Salam, hello and hola to all..

my last post was over 2 months ago, surely heaps of stuffs have happened in my life, i just didnt have the time nor the mood to blog about them.
anyhow i am here to write about it ,altho i really dont feel up to it but whatever..
and also, i want to try writing Tun M style where he would number his sentences so they're easy to track? i guess..

1. Right now i am at offshore, on-board of crew ship Sarku Santubong which is currently in the gulf of thailand.. I am working at CPOC JKB Platform. My scope as telecom engineer is not much, fairly easy and so far there isnt any huge issue that i cannot handle. so far work at offshore for JKB, its all good.

2. I resigned from Omega Integration and now working for Sapura Kencana Petroleum. To be more specific, its Kencana Pinewell S/B a subsidiary of SKP. I started with SKP on 21 September, basically 1 month ago.

3. I came to offshore on 19 October, around 1 week ago and so far so good. Onshore, i work in the office at Solaris Dutamas, a fancy place it is. Work at the office is kinda boring, nothing much to do. mostly check vendor documents and comment. go to meeting with vendor and client. lots of emails for clarifications. joining tender, preparing jobcard and checking MTOs. So basically these are all new things that i didnt do at Omega and i had to learn them. So far so good.. how hard could it be pun kan. At offshore, its easier.. all i do is prepare drawings and permit, tell the team to do this and that, like fabricare support, do midification, do fit up, and get the manpower, like to erect scaffolding, erect habitat and request welder etc.. for now these are the things ive done, and i know there are still loads for me to learn and catch up.. i am not worried nor am i in a rush so i will take it slow, one thing at a time and insyallah i'll be fine.

4. before i came offshore my wife and i went to do the 3d 4d scan and i took a video when the doctor did ultrasound scanning to see the baby.. and although we planned not to find out the gender of the baby, it was obvious coz the baby was terkangkang and we could see its tiny penis.. its a boy ladies and gentlemen.. my little baby boy.. cant wait to see the little guy.. i promise to be the best dad i can be, insyaallah.. other than that, the baby is healthy, the doctor managed to see all the organs, the heart, brain, spine, and the limbs etc.. the baby is healthy and normal, Alhamdulillah for that.

5. ok now i wanna talk about something not so pleasant, it is unpleasant to me, and i feel really annoyed by it. On whatsapp i am in this chat group dedicated for OISB service team, and lately i just feel rather annoyed by this chat group, by their conversation. and yes i ignore them, but its still annoying coz they keep coming back. for now i will try to ignore and not let it bother me, but i think soon i'll just quit the chat group.. i got nothing to lose.. why am i not doing it now? like right away? its because i dont want people to misunderstand,. as long as i can tolerate it, i will.

6. a few nights ago i had a discussion with Raul about ASB, that bitch is rich now coz he goes offshore so often he must have tens of thousands of savings now and i told him to buy a house and get married soon..
ok i digressed.. the topic of discussion at first was about ombak and castle, but then turned into a discussion about asb loan.. he told me asb loan is less profitable compared to if you save monthly on your own.. and we argued and he shared with me his spreadsheet.. one thing he forgot to take into account is that, when you save the money monthly, you still need to deduct the amount you saved coz it is still money out of your pocket. He deducts the amount paid for the loan but he forgot to deduct the amount saved.. well its understandable coz people often misunderstand and dont see the whole thing clearly.. so i just would like to say here, taking the ASB loan is not a loss, it may give the bank whole load more money but on our side, we still gain profits.

7. Ombak and castle. I wanted to talk about this a few nights ago when it mattered.. but now it dont anymore.. its actually easy to get rid of it actually, just dont think about it.. do something else unrelated entirely.. and before u know it, its in the past.. but being realistic, i know that a few nights ago was not the last of the ombak, i will be hearing about it in the future, not sure soon or not but surely it'll come back. and its just something i have to live with.. something i grew up with.. some people may call it a curse, but i dont want to be so negative about it.. i wont call it a curse, it is what it is and id like to think of it as something thats helped me in my life, and taught me to be strong and independent.
oh boy, had it been 10 years ago, i wouldve written a few pages long about it and make a big deal out of it.. i am old, i dont do that anymore..
Ombak and Castle is apart of my life then, now and forever..

8. On facebook, i always wish people on their birthday. Yesterday was the birthday of Chip, or his real name Zulfadli zulkifly, a friend of mine in Auckland, who died last year. I am not sure he died of what, but my point is.. when i saw the fb reminder of his birthday, i wanted to wish him, but then i remember that he's dead. i felt really sad instantaneously.. TBH i was not that close to chip back in Auckland, just normal friends. He was a good person, everybody liked him..
I went to his fb page and saw that his wife still post stuff and tagged him.. like when their daughter turned 1, and the anniversary of this death.. reading her posts made me teary eyed.. i dont know how to describe this feeling.. she loves him..misses him surely.. she's a strong woman.. and he died when she was pregnant with their child.. ohmy i cant hold my air mata anymore.. i ma teriak like a lil girl coz im so sad..

9. ok enough with that crying, lets talk about food and eating. I plan to take my wife and my in laws to eat Seoul Garden at CS when i get back to onshore, maybe take a few days of leave and just chill at home huhu..

10. I miss my wife so much.. no words can say it enough.. haih but thats life, we dont always get what we want kan.. i realize that im not a royal prince or whatever who doesnt have to work for a living, i am a commoner and i have to work.. so thats it..

