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salam all,

actually it was last night that i felt strongly to write about this topic, but i was already mengantuk and it was late so i didnt..
i have been stalking people on facebook, looking at their photos and see what they have been up to..
not sure if it was a bad thing, but i felt sorta funny.. coz i dont normally do this stalking thingy..

the people i checked on fb were the people from my sekolah rendah, some of them my friends, some were just people i knew, i doubt that they know me, coz i think, as far as i can remember i never had any conversations with them, maybe a quick hi when we passed by each other, but never really talked, so i assume they dont know me, so thats why i didnt send friends request to them on fb last night, coz lets be honest, we werent friends pun..

well, i think i will talk about one by one of the people whom i stalked yesterday, but before i get to that, i really wonder if other people do what i do.. i think people do, maybe not everybody though, but i am pretty sure that other people also check on the people from their past on facebook.. just for fun u know.. and to see how they fair now, coz things change, as do people..
and maybe u wanna see if you're doing better than them,, haha its not a healthy thing u know to compare yourself to others.. but whatever, its just how humans are, we like to compare, we like to know if we are better or not.. hahaha... i do.. but i think i dont care much if they did better than me.. nor do i care if i did better than them.. its just nice to know..

ok banyak pulak membebel tapi x get to the point pun..

first person on my list was shuhaimi mokhtar
it started when i saw on fb that it was farah najwa mokhtar birthday.. she was my classmates from darjah 1 sampai tingkatan 3.. incredible kan..
but we were not so close pun, it was just coincidence that we were in the same class all those years.
so of course i stalked her too..
not sure if "stalk" is the right word though, i was merely checking her out, not that i do it all the time pun..
so basically shes married with a child now.. graduated from Utem, not sure if shes working now though, it looked like shes not working, stay at home mum.. maybe, thats what it looked like on her fb..
shes wearing tudung labuh now.. which is good.. good for her..

eh terdigress pulak, kan nak cakap pasal shuhaimi..
hes her brother actually..
xtau la nak cakap caner, but i admired him.. hes 2 years older than me.. i first noticed him when i was darjah 4, he was darjah 6 and he was the head student.. if im not mistaken, that year he was the best student.. dia ketua pengawas (head student).. and that one day i saw him talking to a teacher in english and i was just in awe,. hahaha funny kan.. time kecik2, something so simple and maybe silly like that, i can still remember..
sepanjang darjah 4 tu i had utmost respect for shuhaimi mokhtar, its as if he was this perfect person who couldnt do any wrong to me.. i was soooo kanak2 kan.. its funny to think about it now..
it has been years that i didnt hear anything about him.. last i heard was that he continued his study in the US, and that was that.. i lost contact with farah najwa, even more her brother..
so with facebook, it allowed me to find out about shuhaimi now..
so according to facebook, he now has 2 kids, and he married nurliyana khairuddin, penolong ketua pengawas back in school.. i will talk about her later.. coz she too was someone i respected and looked up to..
back to shuhaimi, according to linked in, he is now a project engineer at a local company, but its not a big nor a famous company though.. hes been with the company for 5 years, so i guess hes a senior engineer now..
and from facebook, i found his blog.. which is no longer active.. the last post was on 2008.. and he doesnt write in is blog, he just post pictures..

ok next person i wanna to talk about is his wife, nurliyana khairuddin, she was penolong ketua pengawas, and an extremely clever girl.. i find it so fulfilling that she married shuhaimi though coz they seem perfect for each other..
according to facebook, shes not working anywhere, but i think maybe its because she doesnt update her fb religiously..
shes clever and brilliant, i cant imagine why shed give away her talent and gifts.. but whatever la kan, its her life..

