the world hasnt ended yet.. and neither has my life..

dear diary,

it is the day after the supposedly end of the world (21-12-2012) as predicted by the Mayans.
and for sure they were wrong..
it was not doomsday yesterday.. pretty much like any other day i guess.. except for some silly little jokes on how drunk they mayans must have been when they predicted the doomsday..

but i must admit i did have some thoughts running thru my head, what if it really was doomsday yesterday.. am i prepared? what is it that i need to prepare myself with? buying and stocking stuffs for consumption for months? or just prepare to face death and the afterlife?
hahahaha.. but that thought didnt last long coz i didnt really believe the world was gonna end.. so why should i bother about it too much?

and i am right.. well, everybody is..

anyhow, thats not really what i want to rant on here..
just that.. this morning somehting silly happened... and i dont know why it still bothers me.. but it just does..

ok lemme explain.. this morning i decided to leave my house to office a bit later than usual since already had lunch on nasi lemak at home..
when i was leaving, locking my door, i saw this guy who's living in the unit opposite of my house sitting near the door.. i merely glanced at him.. then suddenly he yelled at me.. he said something like this..

"apa pandang2? sebok buat per?? baru pindah da nak berlagak!!"

i was like "whoah bitch!! whats up with you?" but of course internal monologue only..
i didnt dare say back or look back at him..
hahahahaha... am i a coward?
well it depends on how you wanna look at it.. and also it depends on what kind of person you are, or how you were brought up..
but i dont want to care what others think of what i shouldve done..
i care about what i think i should do in that situation.. i chose to be quiet because i didnt want to create chaos.. i didnt want to get involved in whatever problem there was..
so to me its simple.. if you think i was a coward for not speaking up.. then so be it..
but i know i did the right thing because nothing good was gonna come up had i been in a fight with him..

i took the higher road, so to say.. and honestly speaking, i am actually doing him a favour..

but i dont think everybody wouldve done what i did.. some might think that i shoulve replied and possible got into a fight.. then the fight might last for some time and causing awkward moments should we pass by each other..

but at that split moment where i had to choose how to react, i chose to be the bigger person.. *i think..

ok.. now that i think of it.. its really silly though.. and like i said earlier.. why is it still bothering me??
maybe its because im not used to being so called "challenged" like that in my life?

aaahh.. whatever it is.. its not important.. unless it pays for my bill, pays my rent and buys my food, i probably should just never think about it..

i want to be a better, happier person, so whatever it takes, i will do..
and i will be better and happier
i know it..

ok wedding pasha dresscode very the formal.. kena pakai lounge suit bagai.. mana nak cari?
or should i just wear baju batik? i think thats fine too, no?

ok till next time.. later??