Living like our age...

salam..

this night i feel like talking about one particular thing that is not so important.. but since im still wide awake, why the hell not, right?

but before i get to the main point, maybe its good if i give some intro of what i just did today.
i went out to midvalley with farik rick karim and erwan.. met erwan there at around 3pm.. i was late because fariq was late.. had late lunch at nandos.. (its been more than a year since i last had nandos i think)

then go to solat zuhur (because i forgot to solat before i went out).. then we started our splurging session.. (although i dont really have much money to splurge to begin with.. but i dont care!! its retail therapy bitch!!)

ok basically the three of us are fans of topman and zara.. for some reasons the designs from these outlets resonate well with us..
well actually, ive been a fan of topman since i was a teenager.. maybe since i was 18 like that.. but being 18, it was okay to wear topman.. maybe if youre 22 or 23, it is still okay to wear topman.. but being 25? am i too old already to be wearing topman? honestly speaking but dont quite understand why, i asked myself that...

if i have to give an answer to that question, my asnwer would be NO.. i am not at that age yet where wearing topman is considered inappropriate..

but this begs thee question, why is there an inappropriate age for someone to wear topman? does it mean someone who's 50 or 60 cannot wear topman? what is the age limit then? who decides the age limit? why should we oblige to it?

ok too many questions, leading to too many confusions...

that age of 50 or 60 is a lil bit too extreme to be made an example for this argument..

topman fashion is generally for young male.. id say for late teens, the 20s and maybe some early 30s..so i think it is safe to say, old people (50 or 60 yo) arent supposed to wear topman at their age..

but this is my opinion.. maybe other people think the topman fashion suits even old people.. maybe?

then i wondered.. how will i be like when im 50? do i have the guts to put on young men clothing?
hahaha i dont know... maybe? hehehe..

i hate that i have this feeling.. i know i shouldnt have this feeling yet.. but i do..
i feel like im already too old for topman.. damn it!!
now my taste of fashion is more on brand like zara.. but even that.. not really either..

ok i am a lil bit confused.. zara's style is much more matured than topman, that is what i think.. so thats why i am starting to like zara more now that im getting older..
but am i the only one?

ok this entry post is so silly... why the hell am i talking about fashion? does it even matter??

come to think about it, the main concern is not about the fashion style i am adapting to now.. but its more of why i feel this way.. or starting to feel this way..
the feeling of getting older, getting more adult..like i'm evolving.. transforming internally.. starting to like things that are associated more with adult people..
am i having quarter-life crisis? is that even a thing?

when i was younger, i came across to this phrase
"getting old is mandatory, growing up is optional" and
"age is just a number, youth is in the attitude"

how i understood these phrases was that.. we cannot help how old we are getting each day, each minute.. but how we live each day is totally up to us.. be it like a kid, a teenager, a regular adult man or an old man..

to me, this means that.. even when youre older, per say at the age of 40 or 50, if you still can do things young people do (for example, play skateboard, bungy jump or whatever), then why the hell not??

and if you want to dress like young people, go head and just do it..

i know some people, when they grow old, they will choose to dress, act, walk, talk and do things the way 
old people do..
that is boring i think....
i want to live young forever!!! so i dont care how old im getting, i will still be rocking it...*poyogilaayat

hmmm.... reading back what i wrote and thinking...
writing about it in this blog might not give me the answer that i want..  (as if i really want or need the answers to begin with)
coz maybe theres nobody reading it.. even if there are people who read it, doesnt mean they'd understand of what i speak of.. theyd probably understand it if theyve experienced it too..
itd be cool if i can get these people who understand and have felt the same way im feeling now to talk to me.. that would be cool.. but for some reason i think i know that its not gonna happen..
there are just too many uncertainties.. too many "if" conditions to make it come true..

okla, i dont see this entry making any sense now to anybody else but.. i think im gonna watch the latest greys anatomy before i go to bed..

till next time~~
stay young people!