11. maybe in the future if Allah wills it, i can work for my self, start a small business or something like that.. but knowing me, i dont see that happening anytime soon.. not that i dont like doing business.. but if i were to start a business, i want something that i can grow into, meaning that i dont want to start business kedai runcit or kedai makan coz its not something that you can develop..  Engineering company is maybe a viable options, but there are so many things to consider, to study and to research on.. not to mention, its very risky, especially in todays economy.
i dont want to stress out about it, if its meant to be it will be.

12. my house progress. we had engaged contractors to do reno at our house in Pulai. nothing major, only the kitchen cabinet, cornice and wiring, also the grille for the entire house.. also my wife went to Jakel for the house curtains.. in total, we spent around 25k for these renovations, mostly went to kitchen cabinet RM14k.. mahal gila kan.. pengsan jap.. when i get back onshore i will go check the condition and if its all good, make the final payment. I pray to God that its all good.

13. rumah segambut. before i left for orrshore, i was checking out a house in Segambut. its a flat house, 3 rooms 2 bedrooms i found on mudah.my. the house surrounding was kinda scary to be honest, but the house conditions were not bad. an old chinese lady is currently staying there.. the house is priced at 90k on mudah. if i had the money i wouldve taken the house then and there.. but i didnt.. the money i have now are to pay for the house renovations in JB.. huhu.. gotta be realistic there.. maybe next year i will have the extra money for a new house in KL, Gods willing, insyaallah ada rezeki tu.. rezeki baby mungkin..

14. I have registered maxis fiber at wangsa maju my parents house. haha sangat excited ye people.. i know that its been around since 2012, but only now i get to do that coz before i didnt stay with my parents but now i do. ok lepas ni boleh dah dok melayan movie kat playboxhd tu sampai lebam, layan tv series, layan anime, layan cartoons.. JK, i dont watch cartoons no more huhu.. right now my nephew si aiman tu mesti tgh syok sbb dpt download game2 dia kat ipad tu, dpt tgk movie2 tu semua.. suka la kau.. huhu.. darn it lagi 2 minggu baru aku balik umah.. takpe, sabar separuh iman.. huhu

15. ok saje nak share kisah internet kat atas kapal ni.. i think dia punya bandwidth is 1mbs coz at night when noone is using the internet ( i assume noone la coz when i checked the speed it was 3am in the morning).. 1mbs is not fast, but for emailing and stuff should be fine la.. but i am such a "deal" coz i opened torrent on my phone and download stuff, download antm la, download tbbt, oitnb, modern family.. hahaha segala2 aku download.. walaunpun the average download speed is really slow like 10kbs, i just leave it running and after several hours 1 episode is done downloading.. haha i just cant live without internet, can i? the funny thing is, these people had changed the wifi password coz they though too many people using slows down the internet speed, little did they know the culprit is me, coz my torrent hogs the bandwidth.. hahaha i am evil.. but sometimes i stop the download tho, when the internet is really slow.. like right now.. i just do the download at night..

16. ok susah nak iron rambut kat sini.. i do it in the morning when people are still sleeping and i had to go to surau to do that.. ok gigihkan.. random gila kan update pasal iron rambut.. kbye..

17. ok now kat fb tgh tgk org eksesais dia tunjuk transformasi badan dia dari gempal2 jadi ketul2 dan sado.. damn i feel so sedih about my body.. this reminds of a few weeks ago i during sembahyang jumaat, i met CashRazak who was sitting in front of me in the masjid.. gila bagak tangan dia besar macam kayu balak, he was wearing a tight shirt with kain pelikat. mesti rumah dia dekat2 je dgn mesjid wilayah tu.. on instagram i saw him driving an audi A5, tapi haritu aku x nampak pulak dia naik kereta apa.. xkan la nak follow dia sampai ke kereta pulak kan.. crazy stalker much.. besides, i was with faqihudding haritu naik motor dia gi mesjid sesama.. and we had nasi kukus ayam rempah tepi masjid for lunch, he said dia dgn matyenk always makan sana on Friday..
ohmygod randomnyer cerita aku..

allright, sampai di sini saja la kot.. aku nak ke platform tgk progress of my stuff seeing now the rain has stopped.. till next time.. smell ya later~~

singapore

hello yall

aku ada kat omega singapore now.. da lama jugak la x berada kat office omega singapore ni.. Omega Integration Pte Ltd (OIPL)

in 2013 i attended training here for 6 months.. lepas tu da jarang sangat dtg balik OIPL ni.. xda urusan pon nak dtg sini balik.. lain lah kalau aku ni buat projek ke apa.. ni salu pergi site je..

aku dtg oipl harini sbb nak buat mock up test utk job upgrade firmware fire and gas panel platform perisai pacific101..

skrg aku cam kompius.. buat testing ni tapi gagal.. x dpt nak download/upload to/from the fire panel.. x sure kenapa tak boleh.. configuration file xleh nak download to the panel.. sedangkan firmware nyer boleh je di load.. so agak pening jugak la yer..

lagi pening nye sbb flight tiket da beli pulak ni.. sebab last week client da email da booking chopper hari rabu.. so kalau chopper rabu msti la kena flight ke Miri hari selasa kan.. jadi harini aku prepare la TAF tu and mintak belikan flight tiket..

airasia jhb-myy rm199 sajork.. xtau la boleh cancel ke x tu..

kalau x burn sajo la tiket tu..

for some reasons mata aku pedih je skrg ni.. dan berair je.. xtau la kenapa.. sedikit risau tapi xtau why exactly nak risau..

