Year end, new year, resolutions?

assalamualaikum

kebosanan betul harini.. keje da siap.. xtau nak buat apa now..

so update blog la..

da run proxy kat PC ni so boleh la nak berfacebook..

tapi lately mmg cam da jarang pun main FB..

nak bukak instagram tp takot pulak kantoi nnt org nampak.. da la aku byk je follow orang2 seksi dan suke post gambar2 mengghairahkan.. hehe..

so disebabkan takda keje, aku pun carik keje.. at first I thought of asking other people if theres anything theyd want my help with..

tp then aku cam fikir aah xmau la buat keje orang lain.. baik aku buat keje utk diri sendiri.. *yes I am selfish like that*..

so then I came across this website

https://www.jobdirumah.com/nauzi87

and aku pun join affiliate dan register untuk jadi ahli..

basically kat sini die ada offer kerja2 kerani untuk kita buat dan dapat upah..

nak comment byk2 pun aku rasa cam x boleh sbb aku baru register..

perlukan 3 hari utk go thru bagai.. pastu baru boleh start minta2 keje utk dibuat time waktu lapang.. macam sekarang ni.. kalau x buat time kje pun boleh buat time kat umah..

salu aku balik keje pukol 6.. by 8 aku mmg cam da xda keje kat umah tu.. dok membuang masa kat laman social, ataupun main game je.. so aku rasa tak salah dan tak rugi kalau aku nak cuba buat keje sampingan time ada free time.. lagipun its something I want to do.. not what I have to do..

 

so if by any chance there are people who read my blog, I recommend that you click the link below

https://www.jobdirumah.com/nauzi87

and start making money from home..

ishh cliché nyer ayat.. I am not a good affiliate agent I guess.. sebab aku sndiri tak convinced dgn apa aku cakap.. ni kan pulak nak convince kan orang..

anyhoot, aku rasa xpe kot aku cuba buat benda ni.. selagi ianya tak mendatangkan mudarat kepada aku dan orang lain, I think it should be no problem..

ok enough about iklan.. now I want to talk about other things that are happening in my life..

owh I just finished reading this article about being busy as not a good thing, which yuyu posted on twitter just now..

http://www.tylerwardis.com/busy-isnt-respectable-anymore/

I agree what the author is saying.. but at the same time I feel like I am still at a point in my life where it is okay for me to be busy..

Maybe its because I feel like I am still young and ive got plenty of time to spend on being busy..

People who are more focused in getting more in life, focused more on adding values to life, are usually those who are more aged.. more matured.. maybe even more matured that what they ought to be.. huhu.. am i making sense?

Regardless, I do believe the author has some few good points in why being busy, or choosing to be busy isn’t a good thing.. or in her/his words, isnt a respectable thing..

Go read and give it a thought yourself..

Ok lets move on to the next topic..

Not sure if I have mentioned this but I no longer work in Singapore, praise the LORD!!!

I really disliked going to Singapore everyday where I would have to wake up at 530 am everyday, and catch the bus at 6.30..

Waiting and queuing to get on the bus at custom checkpoints, at JB and Singapore.. its tiring..

I did all that for 6 months.. and it wasn’t by choice.. had I been given the choice to not go to Singapore daily like that, I surely wudve chosen not to.. hmmm my sentence sounds like keling..

 waaah now so racist!!

Anyhow, its been like a week or two that I have stopped going to Singapore.. and I love it.. although there is this thing about me not getting the rm1k extra allowance for going to Singapore.. it is going to affect me financially, i know.. but i believe that i can manage.. i will manage.. hehe..

Furthermore I get to see my fiance everyday at the office so all is good..

Ok lets talk more about work,

January pay was paid earlier, paid to us on 23 January.. and guess how much left with me now? RM800 only..

And I still haven’t paid ASB loan, and the gintell massage chair..

And I just sent my car to service and that’s another RM200..

Omaigod.. I am so bad at managing my finances..

I bought all the unnecessary things..

Beli lilin la, lighter lilin, dulang nak bakar kuih la.. itu ini itu ini.. dah habis da duit aku.. dekat rm200 gak spent on some random and ridiculous things which I don’t need..

And owh, I forgot to mention I bough some more baju and seluar.. which costed me rm286..

