20171221
0919 Thursday
Hola
people.
For some
reasons I am feeling like this week is so panjang.. its as if time is moving
super slow.. and I am not sure why exactly but I feel like I cant wait for the
week to be over, as well as next week to be over so I will be done with this
company.
Leaving this
company without any offer from other company is actually quite terrifying but I
know I have to do this. I know and I am certain that leaving this company is
what I need to do, and it is the right decision for me.
Although it
comes with the scare of not being able to provide for the family due to having no
employment, I believe that its God that provides for us and not this company.. knowing
this it makes me feel more at ease and confident with the decision.. Despite
having the scare once in a while, each time I remind myself of this fact, I will
be at ease.. having faith on Him that things will be fine and good for my
family..
Must I talk
about what is/are the reason(s) that I am no longer able to put out with the
company?
I believe
maybe not.. coz I do not see the benefits of it..
Earlier this
week on Monday I had an interview with another company, an MNC from German who
produces machines for making cigarettes.. I know cigarette is haram for muslim
but I am not sure about working for the company who makes the machine that
makes the cigarettes.. is it haram as well?
I guess I need
to ask alim ulama` about it.. do I have doubt? Yes I do.. so what do I do if I got
the offer? Should I just accept it first? Just because I want to feel secure
having a job, being employed?
It has
always been my principle that if I have doubt about something, I will not do
it.. but the opportunity seems like its too good to pass.. so what I must do
now is to check with the alim ulamak on the hukum hakam..
I actually
paused this post, googled the whatsapp number for tanyalah ustaz tv9 and I sent
them the question.. yet to be answered
Lately while
I was riding my bike I wud be thinking about many things, mostly positive
things, things that can make me smile. I am trying to remember them right now
but I cant seem to.. its so funny..
I remember
this morning on the bike I was thinking about nursajat who is venturing into
property business, which is a good thing.. and I asked myself, if she can do it
why cant i? is it because shes already rich from her other businesses so it is
easier for her to make more money coz she has the capital.. well that is true,
but then I can ask the next question how did her other businesses become
successful? Is she a very smart person? Or is she plain lucky? Or is she the
kind of person who works hard, and discipline with her money & spending? From
what I know she didn’t come from a rich family, so how could she become
successful like today?
I know its
so random that I thought of nursajat, the same could be said about many other
businessman/woman who are successful (just random).. the key to it is working
hard and perseverance..
Why am I talking
about business? Am I planning to do a business?
I no longer
have that plan in mind to be honest. I used to do.. but as time passed, I began
to realize that its not so easy.. and for some reasons I just don’t feel like I
want to go thru the hassle of being busy all the time with the business until I
will have no time for my family.. and life..
For now
what I have in mind is to further my studies.. I hope Its not too late. I am
only 30 years old today.. I think itll be good for me to have a master’s
degree, then insya-allah if God wills it I will further some more to take phd..
I know its not going to be easy but I know for certain that this is a good
thing and Allah will help me and my family thru it all.. I see this as a
similar thing to me getting married, it was a challenge for me and my wife and
we both believed that we were doing a good thing and Alhamdulillah, God made it
easier for us and it went well.. we managed every obstacle one by and one and
here are today, happily married w a comel kid AhnafUkail, who is my whole life
right now.. insyallah, we plan to have more children, but no rush, just trust
that its all in Gods plan..
So why they
sudden desire/want to further study? it was during one night when we had to
sleep in wangsa maju, at my parents house when my degree cert just came from
NZ, one that I had asked for replacement because the original one is lost(I might
have misplaced it somewhere and unable to locate it so I decided to just ask
for a replacement).. and looking at the degree cert which I had earned thru the
hard work of 4 years in a foreign land, being New Zealand, it is something I need
and I can be proud of.. and I know then that I want to have that same thing
again but this time in my own country.. I started googling master degree
programs that are being offered at UITM, UniKL(.. and now I feel even more
confident that I can do it.. insya-allah.. I don’t want to get overconfident
tho.. but I know it is all do-able.. the PHD part is still too far for me to be
thinking for now but I will get there.. I have actually considered a few topics
of field of research that I can actually be doing/interested in doing but I will
not discuss them here coz as I said, it is still too far ahead in the future.. I
will focus with the task at hand for now which is to get my masters degree..
