nak meroyan jap la.. nak release stress

point entry ni adalah untuk aku meroyan sbb dalam kepala aku ni skrg tgh berat dgn benda2 yg sgt stressful berkaitan kerja.. btw, today is friday 15/1/16

1- commissioning yg dah x nampak masa depan

2- client nak buat endurance test selama 48 jam, dalam SAT procedure 24 jam je.

-3 Client ada dua team, project dgn operation. Untuk start commissioning kena dapatkan ptw dari cpoc operation

4- cpoc operation mintak provide cert Ready For Commissioning (RFC)

5- RFC pending cpoc project sign

6- cpoc project xda representative kat mdlq, sbb dia pergi mdb ada keje kat sana. si sekson siam tu

7- earliest boleh dpt rfc is this evening, and hopefully no issue, boleh dpt ptw and start commissioning esok 16/1/16

8- after commissioning is endurance test yg ambil masa 48 jam, so kalau start tomorrow evening, maksudnya petang 18/1/16 baru akan habis endurance test, assuming xda link putus or whatever

9- nak buat endurance test tu kena ada power 230ac continuous on both sides. Side aku mdpp xda masalah sbb mmg platform ada power 24/7

10- masalah kat platform remote sbb derang xda power continuous.

11- aku dah highlight ke orang2 kat MTA, kalau derang x prepare power utk buat test tu, itu masalah kau derang, bukan masalah aku

12- walaupun begitu, nnt akan jadi masalah aku jugak

13- mmg dah resmi keje ni macam ni.. orang lain buat taik kita jugak kena bersihkan

14- tadi Guna cakap derang nak demob on 17/1/16.. so camner nak buat 48 jam endurance test kalau mcm tu

15- jadi kesimpulan nyer mmg x nampak masa depan nak buat endurance test ni

16- aku seriusly dah givap dan aku cam like whatever la kau.. kalau x dpt buat kali ni, nnt next mob buat la.. lagipun mcm byk je lagi issue..

17- pastu ada issue cable cat5e ni pulak..

18- cpoc dah specified dalam specs derang nak cat6, kenapa la pulak pergi beli cat5e

19- mazlizan, engineer SK yg handle benda ni, attend FAT ape sumer, dah tahu dah pasal cable ni, tapi xda highlight or takda action, sampai la cable tu di installed at platform

20- sekarang cpoc suruh tukar cable, pastu retest balik.. meaning that yg sebelom ni pasang, test semua adalah sia sia..

21- aku risau disebabkan cable cat5e ni, nnt cpoc project refuse untuk sign rfc, dan menyebabkan kerja2 commissioning aku terbengkalai.

22- nak kena tunggu cable tu sebulan lebih baru sampai, pastu nak kena pasang balik, test bagai..

23- yang si Ong ni pun, dia yg install kat offshore bulan 11 lepas, tapi tak pernah nak highlight, sekarang bila da jadi issue, dia nak aku sorang2 settlekan

24- team sapura yg kat mta pun bila kita minta tolong langsung takda respons. dalam email cc je boss semua tapi sama je takda hasil

25- memang la scope telecom ni dianaktirikan

26- bengang pulak dengan team cpoc project ni

27- si hazlin tu dah agree nak sign rfc tapi sekarang dia dah blah

28- yg ganti dia encik siam sekson ni asyik xda kat mdlq, dia asyik ke mdb, skrg xda orang nak sign aku punya rfc

29- lepas ni nak check barang2 cctv pulak dan clear checksheet

30- mazlizan ni prepare checksheet pun consider la jugak benda tu boleh lepas ke x boleh lepas

31- yg nak menjawab nyer aku sebab aku yg conduct inspection dgn cpoc

32- kalau kau nyer checksheet mintak benda yg bukan2, mcm mana aku nak provide

33- mintak neoprene sheet dari team MTA utk punchlist clearance, tapi tak hantar ke sini pon

34- derang anta sorang scaffolder sbb electrical tech yg ada kat sini x berani nak naik tower

35- sekarang ni scaffolder xda keje dok goyang kaki sbb xda material nak buat punchlist clearance

36- cpoc operation pun sorang2 perangai astaghfirullah

37- aku suruh kau witness je, dan tulis remarks dalam checksheet, bukan suruh kau accept

38- yg akan final accept is mr sekson, tapi dia sekarang ni kat mdp

39- this is unnecessary delay. kalau hazlin dah sign haritu, sure dah complete dah commissioning aku

40- pastu cpoc ni nak mintak bandwidth priority pulak.. sedangkan itu kena buat thru router dia by cpoc it.

