actually very close to my wan and I loved her, so please don't get me wrong that I do not feel devastated. I will however keep her in my prayers insyallah..

so I guess that's all for now.. I need to do some reading before calling it a night.. and hopefully my interview goes well tomorrow..

later~~

Tahun Baru

Hi All,

Honestly I am not sure why I put Tahun Baru as the title of this post, truthfully I don't have much to talk about the new year, I suppose its because I am writing this on 1st of Jan 2018, so the title Tahun Baru kinda makes sense..

I have several things on my mind that I would like to share it.
without further delay I will get to them 1 by 1

1. A new phase in my life

So basically I think a new phase is whats best to describe what I will be going thru starting from tomorrow, cuz starting tomorrow I will be unemployed. Well technically I have been unemployed since last Friday, being my last day working for IQL. and as I have mentioned in my previous post this is a terrifying situation to be in, and also worrisome.. I am worried almost all of the time, thinking how am I going to provide for the family if I am unemployed.

I know that I have given it a thought and I plan to do uber /grab for now while looking for the opportunity to further my studies, but somehow this feeling of worry is not something I can easily shake off.

this will be the 1st time that I will be unemployed since I first started working in April 2011.

I have often told myself that worrying will not do me any good, and that is true.. maybe I just need to keep reminding myself of this, and also to always remember the bigger picture.. Even while I am typing this, I am still feeling the scare.. I wish it is something that I can easily shut down, like turning off the light or something..
well if it isn't, I just have to live with it then? or find a way to make it feel less frightening..

I do justify it to myself of my decision quitting from my last company.. and at times when I feel like the fear is getting too much, I would succumb to applying for another engineering job on jobstreet.. that and also when my wife keeps asking me to get a new job.. she says I can still do my masters degree part time just like every body else who has done/is doing it..
I cant quite explain it thoroughly why I feel there is a need for me to not have a 9-5 job at the moment.. I do not understand it completely neither.. I just know I need to do this..

its not like I will be doing nothing, just lazing around at home for the time being, I will try the grab/uber thingy.. and I pray to God that it will work out.. and I also pray to God to make me less worried about this thing. I believe there is a prayer that I can practice to make me less worry.. also to always believe that this is apart of God's plan for me, knowing that He has never, and will never leave me forsaken.. for as long as we have faith and tawaqqal onto Him, inshaallah..

2. Am I a spoiled kid?

just minutes before I sat down in front of my laptop writing this blog post I was browsing facebook on my phone and saw on my newsfeed a post with the image below

and surely I would ask myself, am I exhibiting the habits of a spoiled kid or a working kid?
truth be told, I believe I am a combination of both.. I dare not claim to be a working kid, neither do I feel like I am completely spoiled though, I am probably somewhere in between.
I guess most of us are somewhere in between..
well the more important thing to do after seeing this is to know which habits that I can actually get rid of or supposedly improved on..

Spoiled kids Habits that I am exhibiting
a. Choosing the easy way

hahaha.. this is truly me, I do not like to be in difficult situations, (well, who does?)
so because of this I tend to do only the easy things, and find shortcuts to make things easier..
I still don't think that's a bad thing though, but apparently according to this, this is a habit of a spoiled kid, and I guess there is some truth to that to a certain extend.
I know that being in difficult situations, facing hardships are important to make us tougher, to make us more resilient to challenges.. as told by the butterfly story..

its just my habit that I don't like or don't want to have difficult things..
I guess sometimes its not up to us and we just have to toughen up and make it thru.. God knows whats best for us, am I right?

I keep thinking to the situation I am in currently with regards to being jobless, I just cant help it..
darn it, I need to worry less about this.. read the du'a stat!!

b. Disliking work

Well, I think I am not the only one who wishes they do not have to work for a living in this world..
Perhaps if you are a royalty who already has tonnes of money and you really don't know how else to spend your time, then the idea of working might seem interesting to you
I am disliking work, could also be because I have not found the work that I enjoy doing.. maybe it'll change if I found the kind of job that is fun and enjoyable for me.