Grrr.. spending the money that I don’t have on things that I don’t really need..

No I don’t need them.. I want them!! And I deserve them!!

Wah… justifying to myself, just so I wont feel so sucky and bad about what I’d done..

Theres a reason, or reasons why I feld it was ok for me to have spent so lavishly the past few days..

One is because my company HR had missed out to include my allowance and claim when they made the early payment.. short of RM1150 for that..

And not to mention, its January in a few days and my ASB dividen will be in by then.. I will be rm9k richer by January.. spending few hundreds for self-indulgence should be ok and justified, I guess??

Haaaa I don’t want to talk about finances anymore.. it will always give me headaches.. lets move on to the next item on the list..

Owh yeah, I went for medical check/assessment for petronas and shell the other day.. went there with acap at hosp penawar pasir gudang..

I just called the hosp to ask about the results but they said theyre still on lunch break.. I will call them again later in the evening..

They told me to have that medical checkup so they can send me for BOSIET training..

http://www.ergt.com.au/courses/core-safety/basic-offshore-safety-induction-and-emergency-training-bosiet.aspx

it’s the pre requisite for offshore jobs I guess..

but because its year end and then the new year, with a few clashes with other jobs.. I will only be going for BOSIET training on the 15^th of January..

hmm.. I don’t mind actually.. I can wait.. i have all the time in the world.. *poyo*

like seriously, I am in no rush.. I know sooner or later they will send me offshore.. and I am so okay with that.. I used to be very excited about offshore job before.. but now not anymore.. I just want to keep calm and just get thru with it with grace.. *wah poyo lagi*

hmmm… okla da malas pulak rasanya nak cakap pasal keje..

lets talk about something else..

my phones screen broke again.. hmm… I was at the office and it fell accidentally and it broke.. eff it!!

Pecah yg skrin jd gelap dan x nampak apa2, xleh function apa2.. susah nyer hidup xda phone walaupun hanya untuk 2 hari..

and I sent it for replacement at holiday plaza for rm140.. damn melayang duit aku..

and tanpa aku sedari the screen ada crack baru.. hairline crack, but it still sucks..

crack yg dating dari mana aku tak tahu.. sakit nyer hati ini.. hmm… xpe la kan.. x payah nak stress2 sgt la benda da nak jadi.. sabar je la kan.. lagipun phone aku tu still boleh digunakan kot..

tapi itu membuatkan aku rasa cam nak beli iphone 5s.. rasa nak buang duit yg sangat membuak2.. ditambah dgn berita bahawa farik karim pun baru beli 5s gold.. he txt me just to tell me that.. curse him!!!

Haih.. sakit hati je kan..

Aku mmg nak beli pun.. tp cam byk lagi benda yg aku kena bagi consideration..

Tp xtau la nnt kalau aku tewas dgn godaan iphone 5s aku beli jugak kang dapat rm9k nnt ni.. hehe..

Alaaa… kan nak keje offshore dpt byk kot OT allowance bagai.. sure mampu je kot.. *fingers crossed*

Hmm.. ok nak cakap pasal benda lain pulak..

Nak kasi brief review on the latest movie I watched.. 47 ronin starring the ever famous skinny Keanu reeves..

Ok aku kasi citer tu 3.5 bintang.. the storyline and screenplay is okay.. but I feel like Keanu is too old for the character.. it feels weird.. contrived.. and… ntah la taktau apa perkataan yg betul to describe.. it just didn’t feel right for him to play the part.. tapi jalan cerita die best la.. dan heroin citer tu sangat cantik.. I think shes really beautiful dan sesuai memainkan watak tersebut..

Hmm okla aku cam da malas nak membebel lagi kat sini.. semoga bertemu lagi..

Aku doakan semua orang yg baik2 saja untuk tahun 2014 akan datang ni.. 