mungkin sbb x cukup tido ke eh?? mmg rasa mengantuk tahap gaban pon sekarang ni..

haih tetiba da xda mood nak sambung entry ni.. banyak cakap pasal benda2 tahi je kat sini nampaknyer.. baikla aku stop je..

omg ngantuk gila mata aku skrg rasa cam kena gam je..

kla.. till next time..

maybe ni last aku berada kat office omega singapore ni.. who knows..
maybe nxt time dtg as client pulak.. insyallah amen..

sebagai selingan, tgk la betapa laju nyer internet speed kat OIPL ni..

kat omega johore mana dpt speed cani.. kalau lucky dapat la 10mbs kot.. huhu.. tapi mada slow je dpt dlm 1.5 mbs jer..

okla bye..

stress pulak dpt keje baru

rasa cam kelakar lak nak rasa stress sekarang ni.. tp realitinya mmg tgh stress pon..

otak rasa cam serabut sgt..

rasa takut dan risau menghantui diri..

sekarang keadaan xda apa2 masalah.. selesa je.. ada rumah, ada keje, keje senang..

kalau terima tawaran kerja yg baru tu apa akan jadi pada kehidupan sekarang?

nampak mcm akan jadi lebih mencabar.

income lebih besar? only slightly.. tp hidup di KL, rasa mcm sgt mencabar yer.
dah la xda pegi site dah.. so eventually income jadi makin kecil sebenanyer.. basic je naik sikit..

prospek masa depan? mana yg lebih bagus?

sejujurnya aku rasa lebih kurang sama je.. mungkin tawaran baru tu masa depan lebih cerah sedikit sbb company besar.

hubungan family? terpaksa berjauhan dgn bini.. dan dia da mula emo2 da..
sebelum ni ckp ok nak keje KL sesama.. tp skrg da tukar pulak.. bila kita da accept baru dia nak emo.. haih.. stress la camni..

rasa cam nak tido je..

rumah dah beli kat johor.. walaupun pada awalnye aku hesitated to buy a property in Johor.. but she said a house is an asset, if we buy a house, we wont lose.. well i guess shes right..

mcm byk cons je tawaran baru ni..

tapi surat resign dah anta.. what to do?

nangis jap..

lepas nangis, buckle up and weather the storm..

insyallah its for the best

i dont know why i say this but still feel like i am making a mistake

because its an opportunity that dont come often?

whats the worst that could happen?
i will be out of job next year? so how do i cope with that?

i tell myself that i will do cwa full time.. make sense? insyallah boleh.. boleh je asalkan rajin..

whats the best thing that could happen?
my current boss gives me a raise so i wont leave the company?

hmmm highly unlikely.. dia kedekut

whatever it is.. i dont want to stress myself out because of it..
no matter what decision, it will be up to me to make it work..

insyallah, with God's help and hidayah, things will work out for the best..
i trust in this.. we propose God disposes..

okla its lunch time already..
have faith people..

no idea nak letak tajuk apa entry ni..

salam..

semoga yuols berapa dalam keadaan selamat dan sejahtera..

dalam blog post yg sebelum ni aku cakap nak sambung membebel bila dpt peluang.. tapi x menyambung pun.. nak kata x berkesempatan aku free je bila kat office tu.. tp whatever la kan.. skrg nk tulis blog tp can da xda mood nk citer pasal kisah lama.. tgk la caner..

skrg berapa do rumah pekan nenas.. sehari harian dok umah je membuta.. MIL and FIL went to jemputan kenduri kat dewan Ghulam JB.. mmg plan nak ikut derang tp wife tetiba pening kepala n rasa nak pitam so stay rumah sajork sbb die nak tido.. so kisah nye tido je la dok mah ni sambil bukak AC sbb hari panas terik yer..

OK jom update apa2 yg patut..

Semarang issue paling stressful buat org2 Malaysia is about kejatuhan nilai ringgit.. last I check the exchange rate against USD is USD1 = MYR4..
semua org tahu its not a good thing for the country and the people.. but some idiotic ministers or so called 'pakar ekonomi' cakap its good sbb whatever reasons la..
mestilah kena cakap mcm tu sbb dah kena bayar dgn Najib lah tu.. bila la mamat botak uban tu nak mati agaknye.. he has brought too many bad news to the country.. ke nak kena tunggu hero solo muncul dan menyelamatkan keadaan mcm malam cerita tamil vasantham ni?
Oh Tuhan please make things better for Malaysia.. Ameen..

OK move on to next topic..

haritu pergi interview sapura kencana petroleum.. but the intvw went horrible.. I paniced.. I froze.. it was terrible.. if I was the interviewer I would not consider me for the job.. it was for the post of Telecom/instrument engineer btw..
nik Alman and qayyum were also invited to the interview.. I wish them good luck.. if the job is theirs then the job is theirs..

baik dari interview my bad luck continued.. my Asus phone fell from my shirt pocket and the screen got smashed.. rasa cam nak nangis.. baru je beli phone tu.. x sempat nak pasang tempered glass lagi.. repair screen melayang la duit rm300..

own lupa lak.  x cerita pun lagi pasal iphone6 aku masuk laut kat mmhe pasir gudang.. omaigod.. bila terkenang nasib malang ni rasa cam nak nangis je..

but its behind me now.. lets not discuss about it more coz I dont see any good coming out of it..

let's talk about other things..

