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20221230 0900

 

So today I feel like venting, and I will use English today for the entire post, just because I feel like I need the practice. It has been quite some time for me to just dwell in my feelings and express them in English.

For some reason, I am more comfortable to vent in English… it feels more organic…

Regarding work, i have some work that I am yet to complete, but I will do that after… now, is ranting and venting time…

I was talking to Dalino yesterday and he mentioned about him losing passion in his job… basically, he got bored from doing the same thing over and over and there is no more aspiration and no motivation, maybe, to pursue something bigger.

I was shocked coz I have always thought of him as someone who is ambitious and someone who strives to become the best in whatever he does, so hearing him say that took me by surprise… well I guess, that’s just life eh…

Now let’s do the same and I will try to relate the situation to my own.

Well, I have been feeling that for ages now… I have suffered from the lack of motivation from the very beginning of my career.

Truth be told, I have never had a job that I enjoy doing thoroughly and needless to say, I have been feeling like all these while I had just been slaving myself just to earn a living… and sadly, I feel like I have never really contributed to the society in a significant manner, none at all…

I know when I put it that way, it sounds super harsh and kind of humiliating… but that’s just how it is…

Of course, I wish I could be doing something that I enjoy for money… the problem with that, I just don’t know what that something is…

One huge problem of mine is that I get bored easily. Even when I am good at something and, I will have a go at it and make some real progress, promising future, then I just get bored, and I quit.

I acknowledge that as my flaw/weakness, but I don’t know how to better it.

And at times I feel like there is no need for me to strive and struggle to change something like that. I just can’t be bothered.

Well, I guess the best way to handle the situation is to find a job that I really enjoy doing, something that I will not get tired of… and until that happens, slave away bij!

There is something that I quite like doing, but yet to reach a point of giving me ecstasy, that is trading.

For some weird reason I quite like it, not that I am good at it… but I just can’t seem to get enough of it, despite having experienced significant losses in the past, I just can’t quite, maybe I don’t know how to quite, neither do I want to…

I guess this means that I should pursue it, am I right? At least I know that I will not outgrow it, not become bored with it… fingers crossed…

and to that effect, I have registered for the webinar next week to learn about FCPO trading, which is shariah compliant… and I also noticed that the chart is available on TradingView so I can make use of the OBA indicator for the FCPO chart as well…

Let’s just be hypothetical and imagine that I will become very good at trading, thus generating significant income from doing it, what will happen then?? Will I be doing it full time and quit my day job at BV?

I can’t say for sure, but I am more inclined to say no to that… I feel like having an office, 9-5 job is something I have always known since the beginning, and from past experience I know of how important it is… so Its hard for me to simply quit, although as I said, there are days that I feel like I am slaving myself for some dollars… quitting is not the best option, in my opinion.

But to answer the hypothetical, and based on what I know and what I have experienced, I am not going to quit my job coz I feel like the trading can be done part-timely…

I believe a good trader don’t need to be glued to the monitor screen 24/7 analyzing chart and whatnot.

From what I learned, a good trader must be smart at choosing the timing to enter the market, and even more important is money management… coz losing is simply unavoidable.

Money management is important… that is to know when to cut loss and to move on, and wait for the next entry point…

Wow, I sound like a pro already…

But seriously, this is what I feel like my calling is… what I am meant to do with my life… and it’s something that I enjoy doing… so why not pursue it?? Yes I will!!! And I will get better!!! And I will become rich!!! LOLZ

And speaking of things that I like doing. I also want to to try the shopee business as well… although that seems like a lot of work… also I want to be a property agent selling condos too…

At times I feel like I often bite more than I can chew, and as a result, I need to pick and choose what to pursue and what to abandon.

Damn!!

Well, I think that is enough talk of money already…

Since its 2 days to the new year, lets just list down a few NY resolutions…. Not that I will adhere by them, but it is good to have something that I can refer to, in case if I feel lost, and numb about life…

1.       To exercise more, and to be more consistent. I know this is such a cliché NY resolution, but I cant discredit its importance… and even more important is that I really want to do it…

2.       To be more financially savvy… that means to be more responsible on how I spend my $$$. To stop doing impulsive shopping (bye bye shopee) and to start having some money saved.

3.       To explore on how to attain my P.Eng qualification.

4.       To cook more.

5.       To read a book.

I don’t want to list so much coz it will serve no purpose anyway, I will not be able to fulfill them if there are too many resolutions. So for this time around, 5 is plenty.

 until next time... daa~~