am i a lousy teacher?

salam..

last night i got the results of my student for his mid year exam and he failed all subjects except BM BI, PI and sejarah.. tu pon cukop2 makan jah lulus.. lain2 fail... that night i walked into the house i saw his mom.. she was expecting aliff coz obviously she wanted to talk about zarif's results with aliff.. nonetheless she told me about her son's results.. and yes she was smiling but at that time theres no word that can describe how malu i was.. i taught him 4 subjects and he failed miserably for all the subjects.. aiyooo tak tau la caner nak cakap malu gila aku time tu..

this has got me to thinking.. am i a bad teacher?? was it me who didnt try hard enough to get him to study.. someone told me before.. if the student has to give 100% in order to get good results, the teacher should work 200% for that too.. have i worked 200% for this kid? honestly, i dont think i have.. but that doesnt mean i have been slacking off.. doesnt mean i have taken things for granted..

and though this might sound to some people as an excuse that i use to escape the blame for his teerrible results.. i seriously think it was his attitude that had contributed to this dreadful results.. tapi... what can i say.. whatever i say, although it is true, i wouldnt matter coz what matters is something we can see.. something we can hold in our hands and show to people... and unfortunately in this case is his mafaking results... malu woo.. his results will only say that i am a failed teacher.. his results will get his parents to thinking that paying me for teaching his son has been a waste of time, energy and money.. arghhh.. this sucks.. i want to stop talking about it now....

ok now to start talking about the brighter side of my life right now.. and that being me and alip went to see a play at studio matic.. theater mak dara nyonya.. it consists of two stories.. one about mak dara, and the other one about nyonya.. the nyonya part ive seen with am and his frens a few years ago.. similar storyline from before although apparently there was a few scenes improvised by the players.. and i enjoyed it more now than before coz sarimah ibrahim is such a clown.. but i still love her..

the mak dara part carried out only by juhara ayob alone on stage without any prop was really good as well.. she's an amazing actress i must say.. last time, she was the nyonya.. and now it seems she's a senior and carries a more heavy character as mak dara.. aaahhh.. i am not doing it justice in describing how good she is.. shes really good..

hmm.. as im typing this, alip is lecturing zarif about his results and his mafaking results.. and i'm just sitting here listening.. not that i dont care.. i just dont want to interrupt alip.. let him speak la.. ive spoken enough last night...

okla, i think cukop la setakat ni.. till next entry.. later~~