rumah da dpt kunci dr developer..
in my previous blog post I mentioned about lawyer TKK yg handle utk rumah aku tu ada prepare chronology letter for the payments dan lain2..
so we brought the letter to see the developer, manager yg jaga project tu.. bukan org bawahan dia.. so he checked and saw that the delay of payment was due to the delay of his team sending out this letter and that letter.. so the interest charge originally from rm3380 got down to only rm65..

kitorang pun malas nak panjang2 cerita paid for the balance and got the house key.. this was 1 week before raya kalau x silap..

pas dpt kunci kitorang check la brg2 kat dlm rumah and fill up defect form tu.. mcm kasi punchlist FAT la..
cat x betul, surface finish x elok.. wall crack.. pintu kopek2.. semua kena punch.. semalam check rumah derang dah clear the punches.. good job.. bagus2.. tp can ada a few je lg belum clear kot..

last week baru masuk SAJ and next week akan masuk TNB.. org pasang grille ondeway.. insyaallah end of this month grille akan dipasang..
basic needs utk hidup kat rumah tu dah ready la.. tp kitorang nak buat cantik2 elok2 before pindah masuk.. aku target by October la nak pindah masuk rumah tu.. I have a weird feeling, hard to explain, but mixed of excitement and pride on the thoughts of moving into our own place..

expenses for the new house da ada.. we have set aside the money.. went to kwsp and withdrew from our acc2 to pay for the house renovations,furniture etc..

Alhamdulillah.. so far it seems OK.. the money we have is enough to pay for it all..

OK tukar topik jap.. this month salary aku dpt basic sajork pasal xda gi site memana..
sedih sikit.. tp insyaallah xda apa2 problem kot..

OK cerita lain pulak.. aku ada join group yg buat unit trust investment melalui CWA.. aku pun x pastu why aku join CWA sbg agent after my bad experience with my CWA investment a few years back.. mungkin sbb brother yg lead team CWA kat sini tu dia mcm baik dan helpful and he made me believe that I can do it.. so I have paid RM310 to sit for the exam to obtain unit trust license.. my exam date is scheduled on 17 September.. in a month time.. memula nak amek exam 20 Aug tp takda seat available pulak.. aku pulak pada asalnya scheduled to go to CPOC commissioning on 22 Aug.. tp dah delay pulak to early Sept..
aku takut delay lama nnt 17 hb aku masih kat laut burn la duit aku RM310 sbb xleh refund..
stress pulak fikir pasal benda ni.. CPOC ni sesuka je nak tukar2 date pulak..

aahhh why stress over something like that.. lantak la kalau burn pun duit tu.. insyaallah ada next time.. rezeki Allah luas.. pegi laut tu lagi dpt byk duit..

brother yg cwa tu nama dia Airudin.. dia ajak aku pergi coaching session harini kat skudai tp aku x pergi sbb wife pening kepala.. mana boleh aku nak tinggalkan je.. lgpun aku rasa selagi aku xda license tu I feel like I don't belong..
its okay.. that time will come insyaallah..

xda update pasal raya pun.. well tbh cam xda apa yg menarik pun.. first raya dgn wife.. insyaallah next year dgn baby..

tahun ni raya kat KL.. next year di Johor la pulak..
aku x kisah pun.. also next year raya da ada rumah sndiri.. he he.. excited bak ang..

a few weeks back pegi checkup Doktor.. tgk baby gerak2 dalam perut.. gerak2 kaki tangan dia.. baca dalam baby bump app tu die ckp at 12weeks baby da sempurna dah anggota.. cuma nak membesar je sampai 9 bulan utk delivery.. omaigod I am going to be a daddy..
xtau lagi baby girl or baby boy.. tp we already checked a few good names for our baby.. semoga semua dipermudah.. insyaallah..

OK before I go, I just wanna say here that I am utterly grateful for everything I have now.. Thank you God for everything..

kisah2 lama time study dulu nnt2 la aku sambung.. time kat office nnt ke.. huhu..

k la bye later~~

ok jom sambung bebel

ok aku nak sambung bebelan aku yg dari pagi tadi tu.. altho i am not sure if i would be able to finish this post today.. haha.. konfirm la x habis nyer harini sbb skarang da dekat kol 4pm da.. lagi sejam setengah je aku ada nak menaip kisah2 hidop aku yg panjang ni.. pastu aku da la suka citer pepanjang kan..

tgk la intro yg kat atas tu.. tah pe2 tah tu pon nak panjang.. ok where did i stop just now?

ok tadi last citer pasal main bola kat old trafford, yg aku ada gado dgn matyer tu..
ok bukan la gado sgt pon.. dia je mulot jahanam panggil aku names, unpleasant names la..
aku honestly x kisah pon dgn panggilan tu coz i had thick skin..

ok nak selit jap cerita kisah office ni.. diantara kisah2 hidup lama aku ni..

boleh pulak budak2 ni argue saper nak pegi t9 la saper nak pegi cpoc la.. sedih la.. tgk je la tentative schedule.. kalau x clash tu xda la masalah.. susah la bebudak jaman sekarang ni.. sakit pulak hati kita ni.. jgn sampai aku charot kau besar besaran kat sini.. x aman hidop kau.. cewah, konon cam ada kuasa mistik je aku ni.. macam la charotan aku kat dalam blog ni power sangat...

power x power la.. sbb blog ni la fatah berenti keje.. eh.. kbye..

ok sambung kisah lama sewaktu berumur 18 tahun.. muda remaja aku..

meh sini nak bebel kisah pelajaran sikit.. walaupon sekarang ni topik pasal akademik ni aku da kurang sbb skarang ni aku bukan lagi seorang pelajar jadi hidop aku dah takda association dgn akademik. anyhow kat sini aku nak citer jugak..

kat kms ni aku amel a level, 3 subjek, physics chem dgn math.. aku da lupa dah pecahan math tu sbb ada pure math p1 p2 p3 pastu ada statistics dgn mechanics kalau x silap aku.. pastu physics dng chem ada 6 paper altogether.. 3 paper amek time AS, 3 lagi paper amek time A2..