*lantakla citer takda kaitan langsung dgn tahun baru*

second last day..

salam.. TGIF!!!!!!!!
13 Dec 2013.. by right its my second last day training in Singapore.. next Monday 16 Dec will be the last day..

today started a lil rough.. nothing bad happened in the morning while i was getting ready for work..
i had to accompany the new HR manager who insisted on being called Madam M to Singapore so I rode with her to work today.
we met at around 7 am and got stuck in a massive traffic jam at Tuas.. which took us more than 1 hr just to cross the mofo bridge..
arrived at Bukit Batok office at 9.25am..
she was supposed to attend this orientation session scheduled at 9.15 so she was 10 minutes late.
Not her fault, and certainly not mine.. we could not have anticipated the massive jam at the bridge..
noone could have..

i am so glad that I wont have to go through the crazy jam like that anymore after this.. seriusly, I am utterly grateful..

and i was alone today.. faqihudin went to KB to deliver something i dont know.. and azwan was late as usual.. i saw him just now, around 10 minutes ago.. he arrived at 11.10am.. and i doubt that he wrote his name in the late comer log book..
i did.. i'd always write my name in the darn book when i'm late.. although i really dont want to.

so i was alone all morning.. had to move some of the beacons and placed them separately according to the places theyre gonna be shipped to.. they are heavy!!! and i had a minor injury whereby the sharp edge of the beacons mounting plate "stabbed" my thigh.. not sure if stab is the right word to use but who cares..
my pants got hole on it.. my concern is when i am to pray for jumaat prayer.. that my "aurat" would be showing.. how to pray like that?

hmm... still have some more beacon sets to be moved.. i am taking a break for a while, also to escape the blardy Sugeng and Erich coz i worry that should they ask to check on the wall mounted speakers which havent been tagged fully, that'd be a disaster.. my hope is that if they cant see me there, they wont ask for it..
after all, todays inspection is only for them to verify category 2 punchlish items which are almost all including drawings.. I suppose..

ok i think that is long enough.. i meant to make it short initially.. but one thing comes after another and i just had to continue typing...

oh my.. cant wait to finish here in Singapore.. will i miss it? naaah probably not..

malaysia tanah airku..

ok thx bye..

cerita cerita.. sikit pasal itu sikit pasal ini..

Assalamualaikum pembaca setia,

x sure la aku da update ke belom untuk bulan november ni.. tapi tak kisah la da ke belom..
sekarang aku rasa cam nak bercerita..

bukan bercerita sangat pun, tapi lebih kepada membuat aduan..

ye kat sini lah aku nak membuat aduan, complain pasal hidup.. pasal aku jenis orang yg lagi suka membebel sorang2 dalam alam maya daripada membebel dpn orang lain, yg belum tentu ada yg sudi mendengar..
ada pun yg mendengat, belum tentu mereka ambil peduli..

untuk mengelakkan kekecewaan bila orang lain x sudi dengar segala complain dan bebelan, aku pilih untuk memblog..
mudah, tak melibatkan sesaper..
hanya aku dan diriku untuk aku sorang..

wah panjang pulak intro..
mmg tgh desperate sangat ni nak bercerita gamaknyer..

nak citer pasal keje.. tapi macam bosan jer..
ok takpe la aku citer sikit..

projek banyu nyer FAT ni cam da siap.. tapi system yang aku involved dengan tu masih ada beberapa punchlist yg belum settle.
masa inspection minggu lepas, aku yg kena handle sorang2..

PIC terlibat encik Wang Zhe ada kat USA, bersama dgn lead engineer Phyo dan Manager Gener..
so pendek kata takda orang yg ada untuk handle the inspection bersama pak Sugeng Sugbagio dan Erich yg sangat cerewet dan banyak songeh..

ada 12 punchlist keseluruhan nyer.. some of them aku tak leh buat sbb melibatkan parts yg ada kat USA, dan juga melibatkan configuration yg aku taktau sebab hanya manufacturur Gai tronics yg tahu..
yg lelain yg aku boleh buat aku da settle kan..
tapi masalahnya pada hari inspection tu, aku takda salinan asal punchlist, yg ada hanyalah salinan yg diperoleh dari encik Vivek Ganesan dari simpanan beliau..
so walaupun aku telah berjaya menutup sebanyak 6 punchlist item tapi pemerikasa Erich dan Sugeng refuse to sign off because i did not have the original list.
and i have no idea where the original punchlist is..
this is so fucked up..

hahaha tapi lantak la.. aku nak ikot nasihat luanlegacy.. "Just Fuck It!!!"

so untuk minggu ni, aku telah buat keputusan untuk menyerahkan tugas untuk menutup the remaining punchlist item ke pasukan assembly supaya mereka yg akan menyiapkan dan mengikat hujung longgar (tie loose ends).. despite so, i will still be here to sort of monitor and supervise.. wah poyo sangat ayat itu..