41- aku dah highlight dalam email, dan skrg tunggu cpoc IT yg confirm. should be no problem pasal derang boleh setting remotely from KL

42- communication dgn redang pun sangat hopeless.

43- internet kau selalu down, lepas tu bila call semua orang xda dalam office

44- aku simply dah give up

45- nak balik

*emoticon nangis airmata jurai2

benda remeh temeh tak payah la nak di bother sangat

salam yalls,

semalam aku MC, xda la sakit pon, tapi doktor tu assume aku stress.. maybe dia boleh nampak aku stress.. aku agak stress.. takda pon perkara yg meruncing untuk aku stresskan.. tapi ada la beberapa benda kecik yg bikin aku stress.. so kat sini aku nak listkan benda2 kecik yg tak penting pon tapi bila banyak sgt buat aku sakit hati dan STRESS

1. aku stress pasal keje dan aku xnak pegi laut

2. aku stress sbb muka aku gatal2 dan selalu luka sebab aku garu

3. aku stress sbb cream yg clinic bagi tu aku tertinggal kat johor dalam kereta wife,

4. aku stress sbb aku sepatutnya masukkan sendiri krim tu dalam beg dan bukan mintak orang lain tolong masukkan

5. aku stress sbb line Umobile selalu hilang2 sekarang, dan slow pulak tu

6. aku stress sbb aku ada 4.5 gb lagi data Umobile yg akan expire lagi 2 hari

7. aku stress sbb petang tadi online uber tapi xda pelanggan

8. aku stress sbb aku rasa lonely dan xda kawan. sms pon xda org layan

9. aku stress sbb tadi aku txt my wife tp dia x respon, dia respon bgtau dia nak masuk tido

10. aku stress sbb banyak nyamuk yg da gigit tangan aku dan gatal

11. aku stress sbb aku x boleh nak register credit card maybank aku utk apple wallet

12. aku stress sbb aku bought something from the Appstore impulsively and now i regret it

13. aku stress sbb x dpt apply credit card cimb

14. aku stress sbb org cimb kata aku ada ccris ctos sedangkan aku xda pon miss payment for my car, house or asb loan

15. aku stress sbb bila aku tanya bank negara apa yg aku sangkut tu, dia kata kena dtg bank negara utk buat semakan. apa bangang sangat xboleh check je via phone..

16. aku stress sbb asb nyer dividen rendah, 7.25%.. amount dividen yg dpt is lower than amount loan yg dibayar

17. aku stress sbb xda bajet nak balik johor everyweek

18. aku stress sbb aku rasa x selesa bila ramai orang kat rumah

19. aku stress sbb remote control android box ni mcm da nak habis battery

20. aku stress sbb mouse yg guna control android box ni pon x work properly sbb xda mouse pad

21. aku stress sbb aku nak beli rumah murah/lelong utk disewakan tp x dpt sokongan wife

22. aku stress sbb aku rasa byk benda yg aku nak tp dia x sokong

23. aku stress sbb aku makin gemuk dan xda kesempatan nak eksesais

24. aku stress sbb xda member nak work out

25. aku stress sbb orang2 dalam rumah ni suka menjerit2 pening kepala aku

boleh tahan byk jugak benda yg aku stresskan.. memangla benda2 insignifikan dan bodo2 je.. tapi bila da byk mcm ni aku mmg rasa STRESS!!!

okla nak tido.. nak tengok kaho na pyar hai tp dah xda mood da.. nak tido je..

bila dtg kerajinan, kita post la entry baru

salam people-people,

1. I am so bored at office today. i have completed my work so early. basically today i came to work with no work plan. so i just sit here and surf the internet, and now here i am..