So for now Im
kinda at an intersection, one being to go work for the cigarette making
company, in which if I do, I don’t think I will be able to do my masters degree
as the job requires me to travel most of the time (they have not even offered
me the position yet, but its fun to imagine and plan things in advance), the
other path that I can take is to do grab/uber for now which will give me the
flexibility of time to do my masters degree.. honestly speaking, if I was ever
at the point where I have to choose, I don’t know which one I will take.. I will
have to wait for the answer from the alim ulamak about the hukum of working for
the cigarette making company coz that will be a really be big factor to weigh
in, could be a deal breaker if its actually haram.. (I still need to get 2nd
opinion tho and not just from 1 POV)
Well either
way, I pray for the best.. that is what I should be doing at this point.. always
pray and ask God for the best, and have faith that whatever path that I will
take, it is in God’s plan.. coz He knows whats best for me and my family, and
insyallah no regrets..
Owh I forgot
to mention earlier, when I was contacted by the HR manager of the cigarette
machine company, it was merely 2 or 3 days after I had a discussion w my wife. Celebrating
our 3rd year anniversary, we were having dinner at an Indonesian restaurant,
and the meal I had reminded me of the time when I was in Indonesia w a colleague
on a commissioning job while I was still working for Omega integration. My wife
noticed the change in my facial expression and then asked whats wrong and I told
her that I had missed working like how I used to.. to travel for work, which I did
quite often when I was with Omega.. and its like God’s plan that the company HR
contacted me, that I was presented with this opportunity again..
I know it
sounds like all so good but I really need to be certain about the hokum of
working for the company before accepting any offer (there is no offer yet,
hahaha)
During the
interview the Manager learned that I used to study in NZ and asked, what if
theres an open position in New Zealand and they want to be work there, what do I
say to that?
I was
like.. Girrrrrl, don’t play w me boo… I mean like I will never say no to that
kind of opportunity..
Never in my
life time will I reject that kind of offer.. LOLZ.. that’s exactly how I wished
I had responded to her question but of coz not.. I had to maintain the level of
professionalism answering that question.. I simply said “I would love that”
Owh another
thing that id like to share here.. this is quite an old news but I think its
still a good news..last month in November I sat for the online exam for the PTD
M41, that is Pegawai Tadbir Diplomatik, which is one of the most coveted
positions in the Malaysian Government.. (I feel like I have told this story
somewhere but I cant remember where)
Preparing for
the online exam I actually did research and came across this website timkerjaya
where they actually sell e-books to help us study.. ebooks and notes with the
relevant topics and syllabus for the online exam.. and I didn’t think twice to
but them coz I thought id rather not regret failing the test just because I was
too stingy to spend money on the notes.. the online test was on a Friday, and I
even skipped work that day coz I wanted to finish my studying.. hahaha but I actually
spent most of the day watching breaking bad, and only spent the last few hours
to study..
Well I have
no regrets, yes the notes have been a help but knowing how I work, I know that
even if I had spent the entire day studying, it wud not have made any
difference.. actually I have finished reading the notes the night before, I just
needed some time to do the sample questions so that’s what I did..
And so I studied
hard for the exam, and Alhamdulillah I passed the online test.. so I checked the
internet, the next stage they will call the candidates for an assessment which
includes a physical fitness test, public speaking, working in a group and etc..
but alas up until today I am still waiting for them to call me.. but I will not
lose hope.. I don’t want to get stressed out, if its meant to be it will be..
so lets just chill them titties.. lolzz
Okla I guess
that is long enough for today.. I need to complete this sales quote coz I need
to go to Genting this evening.. huhu.. so till next time.. later~~