This is still a struggle for me cuz I am still not sure what that is, and It will require me to really think if we were to go into that in much details.. so I suppose I will leave that as it is for now and revisit it again one day, once I know for certain what kind of job that I find enjoyable to do.


Working Kids Habits that I am lacking

a. Cooperating/Participating

I must admit all these while I have always preferred to do things on my own, and I guess that has led me to become too independent to a point where I feel I do not want to participate in anything unnecessary, or to cooperate with anyone if the situation does not call for it.
I am still not entirely sure of why there is this need for "working together".. maybe its because I have never really been in a situation where working together is crucial.
I dislike working with other people cuz it might lead to miscommunication, and the other person might not fully understand your idea and I feel like its such a hassle trying to make them understand..(I am selfish, aren't I?)

 

sometimes miscommunications can make people fight and the relationship becomes sour and that's what I try to avoid really.

b. Managing time/stuff/frustration

I think I can improve on this, like improve a lot.. its a continuous thingy trying to get better at this..
managing time inshallah I will get better in time, and same goes to managing stuff..
this includes managing my expenses as well, I suppose.. I don't often buy unnecessary stuff anymore so I think that's an improvement, but still so much that I can improve on..

I often use this blog as a means to let go of my frustrations about anything in life.. and its been helping me since I first writing a blog, which was since 2006..



3. aliff syukri menunjuk-nunjuk

I think this is self-explanatory and I simply dislike it.
not only him for the matter, anyone in this world who is having a nice life and often shows off their wealth on social media, I really dislike this kind of people.
I pray to God that I will never be like them.
I would rather not be rich if I would end up being like that.

here I say nice life, well when I give it a second thought, maybe they only show the nice part of their life.. maybe they want to inspire others.. or maybe they simply want to show off.. well in fact, we must realize that what is shown often tells only a fraction of the whole story.. I am sure they have their struggles and challenges too, which we don't know about..
so instead of judging them, lets make du'a for them, shall we?

just don't judge!!

4. My hopes for the new year

I want to have another child.. and no my wife is not yet pregnant with our second child.. inshallah if God wills it, soon..
There is no rush
maybe its for the better to have a 2 or 3 years gap between children..

I also hope that my motivation to do my masters degree will not be fade and die.
I know there is a chance that it might, but inshallah I will work hard and persevere..

I hope to not buy anymore unnecessary stuff/impulsive shopping..
hahaha this is also self-explanatory.. now that I am not working, I gotta be more careful with my spendings and only buy the important things..

5. aida azlin

I have been following this Singaporean girl on FB and she posts motivational videos once every 2 or 3 days and I have enjoyed watching her videos.. (I have not watched all of her videos however, aint got the time yet)
she always has a positive outtake on things and that's what I like about her.
some of the things that she has highlighted in her videos are things that I can really relate to and that are close to my heart.. so that's why I like and follow her on FB I guess..

and she always says inshallah and Alhamdulillah in her videos which I find to very soothing and nice.. I suppose that has affected my way of writing a little bit?


6. Brighterwhite

I have purchased this teeth whitening kit from Australia since last month but I have only used it since 3 days ago.. its because it didn't come with the battery for the LED accelerator thingy and I kept forgetting to buy the batteries..

I went to buy the battery one time then realized that the LED actually requires 2 numbers of battery.. it was very frustrating.. why did I not check properly.. but nonetheless its working now and I have been using it for 3 nights and I am seeing the results..
I did take the before photo and I will take the after photo when I have completed the 7 day challenge using the whitening kit..
my teeth feel extremely clean after using it..
the 1st time using my jaw felt really weird as I have to hold to LED in my mouth for 30 minutes.. but now its not so much.. 4 more nights and we will see the results..

this will be the last "unnecessary" thing that I purchased for myself and hopefully it is worth it..

i will end this blog post here as I am feeling sleepy and i think i have said all the important things for now.. also because my laptop is acting crazy right now..

so till next time.. later~~