AS tu stands for advance subsidiary, well A2 stands for advance 2? haha ntah.. tapi combine AS dgn A2 kau dapat la total A level kau nyer results..

results AS aku agak teruk la di mana aku dapat 2A 1C, kalau x silap aku la.. tapi sebab results A2 aku gempak, dia da balance balik dan aku dapat 3 A.. letup bang bang boom.. 3A so dapat la 15 point, iaitu maximum point, requirement mara kena dapat 13 point, tapi requirement untuk masuk university of auckland 11 point je pon.. so aku kira excellent la time tu..

pastu time kat kms ni aku ada stadi group.. aku nyer SG tu consist of me odie zhariq and syamim.. asyik2 dak2 ni jugak.. the other group utk kelas 6.4 ada david, capek, capdon, matyer dgn afiqkecil.. pastu for the girls there were aidzeera, nanad, janna, mysara tajuddin petai.. eh?

yg aku bangga ni sebab semuorang dalam SG aku dapat 15point.. glamer kan.. huhu ekselent katanya..

haih tetiba rasa xda mood nak citer lagi sbb tadi lawyer call pasal kes umah aku ni developer nak kenakan interest lak  rm3380.. cam vavi.. pastu tadi lawyer call cakap dapat diskaun jadi rm2000.. masalahnyer bukan salah aku kenapa aku nak bayar at all..
so skrg nak tunggu surat lawyer yg buat chronology for this payment to be made.. aku nak gi jumper developer and mintak untuk di waive kan.. sbb clearly derang yg lambat.. kalau aku x nak bayar, what options do i have eh?
haaaaa stress.. saper lawyer kat sini? anyone can advise?

haaa kosongkan minda.. xmau stress2 yg x perlu.. meh kita berbual lagi pasal masa lampau..

apa lagi nak citer pasal kms eh?

owh.. kat sini la aku berkenalan dgn penggunaan wella untuk meluruskan rambut.. of course la perintis atau pioneer menggunakan wella untuk straighten rambut adalah mehayam odienariegerodie..

we were in his room and he was applying the chemicals onto his hair, siap dgn shower cap nyer.. pastu satu block berbau ammonia.. bebudak ni cakap bau loji.. hasil dari pemakaian wella tu rambut odie terus kembang semangkuk mcm rambut rosmah.. dan yg penting nyer lurus..

so i was intrigued and the rest was history..

haaa nak citer jugak.. masa kat kms ni aku suke menenggek kat bilik dino sbb dia ada bawak laptop time ni.. pastu aku salu nyebok maingame kat laptop dia, laptop compaq warna kelabu, kalau x silap la..
time tu aku suka main game lord of the rings.. haha berjam2 aku lepak bilik dia.. bukan nak stadi.. main game je..
selain dino, odie pon ada bawak laptop jugak.. laptop toshiba warna biru, tapi kat laptop odie ni aku suka nyebok nak nonton desperate housewives katakau.. time tu baru season 1..

selain dari odie, adam dgn erwan pon ada bawak laptop.. dan satu benda yg aku takkan lupa ialah bila lila (ariff randzan) hulur tangan dari tingkap sbb nak pinjam laptop dari erwan sbb nak tengok porn.. hahahahaha... sampai mati pon aku takkan lupa benda tu.. kelakar gila bila dino cerita..

disebabkan masa mencemburui aku, aku akan suspend cerita ni kat sini.. esok bila ada kelapangan aku sambung la cerita zaman muda aku ni..

kendian~~

a burning desire to membebel

hello yuols and salam..

its july already and its my birthday month.. although besday aku dalam masa beberapa minggu lagi, tapi aku cam ada this one burning desire to write this post..

actually beberapa hari sudah ni aku banyak kali terfikir untuk tulis post dan mengimbau kenangan 10 tahun yg lalu..
the similar thing i did when i was turning 20, if i'm not mistaken, when i was in my 1st year of study in NZ, and i wrote a blog post in my friendster blog(that had been deleted) of how my life was, 10 years ago until today, which means since when i was 10 yo till i was 20 yo..

and sure enough there were many stories that i recalled.. and lucky enough for me that i managed to pdf-archive my blog posts(although not all of them) and i plan to upload all the pdfs to the internet, most probably to my dropbox acc.. maybe later.. after this post..

so in this post, i plan to do the same, recall my life when i was 18, and up till today that i am turning 28 in just weeks. in exactly 3 more weeks now that i checked the date.. hehe..

so 10 years ago i was 18, what happened to me?

i was in KMS, my 1st year in KMS.. the date i registered as a student in KMS was somewhere in July if i'm not mistaken..
before that i went to KMPk(Kolej Matrikulasi perak) which i was there for only about a month..
i made friends with many Chinese lads, who were mostly from Perak.. i learned mandarin, and i was quite good at it(so i was told).. i had many Chinese friends than Malays, no Indian as far as i could remember.. and i came up with a chinese/english name for, stephen it was, if im not mistaken..
hahaha i know i was so poyo right.. when i was talking to a new friend, i would introduce myself as stephen..

hahaha now that i think of it, i feel so poyo, but i dont regret it.. its part of my life journey kan..