ok moving on to the next person is izyan syaswani khairuddin, and yes shes nurliyana younger sister.. shes the same age with me..
i think i did talk about izyan in my old blog, where i mentioned she was studing medicine in Australia..
so from nurliyana's facebook, i found izyan's page.. so apparently shes married since dec 2011 and currently living in Melbourne with her husband.. from her photos, i didnt see any baby photo.. biasanya orang mesti nak post gambar anak2 kalau ada anak2 kan.. but not with her.. so i assumed that shes still childless, mungkin belum ada rezeki.. and shes wearing tudung labuh as well.. which is something i find so gratifying..
back in school, the kids and even teachers always compared me to izyan, coz the closeness of our names to each other.. and maybe i was the only person who ever beat her in exam.. well, it was not really a win though, its just that in that exam i got 5As(UPSR subjects) and she only got 4As.. but if based on cumulative scores by percentage, hers was like >95% while mine was like somewhere 80% ~ 85%
whatever la, i still take proud in that achievement.. huhu..
not sure where izyan works now though, i think shes a doctor in australia.. very deserving..

ok next person whom i stalked last night was sherhan fariz tan. sedap kan nama dia.. if im not mistaken her dad was a mualaf la.. was or is?? ntah.. whatever la.. so sherhan ni muka china la sbb mmg darah mixed kan..
dia budak lompat pasal dia lepas pts, so hes 1 year younger than me.. back in school he was tiny, and comel, and very kind person..
no photos on his fb though, none that was not private, sames goes to his instagram..
from linked in i found that hes working for PR1MA doing Building information Modelling.. i dont really know what that is though.. and hes married with a child, i think.. based on his tweets..

out of all the people whom i checked on, hes the only one whos more active on social media.. the others are not.. for some reasons they are not as expressive as i thought they would be..or they could be.. coz these people were brilliant people, people whom i admired and looked highly of..
its like, they live their lives quietly and not contributing to the goods of other people.. they can do so much better..

well, maybe they do help people, its just that i dont know about it.. coz maybe they are the kind of people who do not make their good deeds known to public.. bukan jenis orang yg suka menghebah2kan kebaikan derang..
this is me thinking positive of them.. like i should..

i suddenly feel less motivated to continue this post.. it wouldve been more bersemangat and bersungguh2 had i written this post last night.. huhu.. it is what it is.. i still feel good that i write it, atleast i write about it.. and not just let it slip my mind..
coz memory fades u know.. maybe it a few years i will no longer know or remember of this thing..

they are so many other people whom id like to check on facebook and other social media platforms..
maybe i will, in the future, when i feel like it.. and write another blog post about it..

huhu, post yg byk membebel dan cam xda point sangat.. tapi whatever la ni kan blog aku, sukati aku la kan..

kla, nak gi berry, bye~~

Salam, hello and hola to all..

my last post was over 2 months ago, surely heaps of stuffs have happened in my life, i just didnt have the time nor the mood to blog about them.
anyhow i am here to write about it ,altho i really dont feel up to it but whatever..
and also, i want to try writing Tun M style where he would number his sentences so they're easy to track? i guess..

1. Right now i am at offshore, on-board of crew ship Sarku Santubong which is currently in the gulf of thailand.. I am working at CPOC JKB Platform. My scope as telecom engineer is not much, fairly easy and so far there isnt any huge issue that i cannot handle. so far work at offshore for JKB, its all good.

2. I resigned from Omega Integration and now working for Sapura Kencana Petroleum. To be more specific, its Kencana Pinewell S/B a subsidiary of SKP. I started with SKP on 21 September, basically 1 month ago.

3. I came to offshore on 19 October, around 1 week ago and so far so good. Onshore, i work in the office at Solaris Dutamas, a fancy place it is. Work at the office is kinda boring, nothing much to do. mostly check vendor documents and comment. go to meeting with vendor and client. lots of emails for clarifications. joining tender, preparing jobcard and checking MTOs. So basically these are all new things that i didnt do at Omega and i had to learn them. So far so good.. how hard could it be pun kan. At offshore, its easier.. all i do is prepare drawings and permit, tell the team to do this and that, like fabricare support, do midification, do fit up, and get the manpower, like to erect scaffolding, erect habitat and request welder etc.. for now these are the things ive done, and i know there are still loads for me to learn and catch up.. i am not worried nor am i in a rush so i will take it slow, one thing at a time and insyallah i'll be fine.