2. the other engineers are at a meeting to discuss punchlist. I was in the meeting but i felt like i wasnt needed so i left.. telecom scope is very minimal. if they need me, they can call me.. wah perangai diva sangat kan

3. the meeting room is so effing cold, thats why i couldnt tahan and go back to my desk

4. harini check demo account trading, untung 15k semalam.. terus rasa semakin tertarik nak join trading with real money

5. my friend wong advised me not to start with real money and need to practise, observe market, financial cycle for 1 year yada yada.. i am sure there are some truth to what he's saying, but i think even waiting a year wont make a significant difference..

6. anyhow i am still not confident to use real money, not that i have any extra money to spare.

7. i went to register as an uber driver yesterday. the session was brief and easy to understand. i plan to start "uber"ing today at 6pm.

8. i also went to see abg Airudin the agency manager for CWA in KL. i think i want to take my exam in March altho the date is not confirmed yet.

9. i really feel demotivated and not happy working here in SK at the moment.. dah xda hati da.. if only i had the luxury of quitting..

10. i have a new phone which i bought from Wong last Sunday, HTC one and the phone is in good condition.. no issue whatsoever.. but it aint an iphone.. so thats that..

11. i want to check at umobile their plan for iphone, i think they have the 0% interest easy payment plan.. sangat menarik

12. tentatively i will be going offshore on 31/12/2015, until 9/1/2016.. and then go back somewhere around February.. I am so not looking forward to it.. sakit je hati ni sbb kena sacrifice byk cuti public holiday.. i hate this..

13. i was talking to my friend Raul who is now at offshore in Terenganu. He also feels the same about working offshore.. We resent it!!

14. back to forex trading, wong share with me about the risks of doing trading for newbies. things like stop hunting and non-transparent broker.. these things make me feel discouraged to use real money for trading.. haih..

15. but knowing myself, i will probably do it if i have the money.. regardless of what others had advised against it.

16. semalam dpt duit claim pergi offshore itu hari, bayar hutang itu ini, bayar credit card, sekarang tinggal rm600 je.. sedih nyer

17. tadi layan instagram kat fon pakai earphone pastu ada boss besar kat belakang incik Sivakumar.. not sure if he saw what i was looking at, aku pon terus la tutup fon bukak email.. wayang drama swasta la..

18. but honestly if he had seen what i was doing pon aku cam whatever la kau.. aku dah xda hati nak keje sini.. aku nak berhenti paham? xyah la aku nak pegi offshore tu..

19. borak2 lagi dgn wong dia beriya2 advise aku untuk tidak buat trading guna duit betul2.. im not saying what he said wasnt true.. cuma aku mmg jenis yg prefer utk experience sendiri and not decide based solely on others opinion

20. he also mentioned about ASN, which i am not familiar with.. aku rasa macam Unit Trust je.. speaking of which, i cant wait until i become a certified agent..

21. this weekend ada bazar lepak #villagepeople anjuran @faizdickievp.. i feel like going.. but i want to do uber this weekend.. see how la..

22. balik umah ni aku bercadang untuk update resume, and start cari keje lain.. moga2 dpt keje kat johor.

sampai di sini sahajalah pembebelan aku untuk hari ni.. sehingga di lain masa.. see ya~~

its december already people

hi all,

1. now im at office, no work to do hence melagha tulis blog.

2.  perasaan dan motivasi untuk kerja sangat tiada ye people. i often feel lost, and kinda dont GAF about anything anymore.. there have been times i felt like i just want to quit, stay home and eat cekodok until my perut becomes bloated or something

3. i want to cari kerja at joho because my wife is there, and i just wanna be with her all the time, and with our baby too..

4. i have been considering to quit my job, and become an MRSM teacher in pontian, its about 1 hour drive from our house in pulai jaya.

5. teaching may not be a glamorous job, and it doesnt pay as much as engineering, less increment.. its probably more work compared to my job right now.. but on the pros side, teaching is a mulia job, maybe more mulia than engineer, cause a teacher shares knowledge, shapes the mind of young people.