before i left kmpk, i had a number of frens who were so fond of me, and i had this book, in which they would write their names, address, biodata and some ucapan, promises that we'd stay frends forever.. bla bla bla.. something like that..

i came across that book a few months back(if im not mistaken) and it made me smile, thinking of how naive we were.. so kanak2 kan..

now i already dont know where the book is.. haha and of cos da tak ingat da the names of them boys whom i made frens with..

ok banyak lak kisah pasal kmpk.. padahal banyak lagi benda nak citer ni..

owh i shouldve said this earlier. beware people for this post is gonna be so effing looooooooong...
well i plan to write as long and as many as i can remember..

ok next..

before masuk kmpk i worked at shangrila hotel, before dapat results spm.. kerja sebagai part time banquet waiter..
shangrila KL was not the first hotel that i worked at, the first hotel was hotel hilton KL, dekat2 dgn mandarin oriental, dekat bukit bintang area, not really sure actually, for i am not really good with jalan2 kat KL tu..
then the hotel changed name to hotel mutiara, then Concorde, if im not mistaken..

the first time i ever worked there, i followed my friend amirul hakim, who was also my classmate in middle school(F1 - F3), that was before i went to mrsm jasin.

i still remember we clocked in at 9am, and there was this big event thats happening at night and we plan to work until 11pm that night..
at 11am, when we were setting up the tables for that day's luncheon event, i was already tired and merungut "baru pukol 11??"
and he gave me an advise which to me is very useful and one that i had adhered to all my life, up till now that is..
when i whined like that, he said "kau buat je keje tu, jangan fikir, kau kosongkan otak kau, kau buat dek, kau gerak kan tangan kaki, cucuk pin tu kat kain tu satu satu, and before you know it, its lunch time.. then its time for coffee break, then dinner, then balik.. just do it, dont think"

so thats what i did, walaupun apa yg amirul hakim tu cakap sangat simple, dan very plain, tapi i am honestly grateful for having that with me, had helped a lot in my life, whenever aku berhadapan dgn sesuatu yg tak best, atau bosan atau sedih.. just hang on, and just farking do it.. before you know it, it will be over.. and you'll get the reward afterwards..

so nak dijadikan cerita, kerja aku pada hari tu tak habis at 11 pm as what we had planned, we continued working sampai pukol 5 pm the next day, and for that event, i got paid around rm300++ if im not mistaken..
kalau dulu kena kerja lebih 30 jam nak dapat rm300, sekarang sehari kerja dok goyang telor kat office pon boleh dapat rm300.. huhu..

homai, aku baru cerita pasal 2 benda jer.. x masuk lagi citer kat kms ni..

in my last blog post about this reminiscing thingy, which i mentioned above, i didnt describe fully of my experiences in kms, i just wrote down in bullet points.. but i dont want to just bullet point them all.. i want to cerita each and everyone of them..
yes bish this entry si gonna be so damn long..

ok lepas kmpk, aku pon dapat la offer untuk buat preparation A level kat kms before fly ke NZ..

kat kms aku xda la kesorangan.. my good friend yazri yaakob aka wong.. my bestfren in msrsm jasin..
and there was odie and sola whom i was close with when in mrsm jasin.. there were others la jugak.. ada acap poh(ashraf azmi) pastu ada syamim( maharajadewa capub jasin)..

masa mula2 masuk kms aku xda apa2 kisah sangat la nak cerita.. except masa mula2 tu aku tak suka betul dgn matyer.. nama penuh dia mohd hekmatyer fahmin bin hasan fahmin.. dia budak ex mrsm berseri, which was the best among mrsm for spm 2004,. so i had this presumption that he was berlagak.. and he was from kelantan some more.. back in those days i had a bad impression on kelantan people.. hehe.. i think most of us have had that bad impression on kelantanese before, at least at one point in our lives..

why i disliked this kid? pasal dia cam suka condemn aku.. or mungkin aku je yg perasan kot.. pastu dia cam pandai, which made me envy him even more.. and he was good in volleyball.. damn that was the real thing that made me dislike him..
hahahaha.. so fani la my younger self.. pasal tu orang tu tere dan pandai aku nak tak suka dia lak..

but now we are good, matyer and I are good, i think.. we dont talk anymore.. we're still friends on fb but we dont talk anymore.. nothing to talk about i guess..

masa kat kms jugak aku da start active tulis blog kat friendster.. i would write about the randomest thing.. about my fly trip pergi hisap shisha, shisha nyer dapur tu jatuh berderai.. pastu pasal kisah main snooker dgn nizam, matyer, boy, mon, miji.. pastu pasal kisah cinta monyet kanak2.. pasal kisah stress aku (aku pon xtau kenapa aku stress sgt time ni)

mungkin perkara biasa la tu budak nak membesar, nak rasa stress, nak memberontak la itu lah ini lah.. tah per2 je kan.. xpe la, its part and parcel of growing up.. we dont just get born and know stuff.. we learn and some had to learn the hard way.. maybe i was one of them... oops digressed.

i had this one friend, a girl, who read my blog, i mean used to read my blog on frenster.. i know because she would leave comments.. nama dia aidzeera.. and yes we went to NZ together, she took EE but i think she didnt finish.. then we lost contact.. but i heard from people that she changed her field of study from EE Engineering to Law(so random, right)
and she was living with her bf in NZ, went to grape orchard and went wine tasting with her bf, then she got into a fight with her frens coz she'd borrow their money but never pay them back.. hmm.. sampai situ je kisah hidup aidzeera yg aku tahu..