ok sudah cukup lah mengomel pasal kerja.. mari citer pasal hidup peribadi, atau pun perihal sosial..

kawan2 ajak lepak ke penang bulan 1 ni.. dari 11 ke 14 januari..
so cuti pada 13 jan adalah dijangkakan.. terima kasih Tuhan untuk Annual leave aku sebanyak 5 hari yg aku boleh bawa ke depan.

secara rawak, aku telah mengajak encik matyer untuk menyertai aktiviti lepak jalan makan ke Penang..
dan jawapan dari budak tu sangat menyakitkan hati..

walaupun pada hakikat nyer aku tidak punya hak untuk sakit hati atau tersinggung.
atau mungkin aku punya hati yg terlalu sensitif?

atau dia yg heartless? or inconsiderate..?

well anyhow, i dont want to dwell in it.
i hope that he will be available on the said dates.
its been 3 years since i last saw him.. menyombong tak tentu pasal..
well, mungkin ada 'pasal' dier menyombong, aku je yg tak tahu.. so tak harus aku menilai dier terlalu awal.

ok cerita selingan, di hadapan ku ada cik Thiyagu yg duduk bersimpuh untuk memberi ruang dier menyescrew cabinet.. saksikan gambar di bawah

haha Homaigod!! I am so bad.. pasti aku akan disaman encik Thiyagu kalau dier ketahuan akan gambar simpuhan ini..

oh speaking of sueing.. ive been watching the series Suits.. all 3 seasons.. semangat kan aku ini..
that series really is addictive.. for days, its all i had in mind.. balik umah igt nak tgk suits jer.. best woo

ok digressed..

hmm.. apa lagi yg boleh aku citer kat sini eh..
owh da igt.. kisah aku menjadi bodoh dan pilih untuk terus menjadi bodoh..

bukan diperbodoh, tapi sengaja buat benda bodoh.. kerana bila benda bodoh itu membuahkan hasil, walaupun hanya sekelumit dan sebesar kuman hasil nyer..
the joy it brings is overwhelming.. to the extend where all the stupidity involved prior to the yield would be justified..

sungguh rumit akan keadaan yg aku berada sekarang..
well, sekarang aku tak mahu lagi menjadi bodoh.. aku rasa aku perlu untuk berhenti memperbodoh diri dan move on.

sekali sekala terlibat dalam perkara bodoh macam ni perlu jugak aku kira, untuk memberi peringatan kepada aku.. bahawa bodoh itu bukan indah..
lagipun as the saying goes, kalau kita tak buat benda bodoh harini, we wouldnt have anything funny to laugh about tomorrow..

owh ada lagi kisah..
kisah di mana kawan2 lama GB aku ada buat reunion pegi karaoke tapi tidak mengajak aku.. tau pon sbb nampak gambar kat FB..
sedih jugak rasanya..

yes i know im here in JB and theyre at KL, but it wudve been nice to hv been asked kan..
takper la yuols.. kita sabar je la..
as usual, benda sedih tak perlu difikir terlalu lama.. mungkin ada hikmah aku tak join mereka.. God knows best kan katanya.. bak kata meme ni..

owh speaking of which jugak, even my friends kat JB ni pun nowdays kalau beraktiviti salu x ngajak aku da..

ye mungkin aku tak dapat nak join sbb aku ada hal, tapi the thought to ask/invite me is what counts..

aritu gi tgk wyg x ajak..
gi kenduri akak anis sukito kawen pon x ajak..
gi swimming pon x ajak aku..

huuuu sedih nyer rasa..

tapi xpe2..
mungkin juga ada hikmah di sebalik keadaan tahi ini..(shitty situation)
kena byk sabar..
lagipun there is always next time kan..
and also, need it not be reminded that only Allah is where we should rely to never be let down..

haaaa... okla tu.. post ni sangat meriah dgn gambar2..
harapan aku pembaca setia dapat mengambil iktibar dan hiburan ketika bosan buat keje kat ofis tu kan..
aku tgh bosan sbb xda keje so aku memblog..
juga kerana aku nak buat aduan hidup.. yg mungkin takdak orang ambil peduli.. tapi aku sndiri pun tak peduli..

