Tuesday 27 June 2017

bosan nyo xda keje

Wednesday 20170628 0857
I am at work now, got nothing to do.. well actually I think I have some things to do but because I am new here I am not quite sure how to do it..
Well to be fair I am unable to do it coz I don’t have the info.. lelz.. but I should follow up w the senior engineer regarding the info.. we need to prepare all the documents for tender pre qualification, company track record, financial statements, expertist, legal declaration etc.. which I don’t have the info of.. however I have asked Punitha the senior sales person for this document, she asked me to let me know what I needed but im pretty sure she has the list of documents already but I will ask again, email her with the attachment.
My so called boss/team leader had just walked in, I feel kind of nervous for no reason.. maybe because last week he had asked me to get the docs from Punitha but hmm.. I already asked.. but nvm.. I could’ve emailed her last week but I was hesitating, maybe I was shy, also I thought that she already knew what documents are needed.. but nvrtheless I shouldnve hesitated, and should’ve just done it..
Put that aside, I already email her about 10 seconds ago.. lelz..
So what should I talk about now?
Since there are so many, I will put in point form only
1.       I have quit Sapura and now working as sales engineer at infiniteql sdn bhd in PJ
2.       My wife has secured a job in KL(TTDI) and we are looking for a house in KL to rent
3.       My wife and I made tiramisu for the 1st time and it tasted heavenly
4.       I bought a leegoo handphone from cjwowshop for rm399, instalment by maybank credit card
Hmm nak tulis ni pun rasa malas.. sebab nak tulis ni tadi pasal x nak bosan kat office tp tulis ni pun rasa cam bosan jugak je..
Aku risau sbb mcm aku rasa bertanggungjawab nak kena compile document untuk tender oxley klcc tu tapi aku takleh nak proceed tanpa bantuan cik Punitha kita.. adoi yai.. rasa sangat x best sbb kena bergantung pada orang lain untuk dptkan apa kita nak tu.. aku cam ada satu rasa yg kurang enak, like ada something bad yang pending to happen, something bad happening to me.. impending danger/catastrophe, one that’s related to this job..
Owh random thing, just now zhariq txt me asking if I wanted to pergi beraya at his house and I said “macam x je”
Thinking that I will be working today and tomorrow and will only be available malam, coz I finish work at 6pm and prolly will reach home at 7pm, so mana la nak ada masa dan tenaga nak pergi ke kajang beraya rumah nye tu..
I feel like I am a responsible person, to a certain extent coz right now all I can think about is to get the documents required for the tender.. which is bugging me and I don’t like it.. maybe I shouldn’t even feel bugged but I do.. theres a part of me that questions why even bother, and then theres another part that says I should coz this is my job, my sole source of income and I shouldn’t fuck it up, hence the bother and care and want to do well in this job..
Then theres another part that says, don’t worry if u suck at this job u can look for another job which could be less sucky and more enjoyable but it could also be the other way around.. don’t worry, u can still look for other jobs..
Worst case scenario is that even after so long time of looking but none is available or none is suitable..
But then again, if the job here is so great that I wudnt want to be looking for other job opportunities, am I right?
So I decide not to worry too much, just do my job, do what is right, do not play truant, ask when not sure, and learn as much and as fast as I can.. cuz I am sure when I can perform the job on my own without asking or bothering other people so much, I will enjoy doing this job

Okla cukup2 la tu meroyan nnt nak tulis lagi.. bye..

owh lupa nak add tadi, kami beli rumah jalilmas, kena bayar 10% downpayment so skrg kami pokai dan x dpt nak pergi berjalan ke europe, dan saving aku da habis rm25k disebabkan forex durjana tersebut 
kbai..