bebel lagi la kita

20170801 1629 Tuesday

I am so not in the mood to meroyan here now.. as usual perasaan mcm ada yg x kena..

Ada byk keje ke?

Rasa macam patut ada byk keje, tp skrg rasa cam xda kejepulak.. susah nak describe perasaan ni..

Ada project baru, si TJ tu kata nak soh aku handle.. tp akucam blur2, what exactly nk aku buat ni.. lol..

Project utk lift destination kat menara maxis..

Aku pon mcm x betul2 di brief pasal projek tu, so aku ponblur2 je la..

Maybe because benda baru nak start kot so mcm xda pape lagila yg nk disibukkan..

Tp nnt bila da start keje pe sume nnt jd sibuk la aku ni kot..

Niat nak pergi gym jogging sejam sehari tu hanya akantinggal harapan je la.. lolz..

Pastu TJ cakap ada satu lagi halfway done project utk buat as built drawing Genting..

I am all ok with whatever the job he wants me to do but I am not sure how I am supposed to proceed without any guide or clear direction of what needs to get done, when or how..

I mean if its clearly mentioned this and that, or that I have full control over what I need to do to achieve the objective, then its fine la.. I can plan what I want to do, be it not the best way to achieve the goal, but its my way, its my plan.. and although there may be better ways, I will take pride in knowing that I did it all on my own..

That is something that I can be proud of..

I just finished downloading game of thrones s07e03 on my phone, using the office wifi its so fast..

I wanted to watch stream on yesmovies but even w the 80mbs speed of my office internet, the streaming on yesmovies was not smooth.. so I fed up, I decided to download thru torrent using my android phone..

So now da habis download aku nak menikmati la episode sirikegemaran aku ni..

Tapi aku juga mahu menulis keroyanan dalam ni..

Anyway haritu besday aku, on that day aku pegi main tournament volleyball kat mbsa seksyen 19..

Team aku team medusa menang champion.. xda dapat duitpon.. dpt nama je la.. lolz..

I don’t know why I expected my birthday to be great.. but it wasn’t..

Well, I shudve known better not to have any expectation..

And the fact that I was susceptible to falling to wanting to expect, that disappointment is something I have to just bear and live with.. idiocy!

Everyday I send my child to taska before leaving for work, and thus far everyday he will cry when I was about to take my leave..

I wud hug him and kiss him, then pass him to the teacher, he wud shake his hand and cry, owh it breaks my heart seeing him like that..

I did ask the teacher then how he was doing, the teacher replied hes doing fine, sent his photos playing, smiling and looking happy..

Aaa I am missing my child.. hari2 jumpa pon rindu.. mandikan dia hari2..

Mandi sama2 lak tu..

Pagi2 suapkan dia makan..

Malam2 pelok, tepuk belakang dia nak tido..

Okla dah la tu nak tulis kat sini cukup la bebel je keje.. lolz