my point here is, i had high expectation for her because she was brilliant, very good and fluent english.. but from stories of her that i heard, she might have not ended up so well... well then again, who am i to judge?? entah2 dia lagi berjaya dan bahagia dgn hidup dia sekarang..
i shouldnve judged.. i wish we had remained in contact but we didnt.. i dont know how did it get to this.. well maybe thats normal.. we cannot keep all of our friends forever.. over time, people just drift apart and thats normal..
like i said, its part and parcel of life..

in kms i had great teachers.. i had mr selva who taught us english.. hes a short indian guy in his late 50s when he taught us, that means he must be in his late 60s now.. he would always ask questions to make us think, on current issues, and sometimes on sensitive issues involving races and religions.. i
dont hate him for that.. i enjoyed having deep and fruitful conversations with him on these topics, although i was not so very well knowledged when it came to agama, but atleast the talks which we had with him, made us think.. and thinking is not a bad thing, right? yg penting kena sentiasa ada panduan yg betul, dan berasaskan ajaran islam, alquran dan sunnah.. cewah..

then i had Pn Khairiah who taught us chemistry option paper.. option paper which was paper6 of A level chemistry, she is the only teacher from kms that i still keep in touch with.. boleh kata stiap kali raya i would go visit her at kajang with odie, zarik dan lain2.. she still knows me, im touched..

i like her way of teaching, yg sgt specific dan point oriented.. she taught us how to read between the lines, to identify the important points in long text passages, which were so boring and daunting.. so for that teacher, i thank you..

ok i dont feel like talking more about teachers, nak cakap pasal benda random yg lain.. kat koop kms dulu ada jual nasi lemak yg sedap dan dadih yg best gila.. dadih sejuk yg susu dia perisa susu dutch lady tu.. harga dia rm1, or rm1.50 kalau x silap.. aku selalu gak la beli dadih dan nasi lemak koop tu..
pastu memalam ada orang jual berger kat sebelah DS, pon kesukaan aku gak tu..

kalau fly salu pergi makan kat foodcourt kat ampangan, kena jalan past penghulu cantik, pastu lepas pacific mall.. pastu baru sampai ampangan.. makanan paling femes kat situ adalah rtkd.. roti telur kentang daging.. owh leleh air liur bila teringat balik.. combination sos dan mayonaise dgn rtkd tu adalah terbaik.. sekarang xtau la ada lagi ke tak.. huhu.. kenangan sungguh..

ok nak cakap pasal benda lain pulak..
dulu kalau kat kms, keluar dating pergi la terminal one atau seremban parade, makan anw kat depan seremban parade.. aku rasa anw tu dah tutup dah kot.. i read it in the news not so long ago..

kat kms, petang2 aku salu main volleyball with my boys..
antara pemain volleyball tegar kat kms adalah aku, erwan, zhariq, saser(faizal hama), dalino, adam medic(skandal zhariq), bakhit bahot, matyer, david danding, senior pisang, senior putih terengganu(x ingat nama)
pastu ada jiji(dia suka kat senior putih tganu tu).. pastu kadang2 ada capek(skendal dalino), capoh, odie and syamim pon ada, boleh tahan ramai jugak la budak turun main volleyball.. cukup la 2 3 team kadang2 tu.. tapi sorry la aku da x ingat sangat semua orang..

sometimes main bola kat padang depan kms, yg kami panggil old trafford..its not a football field pon..

its like a moderate sized lawn, maybe around 25-30 meters in width and 60-70 meters in length, or maybe less.. so kat situ la main bola petang2..

time main bola ni aku salu dituduh bermain secara kasar.. haha.. maybe aku mmg main kasar, sebab aku kaki bangku kot.. so aku main redah je lah orang kan.. aku pulak mmg badan jenis besar kan.. rangka besar so bila tolak orang main bola tu tentu2 lah budak lain tu akan tewas.. haha..
ada satu hari tu aku gadoh ngn matyer pasal bola ni la.. i dont remember how it went, dia nak sepak bola, pastu aku masukkan kaki aku in between, so dia gi sepak my kaki instead, kitorang pakai boots so aku takda la sakit pon kena sepak, tapi dia nyer kaki tu mungkin terpeleot  ke apa ke so dia sakit and he called me names, to which i didnt respond and i just left there..
that night he came to my room and apologized.. and aku as the bigger person(literally bigger) accepted his apology and moved on

alamak aku ada kerja nak kena buat sekarang ni.. so untuk itu, post ini akan di gantung di sini dan akan di sambung bila aku habis kerja petang ni.. or esok pagi.. depends.. lantak la ni blog aku sukati aku la bila nak sambung..
tapi aku mmg ada byk gila lagi citer nak membebel kat sini ni.. kau tunggu kau.. siap la kau... haha

meh sini layan lagu hasnol sambil melayan perasaan.. lagu wajib karoke aku n odie.. kononnyer..
lagu yg aku layan sambil menaip blog post ni.. kasi feeling2 old times gitu..

kbye..later~~

puasa time already.. huh so fast la..

Salam semua..

pejam celik je kita da berada dalam bulan ramadhan dah.. tahun 1436H.. if im not mistaken la.. hehe.. atau dalam kalender masihi tahun 2015..

its the second day of fasting here in Malaysia.. jam baru menunjukkan 0851H.. masih panjang jer perjalanan puasa kita pada harini..

ok seperti biasa la.. aku da lama x memblog jadi banyak la cerita nak share kat sini kan..
tp actually semangat aku nak memblog harini mcm samar2 je sebenarnyer.. boring jer..