sehingga di lain masa..

kthxbye

i shouldnt fly so high

they say we shouldnt fly so high, the higher we fly the harder the fall..
i was in cloud nine.. maybe i still am..
i am very happy at the moment.. and because of that i have started imagining how wonderful my life could be.. how much happiness i would be in..

but suddenly i was faced with the hard cold truth, that all the wonderful things that ive been imaginng might not materialize after all..
and the possibility of that davastates me..
i feel so weak and so helpless..
i was so much better of when i didnt have anything to hope for.. when i didnt have anything to lose..
and although it all only exist in my head, the thought of losing them is unbearable, altho technically i havent even gotten them all yet..

oh God, was i wrong to have had high hopes and dreams that things would be better for me?
was i wrong to have believed that all these wonderful things could actually happen to me?
was i not supposed to hope at all?
despite my best effort to not hope, i still do.. deep inside my heart I still hope that itll all come true eventually..

not only that, i think its wise for me to have also prepared myself in case that it all go down the drain, by believing that everything happens for a reason.. and now matter how shitty it might be for me, i would believe that they are whats best for everyone.. and even if that means i would be suffering, so be it just as long as the people i love are happy..

sabar, pasrah dan redha.. kalau balasan nye bukan di dunia, di akhirat nnt pasti akan tiba..

fucked thats what i am

i cant sleep

now im in a trouble.. and i feel fucked..
nobody can/want to help me.. i am fucked..
i shouldntve trusted anyone but me.. i am fucked..

Oh God, the tests you have given me, they aint getting any easier, are they?

damn i cant sleep.. my head spinning..

Astaghfirullah.. Kau sorang je yg boleh tolong aku ya Allah..

fikiran kacau

salam..

fikiran kacau.. terlalu banyak sampah remehtemeh yg bermain dalam kotak fikir..
fikiran kacau..

perut kenyang alhamdulillah.. dari santapan kue teow goreng bersama pak jufri di restoran skrin besar sebelah rumah..

byk masalah ke? xda masalah pun.. kecuali risau akan kereta di bengkel yg kian hari masih belum siap dibikin tukang..

sayang i miss you.. why are doing this to me?

when i said my fikiran kacau, you should make me feel better, not do this.. this is not making it better.. maybe you dont care about me as much as i care about you..

aaahh.. makin fikir makin kusut.. mungkin aku hanya perlu tidur dan lupakan..

apa yg mengusutkan?
adakah perkara sama akibat kurang perasaan bersyukur? atau mungkin akibat cemburu dgn kejayaan org lain

ada gangguan di tempat kerja.. oh mungkin juga ini bikin kepala pusing..

rindukan kehidupan bersahaja ketika zaman belajar.. tp harus bersabar dan kenangkan manis2 saja..

punya kemahuan pelbagai tapi kemapuan yg terbatas.. aaahhh... ini semua duniawi..

i did want hell lot more than this.. but now what happened?
it aint so bad neither, no?

bangla beramai2 duduk satu rumah keje kontrak kat sini, banding kehidupan selesa aku dgn segala kelengkapan untuk hidup.. bersyukurlah wahai diri..

but wanting more doesnt me im not being grateful, no?

dayum, my head so messed up.. messed up because of something silly..

aahhh sudah lah!!
goodnight world~~
sayang, i'll see you in my dream.. love you..

i miss you so much..

oh my its almost october already..

salam..

now its 30th of september.. its payday.. hooray!!

although there is nothing much for me to hooray for..
i made a budget of where my gaji of september will go to.. and i found that whats left for me to hooray for is only ~~rm150..

ok feel like crying now..

haaa... nah.. its okay.. only for this month.. the coming months things will get better.. that i know for sure.. i think?

hmmm... well now what is it that i wanted to talk about..
there are a few, i suppose.. so in order to help me organize my thoughts, i will make a list of the things that i want to ramble about in this entry..

ok lets see whats first on the list..