6. also, during cuti sekolah 1 month i get to cuti as well

7. when i become a permanent teacher, i can opt for skim pencen, and i get to withdraw my kwsp which the money i can use for a second house that i can rent out

8. teaching is less stressful, i think

9. besides that i have also considered to become a full time cwa agent either in KL or JB

10. its come to a point that i feel like i want to quit my current job, and also i am starting to feel like i dont want to continue my contract when the term ends.

11. not sure why but i feel confident about it, and i definitely feel more motivated to do CWA than to be an SK engineer

12. its so funny and weird, it was about 2 or 3 years ago when i was working in KL, i imagined myself working in SK and i thought that i would be a dream for me

13. now that dream has come true but i am starting to resent the whole idea of it. i am not happy with my job and that is true to the core.

14. maybe i need to be more grateful, coz i actually got what i wished for. i got the job that ive always wanted (one of the jobs), i got married, i am going to be a father.. all of these are things i never thought i could get but i did

15. am i not grateful enough for all these blessings? i am though, so so so grateful for my family.. but this job is not one of it.

16. maybe i just need to toughen up and hold on.. things will get easier and better, i guess.. i hope..

17. honestly it isnt really the job. its the combination of the sucky job, the sucky people, and me missing my wife and my life in Johor, everything was so much easier then..

18. maybe this is something i must get thru, and it'll be a part of my lifes journey.. setiap orang lain kan kisah hidup dan struggles mereka.

19. other than that, i also want to start becoming an Uber partner. i plan to go to their meeting/briefing session tomorrow, insyallah if tiada aral melintang. dapat side income sikit2 jadi la.. lagipun i dont do anything at night, duduk rumah tengok tv atau main internet je.. i should do something else yg lebih bermanfaat

20. i have a demo account for trading on plus500. and i think i have been getting better at it.. for the past few weeks the money in my account has doubled. i started with 50k and now i have >100k already.. that is without me playing everyday.. maybe only once a week

21. i think its probably something i can try too but i need capital

22. my friend raul said, he will give me rm500 for me to try.. i told him we'd share the profit but he'd bear the loss.. huhu

23. insyallah if i got extra money i want to start trading with real money

oklah sampai di sini saja update kita.. selamat hari natal dan selamat tahun baru people.
be safe, be grateful, be kind, be positive, spread love
peace~~

i feel lonely and i want to meroyan

boring la ok kat sini.. i feel lonely..
internet slow, but atleast there is internet so i should be grateful..
tapi sangat slow, nak tgk video kat facebook dgn instagram pon x dpt..

i dont really like the people here..
ok thats a blunt statement..
i dont hate them.. i just feel excluded, for some reasons.. they are not so friendly.. the teknisyens are friendly, but i dont quite get it off with other engineers..
its no big deal.. i dont know why i even bother..

i want to go home so bad.. but according to schedule i will only demob on 11/11/15.. thats like 9 days to go..
construction works for telecom scope is completed.. whats left is for cable termination, energize panels and functional testing..
i can already start on the checksheets, in fact tomorrow CPOC Inspector will come on board to witness cable termination.. my vendors will arrive tonight, my vendors meaning budak2 Omega..
Opie, Arul, Apau ngn syazwan.. haha.. kalau x dulu, aku naik kapal ni as a vendor, tp skrg aku contractor..
i hope everything goes as planned.. haa why CPOC OTL still x approve PTW aku ni?? aci x nak cemas dan menggelabah tits??

well lets talk about the people here, more specifically the engineers here..
dont know whats the word in english tapi aku rasa excluded sbb aku x sebulu, x sekepala..
different wavelength? is that what you call it in english??

usually i dont really GAF about this feeling, but it keeps coming back, and i feel rather annoyed, so i thought maybe i should blog about it..
memula tadi nak buat voice recording je, tapi nnt malu lak kalau ada orang dengar aku membebel.. so kita tulis blog je la yer.. nampak intelektual sikit menaip ye dak.. huhu.. kalau buar recording mcm org gila je memekak nnt.. haha..