1. Bulan puasa dan niat ibadah tahun ni

aku pun x sure nak tulis apa sebenanrnye tapi tadi dapat satu msg dalam group whatsapp, ada org ni kasi gambar meme berkaitan puasa dan tetiba terlintas lak nak membebel kat sini pasal gambar tu..

ntah la taktau la this time around aku rasa cam fake je gambar ni.. mungkin aku terlalu negatif.. tapi aku cuma rasa je.. xda pon aku buat kecoh ke apa..
perasaan agak berkecamuk yer sebab aku cam xtau caner nak explain apa yg aku rasakan ni.. huhu..

oh speaking of niat untuk bulan ni.. ofcoz la nak puasa penuh.. dan insyaallah dgn izin Allah aku nak buat teraweh penuh gak.. tp tu mungkin agak sukar berikutan aku kena pegi sarawak ahad ni untuk job di miri

2. Naik platfor Perisai pacific 101 kat Sarawak

oh ahad ni aku dgn nikman akan ke sarawak untuk buat PM servicing job untuk system Fire and Gas Detection.

aku takda pon pengalaman atau knowledge banyak dalam system ni.. and neither does nikman..
kita lenjan je la.. buat je apa yg tahu dan yg penting kita konfiden sajork.. haha..

haha taktau nak borak apa da.. next~~

3. Tak jadi pergi UK dan x jadi pergi Korea

i have mixed feelings about this actually.. about the UK part, yes i was pissed at a certain someone who suddenly decided to send someone else instead of me.. tapi aku tahu its no use to dwell it in.. whats past is past.. lagipun nnt akan ada opportunity lain kan.. insyallah

about this korea thingy, we had a meeting haritu dgn bos besar Abang D and tetiba lak ada 2 orang lain yg willing to go to Korea, bila Mr Dang cakap boleh balik seminggu before raya.. sebelum ni xda pon nak volunteer.. tetiba aritu kata "I can go to Korea bla bla bla"
such a suck up ass nyer budak.. whats the word eh untuk pengampu ni?? suck up la kan? ke kiss ass? ntah la.. yg penting maksud nyer sampai..

well thats that.. so aku xyah kena gi kora before raya.. tapi after raya mungkin kena pergi.. tp mungkin x jugak.. sumer depend on abe lie.. sekarang dia kat korea dan akan balik 26 june.. ikut planning nnt 25 july dia kena pergi balik korea dgn nikman.. aku sebagai back up dia je, in case kalau dia xnak pergi..

aku mixed feelings sbb aku nak pergi jugak sbb nak duit banyak.. kalau pergi ni boleh dapat dalam rm30k gak kot more or less.. banyak tu bai.. aku da la nak pakai duit banyak sbb nak masuk rumah bagai..

tp aku nyer bini xnak aku pergi lelama sbb dia kata die xleh ditinggalkan lelama.. haih.. like i said la.. mixed feelings..
moga semua dipermudahkan Allah..

all in all, I am happy that i get to celebrate ramadhan and syawal here in malaysia with family..

ok next..

4. I'm about to be a father

huhu.. the reality still feels so surreal.. my wife is pregnant.. dia mengalami rasa x sedap perut, loya2 dan demam2.. so kita pon pergi la klinik pastu doktor tu suruh buat UPT(Urine Pregnancy Test) and keluar la 2 line menunjukkan hadirnya ECG dalam her pee..
hehehe.. walaupon aku xtau apa tu ECG, aku dgr Doktor tu cakap camtu..

Ya Allah seronoknyer rasa.. doa kami da termakbul.. sekarang baru 1st trimester so kena jaga elok2.. makan benda2 yg elok.. ni da puasa x sure la boleh puasa ke tak..
aku cakap kalau boleh tahan, puasa la.. kalau x tahan jgn paksa diri.. kalau memudaratkan dibenarkan untuk tidak puasa..

nnt next weekend ada appointment dgn Dr tu sbb nak scan bagai.. by that time aku da balik dari Sarawak insyaallah.. hehe..

Dalam app "the bump" yg my wife download tu dia cakap pada time ni size baby tu baru besar poppyseed.. comel kan..

ikut apps tu jugak, my wife is due in late february or early march next year.. doa2kan yer..

bila fikir2 balik mmg amazing kan caner semua ni berlaku, process procreation ni.. if this isnt proof enough of God's power, I dont know what is..

I am so grateful.. and bersyukur ke hadrat Ilahi.. tu yg niat nak taraweh penuh tu.. hehe.. bukan bernaza.. tapi rasa cam sangat bersyukur yg mmg ikhlas aku nak buat lillahitaala.. lagipun bukan susah pon.. dan insyaallah nnt terbuka hati untuk ibadah2 yg lain pula.. sama2 la kita doa..

owh now baru teringat.. my wife and i already bought flight tix nak ke paris bulan 1 tahun depan.. haaa.. xtau la boleh pergi ke tak ni sbb da pregnant.. aritu masa beli x pregnant lagi.. huhu.. worst case scnenario is terpaksa burn je la ticket tu.. nak buat caner kan.. kesihatan dan keselamatan lagi penting daripada bersuka ria..
insyallah ada rezeki lebih nnt boleh pergi..

haaa da xtau nak membebel pasal apa da ni.. dan perot pon rasa da memulas2.. rasa nak ke jamban dulu yer anak2..
sehingga bertemu di lain masa..
daaa~~~