not feeling well

i was on my way to go teaching tution but then suddenly i felt heavy on the head.. my eyes also heavy, felt like shutting them down all the times.. maybe i was sleepy or maybe i was starting to feel sick i also wasnt sure.. and this slash i got on my middle finger is only making my typing more difficult.. darn it..


so here i am at the kids house but im not teaching him tonite.. alip is.. im just sitting at a corner of the room minding my own business..just swallowed 2pills of panadol and now hoping that ill feel better when i want to go to bed tonite..

i was bored and had nothing to do.. so i thought this is a good time for me to update my blog.. although it has no visitor yet.. it doesnt matter.. as the title reads.. mine and mine alone.. translated from my old fs blog.. huhu.. sometimes i wish there are people who know and enjoy reading my blog.. sometimes when things got too personal, i'd wish it was only me here.. and only I will know.. haih.. kecelaruan gender sangat.. *matilatakdakaitan

i think i will tell about my trip to penang and how stupid them people were.. memang kuang ajar gila mereka..
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i actually stopped this post halfway the other night and continueing it now.. and suddenly i dont feel like talking about penang anymore..
i was reading my ex's blog and suddenly realized that i dont know her anymore.. i used to think anything that she wrote in her blog would have something to do with me.. but now i realize that she has moved on.. i dont matter to her as much as i once did.. well, i think i did matter to her.. maybe i was wrong at that too..

twice already that i have gone out with my friends and saw her with a new guy.. i dont hate her for that.. and i am not jealous with them.. but deep inside theres a feeling as if i have lost her.. i used to think that i would always have a place in her heart.. but seeing her twice happy with the new guy made me realize that i have been replaced.. that special space in her heart that once belonged to me now has a new owner and that guy is my friend too.. so i'm happy for them..

i am pretty sure that noone reads my blog now hence i blatantly talk about my ex and her new bf here..
in her latest post she also mentioned about the games we used to play when we were in auckland.. and i miss those too.. aahh.. how wonderful it is if i had a time machine so that i could travel and revisit my younger years.. those times in auckland when everything felt so right when they were wrong and nothing was impossible..(honestly i'm not so convinced with this).. but my point is.. i miss my life in auckland.. i miss the person i used to be.. so carefree and nonchalant in almost everything.. i turned out ok i guess.. bak kata matyer.. live more worry less.. thats so true..

nonetheless, lifes got to go on kan.. for odie dino nadiya liyana maisarah tajudin and whoever that is furthering their studies.. i salute you all.. not all has the courage to continue study after the gruelling 4 years in auckland.. to me it means that u guys havent had enough of aucland yet i guess.. well, nor have i.. tapi aku tiada the luxury to sambung stadi so sape yg ada tu.. beruntung la awak..

ok sampai disini saja lah.. dah takda apa nak borak da.. later~~

sooo random.. ok wakdol da tukar kerja.. :(

ok nak try letak gambar..