okla da xda mood nak membebel kat sini..
tadi igt nak chatting ngn kawan2 kat whatsapp tapi semua pon cam busy je.. so malas la nak kacau derang.. aku membebel sesorang je la kat sini.. atleast ada la tempat nak meroyan kan, dan tak menyusahkan orang..

tapi now da boring xda mood, nak tengok citer stephen chow kat tv3.. later~~

mengimbau kenangan lama

salam all,

actually it was last night that i felt strongly to write about this topic, but i was already mengantuk and it was late so i didnt..
i have been stalking people on facebook, looking at their photos and see what they have been up to..
not sure if it was a bad thing, but i felt sorta funny.. coz i dont normally do this stalking thingy..

the people i checked on fb were the people from my sekolah rendah, some of them my friends, some were just people i knew, i doubt that they know me, coz i think, as far as i can remember i never had any conversations with them, maybe a quick hi when we passed by each other, but never really talked, so i assume they dont know me, so thats why i didnt send friends request to them on fb last night, coz lets be honest, we werent friends pun..

well, i think i will talk about one by one of the people whom i stalked yesterday, but before i get to that, i really wonder if other people do what i do.. i think people do, maybe not everybody though, but i am pretty sure that other people also check on the people from their past on facebook.. just for fun u know.. and to see how they fair now, coz things change, as do people..
and maybe u wanna see if you're doing better than them,, haha its not a healthy thing u know to compare yourself to others.. but whatever, its just how humans are, we like to compare, we like to know if we are better or not.. hahaha... i do.. but i think i dont care much if they did better than me.. nor do i care if i did better than them.. its just nice to know..

ok banyak pulak membebel tapi x get to the point pun..

first person on my list was shuhaimi mokhtar
it started when i saw on fb that it was farah najwa mokhtar birthday.. she was my classmates from darjah 1 sampai tingkatan 3.. incredible kan..
but we were not so close pun, it was just coincidence that we were in the same class all those years.
so of course i stalked her too..
not sure if "stalk" is the right word though, i was merely checking her out, not that i do it all the time pun..
so basically shes married with a child now.. graduated from Utem, not sure if shes working now though, it looked like shes not working, stay at home mum.. maybe, thats what it looked like on her fb..
shes wearing tudung labuh now.. which is good.. good for her..

eh terdigress pulak, kan nak cakap pasal shuhaimi..
hes her brother actually..
xtau la nak cakap caner, but i admired him.. hes 2 years older than me.. i first noticed him when i was darjah 4, he was darjah 6 and he was the head student.. if im not mistaken, that year he was the best student.. dia ketua pengawas (head student).. and that one day i saw him talking to a teacher in english and i was just in awe,. hahaha funny kan.. time kecik2, something so simple and maybe silly like that, i can still remember..
sepanjang darjah 4 tu i had utmost respect for shuhaimi mokhtar, its as if he was this perfect person who couldnt do any wrong to me.. i was soooo kanak2 kan.. its funny to think about it now..
it has been years that i didnt hear anything about him.. last i heard was that he continued his study in the US, and that was that.. i lost contact with farah najwa, even more her brother..
so with facebook, it allowed me to find out about shuhaimi now..
so according to facebook, he now has 2 kids, and he married nurliyana khairuddin, penolong ketua pengawas back in school.. i will talk about her later.. coz she too was someone i respected and looked up to..
back to shuhaimi, according to linked in, he is now a project engineer at a local company, but its not a big nor a famous company though.. hes been with the company for 5 years, so i guess hes a senior engineer now..
and from facebook, i found his blog.. which is no longer active.. the last post was on 2008.. and he doesnt write in is blog, he just post pictures..

ok next person i wanna to talk about is his wife, nurliyana khairuddin, she was penolong ketua pengawas, and an extremely clever girl.. i find it so fulfilling that she married shuhaimi though coz they seem perfect for each other..
according to facebook, shes not working anywhere, but i think maybe its because she doesnt update her fb religiously..
shes clever and brilliant, i cant imagine why shed give away her talent and gifts.. but whatever la kan, its her life..

