i know the title sounds kinda not tally coz i just updated yesterday.. but yesterdays update cant count coz it was just a video that i watched and felt nostalgic.. it wasnt really anything i wanted to talk about, was just something random hence this entry right here..
well ekceli ive been wanting to write a new post since many days ago but just never got the chance.. so u know what i did.. each time i thought of something i want to talk about, i'd write it as a note on my iphone (iphone caption needed) so when its time for me to write about them id know what to talk about.
theres ekceli a list of the things.. so i will try to go at it one by one..
ok first..
u know its ramadhan now and only a few days left to shawal.. and we can see many muslims(those faithful ones) are trying their best to increase their amalan, solat teraweh, baca quran, go to majlis agama, perform qiamulail etc etc as to obtain that one night we call lailatulqadar.. but as for me, i have stopped giving a dang about it long ago.. hmm.. there was one time during ramadhan probably 10years ago that i yearned to be given and blessed with lailatulqadar.. but as i grew up many things changed.. my environment, the people around me.. things i surround myself with..they all have made me become how i am now today.. someone whos not giving a damn.. i am not ignorant though but just i dont care.. i dont know what word can be used to describe me.. but i believe its not of something good.. no i am not blaming anyone or anything for why ive changed from the old innocent me.. i take it as a process in life i must go through.. and i never thought of myself as a saint, so at times i am ok if i am the devil..
hmm.. i cannot say much about how changed ive become coz i know its not a good thing.. but i know there will come a time where i will care again.. care about islam, care about my amalan and bekalan for hereafter.. i just hope when its time, its not too late anymore..
ok i dont want to get my mood down now.. i still have a few things to talk here..
now that i am working.. my salary is not much tho.. but when added up with overtime, mileage claim etc etc i think i earn enough and since i am also teaching tution until end of november.. my monthly income is quite big thus this luxury (kind of) life i am living now.. so it actually worries me that i might not get out of this lavish lifestyle i have now once i dont teach tution anymore.. hmm..
but thats not what i want to talk about coz i said earlier.. i dont want to worry about anything now.. that i will worry later when im supposed to.. *livemoreworryless
what i wanted to talk about is now i am full with desires to buy new stuffs... now my eyes are set on buying an ipad2 and a motorcycle.. probaly not to the latter tho coz i dont even have a bike licence.. but ipad2 is almost certain.. hmm.. once the gaji is in, i ma buy myself an ipad2.. i dont want to care what other people have to say about me getting an ipad2.. its my money so lantak la.. haha *selfish&stubborn
well this actually made me remember about this one thought i had the other day.. u know how often people talk about the importance to save money so that u can use it on rainy days blablabla.. maybe i have not fully understood that or maybe i think i will not have rainy days.. but as of now.. i just dont care.. well ekceli i understand it completely, but im choosing to ignore it.. in other words is that i just dont want to worry about it.. *livemoreworrylessmyass
i know its good to have some money saved up.. but right now i just want to live my life and loving it.. not save all my money, refrain myself from buying things i want so later i can support a house for my bini anak2 or whatever.. thats what my family expects of me.. but this begs the question do i want to have bini and anak2?? yes actually but not desperately though.. i will accept if thats what God has destined for me.. terima qada qadar but i dont look for a wife now nor do i long for one.. maybe when the day comes when i feel i need to have a wife, then i will find one.. and i am sure by that time i am richer than i am now so to support them (bini and anak2) wont be a big problem to me.. huhu *katakataconfident
i had that thought when i looked at this one fren of mine (no name needs mentioning) who i just found out will tie the knot early next year or middle of year whenever so hes started to save here and there, sanggup naik moto je rather than a car padahal gaji dia lagi mahal ni bang oi.. ok maybe we just have different perceptions in life on whats important whats not.. but seriusly dude, why are u sacrificing your own happiness for someone other than you?? hmm maybe he loves the woman dearly and the girls happiness outweighs his own.. if thats the case.. i respect u and wish u the best in life.. if suffering just so that your bini can be happy makes u happy, so be it..
*ehmotiptulispanjang2
ok lets move on to the next item on the list..
this one in my iphone i put as "life teaches me that we can only rely on ourselves to never let us down"
hmm.. i actually put a fb status that time coz i was just pissed at everyone and everything..
my fb status reads "
"
u know how some times when u'd trust on something or something to do something for you.. and u believed him wholeheartedly that he'd never let u down... but when it matters the most he just fucked ya.. haih.. theres nothing much i want or can talk about this one.. i think better to leave this one out and not mention anything that will worsen the scenario..
but just bear in mind this.. dont simply put your heart and soul to someone whos not you coz they will not care or love u as much as u do... it pains the worst especially when its someone whom u trust never to hurt u who does shits to you..
argh... need to clear my mind from this... *ctrl+alt+del please
hmm.. the next thing is about my training i attended the other day.. how to program a BACnet controller using Plain English Language.. why the fuck that i went to this again??
ok the programming was easy enough, similar to C and C++ i learned as a student but the shit is when i couldnt install the program called Continuum on my laptop coz i'm running windows 7 64-bit OS when the prog requires a 32-bit.. how the fuck was i supposed to know??