4. before i came offshore my wife and i went to do the 3d 4d scan and i took a video when the doctor did ultrasound scanning to see the baby.. and although we planned not to find out the gender of the baby, it was obvious coz the baby was terkangkang and we could see its tiny penis.. its a boy ladies and gentlemen.. my little baby boy.. cant wait to see the little guy.. i promise to be the best dad i can be, insyaallah.. other than that, the baby is healthy, the doctor managed to see all the organs, the heart, brain, spine, and the limbs etc.. the baby is healthy and normal, Alhamdulillah for that.

5. ok now i wanna talk about something not so pleasant, it is unpleasant to me, and i feel really annoyed by it. On whatsapp i am in this chat group dedicated for OISB service team, and lately i just feel rather annoyed by this chat group, by their conversation. and yes i ignore them, but its still annoying coz they keep coming back. for now i will try to ignore and not let it bother me, but i think soon i'll just quit the chat group.. i got nothing to lose.. why am i not doing it now? like right away? its because i dont want people to misunderstand,. as long as i can tolerate it, i will.

6. a few nights ago i had a discussion with Raul about ASB, that bitch is rich now coz he goes offshore so often he must have tens of thousands of savings now and i told him to buy a house and get married soon..
ok i digressed.. the topic of discussion at first was about ombak and castle, but then turned into a discussion about asb loan.. he told me asb loan is less profitable compared to if you save monthly on your own.. and we argued and he shared with me his spreadsheet.. one thing he forgot to take into account is that, when you save the money monthly, you still need to deduct the amount you saved coz it is still money out of your pocket. He deducts the amount paid for the loan but he forgot to deduct the amount saved.. well its understandable coz people often misunderstand and dont see the whole thing clearly.. so i just would like to say here, taking the ASB loan is not a loss, it may give the bank whole load more money but on our side, we still gain profits.

7. Ombak and castle. I wanted to talk about this a few nights ago when it mattered.. but now it dont anymore.. its actually easy to get rid of it actually, just dont think about it.. do something else unrelated entirely.. and before u know it, its in the past.. but being realistic, i know that a few nights ago was not the last of the ombak, i will be hearing about it in the future, not sure soon or not but surely it'll come back. and its just something i have to live with.. something i grew up with.. some people may call it a curse, but i dont want to be so negative about it.. i wont call it a curse, it is what it is and id like to think of it as something thats helped me in my life, and taught me to be strong and independent.
oh boy, had it been 10 years ago, i wouldve written a few pages long about it and make a big deal out of it.. i am old, i dont do that anymore..
Ombak and Castle is apart of my life then, now and forever..

8. On facebook, i always wish people on their birthday. Yesterday was the birthday of Chip, or his real name Zulfadli zulkifly, a friend of mine in Auckland, who died last year. I am not sure he died of what, but my point is.. when i saw the fb reminder of his birthday, i wanted to wish him, but then i remember that he's dead. i felt really sad instantaneously.. TBH i was not that close to chip back in Auckland, just normal friends. He was a good person, everybody liked him..
I went to his fb page and saw that his wife still post stuff and tagged him.. like when their daughter turned 1, and the anniversary of this death.. reading her posts made me teary eyed.. i dont know how to describe this feeling.. she loves him..misses him surely.. she's a strong woman.. and he died when she was pregnant with their child.. ohmy i cant hold my air mata anymore.. i ma teriak like a lil girl coz im so sad..

9. ok enough with that crying, lets talk about food and eating. I plan to take my wife and my in laws to eat Seoul Garden at CS when i get back to onshore, maybe take a few days of leave and just chill at home huhu..

10. I miss my wife so much.. no words can say it enough.. haih but thats life, we dont always get what we want kan.. i realize that im not a royal prince or whatever who doesnt have to work for a living, i am a commoner and i have to work.. so thats it..