ok moving on to the next person is izyan syaswani khairuddin, and yes shes nurliyana younger sister.. shes the same age with me..
i think i did talk about izyan in my old blog, where i mentioned she was studing medicine in Australia..
so from nurliyana's facebook, i found izyan's page.. so apparently shes married since dec 2011 and currently living in Melbourne with her husband.. from her photos, i didnt see any baby photo.. biasanya orang mesti nak post gambar anak2 kalau ada anak2 kan.. but not with her.. so i assumed that shes still childless, mungkin belum ada rezeki.. and shes wearing tudung labuh as well.. which is something i find so gratifying..
back in school, the kids and even teachers always compared me to izyan, coz the closeness of our names to each other.. and maybe i was the only person who ever beat her in exam.. well, it was not really a win though, its just that in that exam i got 5As(UPSR subjects) and she only got 4As.. but if based on cumulative scores by percentage, hers was like >95% while mine was like somewhere 80% ~ 85%
whatever la, i still take proud in that achievement.. huhu..
not sure where izyan works now though, i think shes a doctor in australia.. very deserving..

ok next person whom i stalked last night was sherhan fariz tan. sedap kan nama dia.. if im not mistaken her dad was a mualaf la.. was or is?? ntah.. whatever la.. so sherhan ni muka china la sbb mmg darah mixed kan..
dia budak lompat pasal dia lepas pts, so hes 1 year younger than me.. back in school he was tiny, and comel, and very kind person..
no photos on his fb though, none that was not private, sames goes to his instagram..
from linked in i found that hes working for PR1MA doing Building information Modelling.. i dont really know what that is though.. and hes married with a child, i think.. based on his tweets..

out of all the people whom i checked on, hes the only one whos more active on social media.. the others are not.. for some reasons they are not as expressive as i thought they would be..or they could be.. coz these people were brilliant people, people whom i admired and looked highly of..
its like, they live their lives quietly and not contributing to the goods of other people.. they can do so much better..

well, maybe they do help people, its just that i dont know about it.. coz maybe they are the kind of people who do not make their good deeds known to public.. bukan jenis orang yg suka menghebah2kan kebaikan derang..
this is me thinking positive of them.. like i should..

i suddenly feel less motivated to continue this post.. it wouldve been more bersemangat and bersungguh2 had i written this post last night.. huhu.. it is what it is.. i still feel good that i write it, atleast i write about it.. and not just let it slip my mind..
coz memory fades u know.. maybe it a few years i will no longer know or remember of this thing..

they are so many other people whom id like to check on facebook and other social media platforms..
maybe i will, in the future, when i feel like it.. and write another blog post about it..

huhu, post yg byk membebel dan cam xda point sangat.. tapi whatever la ni kan blog aku, sukati aku la kan..

kla, nak gi berry, bye~~

Salam, hello and hola to all..

my last post was over 2 months ago, surely heaps of stuffs have happened in my life, i just didnt have the time nor the mood to blog about them.
anyhow i am here to write about it ,altho i really dont feel up to it but whatever..
and also, i want to try writing Tun M style where he would number his sentences so they're easy to track? i guess..

1. Right now i am at offshore, on-board of crew ship Sarku Santubong which is currently in the gulf of thailand.. I am working at CPOC JKB Platform. My scope as telecom engineer is not much, fairly easy and so far there isnt any huge issue that i cannot handle. so far work at offshore for JKB, its all good.

2. I resigned from Omega Integration and now working for Sapura Kencana Petroleum. To be more specific, its Kencana Pinewell S/B a subsidiary of SKP. I started with SKP on 21 September, basically 1 month ago.

3. I came to offshore on 19 October, around 1 week ago and so far so good. Onshore, i work in the office at Solaris Dutamas, a fancy place it is. Work at the office is kinda boring, nothing much to do. mostly check vendor documents and comment. go to meeting with vendor and client. lots of emails for clarifications. joining tender, preparing jobcard and checking MTOs. So basically these are all new things that i didnt do at Omega and i had to learn them. So far so good.. how hard could it be pun kan. At offshore, its easier.. all i do is prepare drawings and permit, tell the team to do this and that, like fabricare support, do midification, do fit up, and get the manpower, like to erect scaffolding, erect habitat and request welder etc.. for now these are the things ive done, and i know there are still loads for me to learn and catch up.. i am not worried nor am i in a rush so i will take it slow, one thing at a time and insyallah i'll be fine.