(i need to reduce my usage of the word fuck #random)
but that problem i got solved by installing VMware on my laptop and run a windows XP instead.. but then it turned out the controller the trainer had prepared for me couldnt connect to my workstation due to unknown reason.. i was pissed and in the end i gave up *dasarmelayumudahgiveup
and now there is 2 sets of question that i need to answer and submit to him after raya.. damn i'm so freaking malas to go through the notes to answer them questions.. oh please la datang kerajinan tu nnt..
i also attended a NTSP training at NIOSHto allow us to work at TNB later.. and the trainer named azhar abu bakar was such a funny character.. the whole training session he made jokes and made us laugh so although i was sleepy as shit at that time i didnt doze off.. maybe heres a tip for those teachers or lecturers out there who want to avoid their students from sleeping in class, be creative, crack jokes and dont care too much about appearance and protocol.. act silly sometimes (not all the times please) so that people will know and remember you.. it doesnt hurt, does it??
mo
ok nak cakap pasal benda lain pulak.. bosan la pasal keje..
hmm.. ok next..
i dont know what is it with me now but i am longing to watch old malay movies.. when i said old i dont mean P Ramlee old.. but old like movies in the late 80s or early 90s.. theres this one movie called ops belantara year 1993 i watched when i was kid and me and my brother would later act out the scenes in the movie and we'd kick each other here and there.. haha funny how influenced we were by the movie and we thought it was so cool back then... i bet if i see the movie now i will laugh my heart out and criticize it like hell..
theres another movie called ringgit kasorga year 1994.. after watching diana yusof in it, i wanted to go to france and learn the language.. haha kids get inspired by anything, dont they.. hmm.. i also want to watchmovies like
sayang salmah (terus teringat phrase sucimusalmah used widely by mehayams) yang ada sidi oraza, azhar sulaiman, norish karman dll
perempuan isteri dan... lakonan sofea jane and nasir bilal khan
kekasih awal akhir lakonan sofea jane and jamal abdillah
Baginda lakonan azean irdawati (pasal voleyball yall)
Puteri Impian lakonan amy mastura
dan lain lain
i have searched the internet for links to download these movies from but still havent found any.. huhuhu.. maybe need to hit a speedy video store like the old days..
OMG i just got a notification on FB, min malik just approved my friend request.. hehe.. excited..
so i paused this entry and went browsing her photos.. she's changed now.. now a military woman.. when did that shit happen?? (seriusly, need to reduce the word shit too)
hmm.. dont want to say much.. if that makes her happy so let her be happy.. no matter what i will always be a fan of her and her song flora cinta..
haha so random nak letak lagu bagai..
ok that brings me to the final item for this blog entry (damn my hands tired already)
the other night i went to jalan TAR KL to look for baju melayu.. and also kueh2 raya.. i was thinking to buy my bapak nyer baju melayu there.. kaler krim saiz L pinggang 42.. so i went with my frens.. 3 of them one being a philipino.. OMG ramai nyer orang time tgh2 malam ni.. and the jalan was quite sempit la.. to make it worse was time tu la pulak ada orang2 bawak trolley berisi air la baju la apa la yg menambahsesakkan keadaan.. rasa cam nak tampar2 jer orang bawak trolley tu nyusahkan orang lalu lalang jer.. at the of the day, i didnt buy anything coz couldnt find baju melayu yg seluar saiz 42.. i asked if they could sell only the shirt they rudely said no.. so curse them..
haih.. kat mana la nak beli ni eh.. *stillnoidea
my friend orang filipina ni pulak yg beli baju raya sakan.. dgn baju nyer sampin nyer songkok nyer.. haha.. semangat kau kan donnie dapat beraya sini tahun ni.. aku pon takda baju lagi ni..
well ekceli i saw one red colour quite nice there so im planning to go back maybe this saturday to buy me that red baju melayu with red samping as well.. hoho.. sungguh meriah merah makngah la aku raya tahun ni..
OMG, i think if my hands have mouth they would be swearing at me coz man im so damn tired already but still rasa macam byk nak cakap ni.. but i think enough is enough.. better stop this post here la.. the other things are so minor they dont mean or matter much anyway..
so sampai disini saja.. later yall
*saper la yg gigih baca entry ni sampai habis eh???
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