1. work is life

 hmmm... ok i admit that its a bit silly that the first thing on this list is work..
thats what my first impression was.. why does it have to be about work..??

well, it is not really about my work as an engineer that i want to highlight here..
the main thing that i would like to bring up in this entry is how we as the people of the mass, the ordinary public, cant really get away from talking nor thinking about work..

a lil bit about the project i am currently working on..

its called Banyu Urip, consists of wellpad, CPF and IF area. the site is located in Jawa Island, 10 hours drive from Jakarta.. now the project is in the FAT stage.. so until the middle of October, the client which is Tripatra-Samsung will be with us to witness the FAT for all the systems.. i am grateful to be apart of this FAT because i get learn about many things as well as establish connections..

ok i think thats enough about my work..  lets go back to my main point..

work is inevitable.. everybody has to work.. some lucky few get to do their dream job.. well yeah good for them.. but not everyone is as lucky..

i may not be one of them.. engineer is not my dream job.. but i am grateful with what i have now.. for it pays the bill and allows me to live quite a comfortable life.. so Alhamdulillah..

my dream job is to be a TV Host, or a travel journalist..
hahaha ok rasa seperti sangat poyo!!

sekadar hiasan

hmm.. i think i have come to terms with my life now.. and i really dont feel the need nor the passion to pursue the said dream job..
simply said, i have other priorities now.. and chasing after that dream job isnt one of them..

ok cam bosan cakap pasal ni.. but im sure i will come back to this topic later in the future..
because whether i like it or not.. I do think about work 75% of the time..
ok maybe only 60%..
simply said, most of my time..

2. i have a girlfriend and i want to marry her

 if i still have my school and uni friends reading this, i am sure they'll go "uuuu~~~'' or "like what??!!"

haaa... what i can say right now is that I am committed.. i think this is the first time after a long time that I feel happy.. like I am in cloud nine.. I am in love!!

Maigod!! I miss her so damn much..
although now she is a bit mad at me because of some txting issue.. she saw me online and didnt reply her txt.. i was trying to fix my messed up laptop.. she saw me as online because i checked my txt when my friends txted me.. but i didnt bother to reply any of them..
ok sounds complicated.. but lets just leave it at that..

she is merajok now.. hehehe.. so comel..

owh about me wanting to marry her.. lets just wait for the wedding invitation on fb or whatever..
to be honest i am also quite amazed by the level of confidence that I have now to actually say that I love her with all my heart.. and I want to marry her.. she is on my mind all the time..
I really hope she knows that..

there's just this one thing.. she worries that I'm still not over my ex..
I am so over my ex.. if only there is something i can do or say to get rid of this worry she has..

and I have worries of her ex.. i also worry that she might still hv feelings for her ex.. that she still hasnt gotten over that mamat..

aaaaa seteress nyer (stress)... nak kawen cepat2.. i want to make her mine and i'm hers.. (wah mcm dalam true blood pulak)
x perlu nak risau2 pasal our exes ruining what we have now..

ok tetiba aku rasa sangat risau..

aaaaa....
xper.. x perlu risau kot..
I do know that Allah will help us if our intention is good, and sincere.. i know for sure mine is.. I shouldnt worry too much, yes?

semoga Allah permudahkan.. ameeenn..

ok da malas nak fikir..


3. i really dislike smug people

i really think that the title is self-explanatory..
my sincere hope and request to God is to actually protect me from these lot..
i really dislike them..
Oh god.. xtau nak cakap caner betapa x suka nya ngn orang berlagak and poyo..
pastu suka menipu lak tu.. cakap nak besar padahal menipu..
come on!! xda maruah nyer..

kalau benda betul, kau kecoh semua orang.. that is berlagak.. and that is annoying..
but if it isnt true and you brag to others.. and we actually know that your lying..
like seriusly?? come on!!

Oh Tuhan, aku bersyukur kerana Kau telah menjauhkan aku dari salah seorang manusia bangsat sebegitu.. dan aku harap ianya adalah untuk selama2nya..
Sumpah aku taknak jumper chelakadotkom tu lagi..
Go rot in hell, please..

ok aku rsa sampai di sini saja carotan aku untuk kali ni..

tak banyak carotan pon kali ni except for the bangsat.. urghhh why does it bother me?? why do i let it bother me??

ok tarik nafas... ingat Tuhan...

and ingat my sayang...

ok da happy balik..

hmm.. aku cam da ngantuk dan esok aku kerja dan kena bangun awal sbb kena catch bus ke pulau Singa.. so sehingga ke carotan seterusnya... later~~