4. before i came offshore my wife and i went to do the 3d 4d scan and i took a video when the doctor did ultrasound scanning to see the baby.. and although we planned not to find out the gender of the baby, it was obvious coz the baby was terkangkang and we could see its tiny penis.. its a boy ladies and gentlemen.. my little baby boy.. cant wait to see the little guy.. i promise to be the best dad i can be, insyaallah.. other than that, the baby is healthy, the doctor managed to see all the organs, the heart, brain, spine, and the limbs etc.. the baby is healthy and normal, Alhamdulillah for that.

5. ok now i wanna talk about something not so pleasant, it is unpleasant to me, and i feel really annoyed by it. On whatsapp i am in this chat group dedicated for OISB service team, and lately i just feel rather annoyed by this chat group, by their conversation. and yes i ignore them, but its still annoying coz they keep coming back. for now i will try to ignore and not let it bother me, but i think soon i'll just quit the chat group.. i got nothing to lose.. why am i not doing it now? like right away? its because i dont want people to misunderstand,. as long as i can tolerate it, i will.

6. a few nights ago i had a discussion with Raul about ASB, that bitch is rich now coz he goes offshore so often he must have tens of thousands of savings now and i told him to buy a house and get married soon..
ok i digressed.. the topic of discussion at first was about ombak and castle, but then turned into a discussion about asb loan.. he told me asb loan is less profitable compared to if you save monthly on your own.. and we argued and he shared with me his spreadsheet.. one thing he forgot to take into account is that, when you save the money monthly, you still need to deduct the amount you saved coz it is still money out of your pocket. He deducts the amount paid for the loan but he forgot to deduct the amount saved.. well its understandable coz people often misunderstand and dont see the whole thing clearly.. so i just would like to say here, taking the ASB loan is not a loss, it may give the bank whole load more money but on our side, we still gain profits.

7. Ombak and castle. I wanted to talk about this a few nights ago when it mattered.. but now it dont anymore.. its actually easy to get rid of it actually, just dont think about it.. do something else unrelated entirely.. and before u know it, its in the past.. but being realistic, i know that a few nights ago was not the last of the ombak, i will be hearing about it in the future, not sure soon or not but surely it'll come back. and its just something i have to live with.. something i grew up with.. some people may call it a curse, but i dont want to be so negative about it.. i wont call it a curse, it is what it is and id like to think of it as something thats helped me in my life, and taught me to be strong and independent.
oh boy, had it been 10 years ago, i wouldve written a few pages long about it and make a big deal out of it.. i am old, i dont do that anymore..
Ombak and Castle is apart of my life then, now and forever..

8. On facebook, i always wish people on their birthday. Yesterday was the birthday of Chip, or his real name Zulfadli zulkifly, a friend of mine in Auckland, who died last year. I am not sure he died of what, but my point is.. when i saw the fb reminder of his birthday, i wanted to wish him, but then i remember that he's dead. i felt really sad instantaneously.. TBH i was not that close to chip back in Auckland, just normal friends. He was a good person, everybody liked him..
I went to his fb page and saw that his wife still post stuff and tagged him.. like when their daughter turned 1, and the anniversary of this death.. reading her posts made me teary eyed.. i dont know how to describe this feeling.. she loves him..misses him surely.. she's a strong woman.. and he died when she was pregnant with their child.. ohmy i cant hold my air mata anymore.. i ma teriak like a lil girl coz im so sad..

9. ok enough with that crying, lets talk about food and eating. I plan to take my wife and my in laws to eat Seoul Garden at CS when i get back to onshore, maybe take a few days of leave and just chill at home huhu..

10. I miss my wife so much.. no words can say it enough.. haih but thats life, we dont always get what we want kan.. i realize that im not a royal prince or whatever who doesnt have to work for a living, i am a commoner and i have to work.. so thats it..