11. maybe in the future if Allah wills it, i can work for my self, start a small business or something like that.. but knowing me, i dont see that happening anytime soon.. not that i dont like doing business.. but if i were to start a business, i want something that i can grow into, meaning that i dont want to start business kedai runcit or kedai makan coz its not something that you can develop..  Engineering company is maybe a viable options, but there are so many things to consider, to study and to research on.. not to mention, its very risky, especially in todays economy.
i dont want to stress out about it, if its meant to be it will be.

12. my house progress. we had engaged contractors to do reno at our house in Pulai. nothing major, only the kitchen cabinet, cornice and wiring, also the grille for the entire house.. also my wife went to Jakel for the house curtains.. in total, we spent around 25k for these renovations, mostly went to kitchen cabinet RM14k.. mahal gila kan.. pengsan jap.. when i get back onshore i will go check the condition and if its all good, make the final payment. I pray to God that its all good.

13. rumah segambut. before i left for orrshore, i was checking out a house in Segambut. its a flat house, 3 rooms 2 bedrooms i found on mudah.my. the house surrounding was kinda scary to be honest, but the house conditions were not bad. an old chinese lady is currently staying there.. the house is priced at 90k on mudah. if i had the money i wouldve taken the house then and there.. but i didnt.. the money i have now are to pay for the house renovations in JB.. huhu.. gotta be realistic there.. maybe next year i will have the extra money for a new house in KL, Gods willing, insyaallah ada rezeki tu.. rezeki baby mungkin..

14. I have registered maxis fiber at wangsa maju my parents house. haha sangat excited ye people.. i know that its been around since 2012, but only now i get to do that coz before i didnt stay with my parents but now i do. ok lepas ni boleh dah dok melayan movie kat playboxhd tu sampai lebam, layan tv series, layan anime, layan cartoons.. JK, i dont watch cartoons no more huhu.. right now my nephew si aiman tu mesti tgh syok sbb dpt download game2 dia kat ipad tu, dpt tgk movie2 tu semua.. suka la kau.. huhu.. darn it lagi 2 minggu baru aku balik umah.. takpe, sabar separuh iman.. huhu

15. ok saje nak share kisah internet kat atas kapal ni.. i think dia punya bandwidth is 1mbs coz at night when noone is using the internet ( i assume noone la coz when i checked the speed it was 3am in the morning).. 1mbs is not fast, but for emailing and stuff should be fine la.. but i am such a "deal" coz i opened torrent on my phone and download stuff, download antm la, download tbbt, oitnb, modern family.. hahaha segala2 aku download.. walaunpun the average download speed is really slow like 10kbs, i just leave it running and after several hours 1 episode is done downloading.. haha i just cant live without internet, can i? the funny thing is, these people had changed the wifi password coz they though too many people using slows down the internet speed, little did they know the culprit is me, coz my torrent hogs the bandwidth.. hahaha i am evil.. but sometimes i stop the download tho, when the internet is really slow.. like right now.. i just do the download at night..

16. ok susah nak iron rambut kat sini.. i do it in the morning when people are still sleeping and i had to go to surau to do that.. ok gigihkan.. random gila kan update pasal iron rambut.. kbye..

17. ok now kat fb tgh tgk org eksesais dia tunjuk transformasi badan dia dari gempal2 jadi ketul2 dan sado.. damn i feel so sedih about my body.. this reminds of a few weeks ago i during sembahyang jumaat, i met CashRazak who was sitting in front of me in the masjid.. gila bagak tangan dia besar macam kayu balak, he was wearing a tight shirt with kain pelikat. mesti rumah dia dekat2 je dgn mesjid wilayah tu.. on instagram i saw him driving an audi A5, tapi haritu aku x nampak pulak dia naik kereta apa.. xkan la nak follow dia sampai ke kereta pulak kan.. crazy stalker much.. besides, i was with faqihudding haritu naik motor dia gi mesjid sesama.. and we had nasi kukus ayam rempah tepi masjid for lunch, he said dia dgn matyenk always makan sana on Friday..
ohmygod randomnyer cerita aku..

allright, sampai di sini saja la kot.. aku nak ke platform tgk progress of my stuff seeing now the rain has stopped.. till next time.. smell ya later~~