11. maybe in the future if Allah wills it, i can work for my self, start a small business or something like that.. but knowing me, i dont see that happening anytime soon.. not that i dont like doing business.. but if i were to start a business, i want something that i can grow into, meaning that i dont want to start business kedai runcit or kedai makan coz its not something that you can develop..  Engineering company is maybe a viable options, but there are so many things to consider, to study and to research on.. not to mention, its very risky, especially in todays economy.
i dont want to stress out about it, if its meant to be it will be.

12. my house progress. we had engaged contractors to do reno at our house in Pulai. nothing major, only the kitchen cabinet, cornice and wiring, also the grille for the entire house.. also my wife went to Jakel for the house curtains.. in total, we spent around 25k for these renovations, mostly went to kitchen cabinet RM14k.. mahal gila kan.. pengsan jap.. when i get back onshore i will go check the condition and if its all good, make the final payment. I pray to God that its all good.

13. rumah segambut. before i left for orrshore, i was checking out a house in Segambut. its a flat house, 3 rooms 2 bedrooms i found on mudah.my. the house surrounding was kinda scary to be honest, but the house conditions were not bad. an old chinese lady is currently staying there.. the house is priced at 90k on mudah. if i had the money i wouldve taken the house then and there.. but i didnt.. the money i have now are to pay for the house renovations in JB.. huhu.. gotta be realistic there.. maybe next year i will have the extra money for a new house in KL, Gods willing, insyaallah ada rezeki tu.. rezeki baby mungkin..

14. I have registered maxis fiber at wangsa maju my parents house. haha sangat excited ye people.. i know that its been around since 2012, but only now i get to do that coz before i didnt stay with my parents but now i do. ok lepas ni boleh dah dok melayan movie kat playboxhd tu sampai lebam, layan tv series, layan anime, layan cartoons.. JK, i dont watch cartoons no more huhu.. right now my nephew si aiman tu mesti tgh syok sbb dpt download game2 dia kat ipad tu, dpt tgk movie2 tu semua.. suka la kau.. huhu.. darn it lagi 2 minggu baru aku balik umah.. takpe, sabar separuh iman.. huhu

15. ok saje nak share kisah internet kat atas kapal ni.. i think dia punya bandwidth is 1mbs coz at night when noone is using the internet ( i assume noone la coz when i checked the speed it was 3am in the morning).. 1mbs is not fast, but for emailing and stuff should be fine la.. but i am such a "deal" coz i opened torrent on my phone and download stuff, download antm la, download tbbt, oitnb, modern family.. hahaha segala2 aku download.. walaunpun the average download speed is really slow like 10kbs, i just leave it running and after several hours 1 episode is done downloading.. haha i just cant live without internet, can i? the funny thing is, these people had changed the wifi password coz they though too many people using slows down the internet speed, little did they know the culprit is me, coz my torrent hogs the bandwidth.. hahaha i am evil.. but sometimes i stop the download tho, when the internet is really slow.. like right now.. i just do the download at night..

16. ok susah nak iron rambut kat sini.. i do it in the morning when people are still sleeping and i had to go to surau to do that.. ok gigihkan.. random gila kan update pasal iron rambut.. kbye..

17. ok now kat fb tgh tgk org eksesais dia tunjuk transformasi badan dia dari gempal2 jadi ketul2 dan sado.. damn i feel so sedih about my body.. this reminds of a few weeks ago i during sembahyang jumaat, i met CashRazak who was sitting in front of me in the masjid.. gila bagak tangan dia besar macam kayu balak, he was wearing a tight shirt with kain pelikat. mesti rumah dia dekat2 je dgn mesjid wilayah tu.. on instagram i saw him driving an audi A5, tapi haritu aku x nampak pulak dia naik kereta apa.. xkan la nak follow dia sampai ke kereta pulak kan.. crazy stalker much.. besides, i was with faqihudding haritu naik motor dia gi mesjid sesama.. and we had nasi kukus ayam rempah tepi masjid for lunch, he said dia dgn matyenk always makan sana on Friday..
ohmygod randomnyer cerita aku..

allright, sampai di sini saja la kot.. aku nak ke platform tgk progress of my stuff seeing now the rain has stopped.. till next time.. smell ya later~~