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Not sure but I feel like I want and need to vent today, this Monday morning
Maybe because its Monday and I have the worst Monday blues.. last Friday was a public holiday, the 16th of September.. meaning I have been off work for 3 days.. and that would entail the next working day, which is today.. my mood for work would be non existent.
Hence, this strong need to just write things out.. although I am not exactly sure what topic I want to bebel today.. maybe just some random things.. so whatever comes to mind la eh.
GV
So last night being a Sunday night, the first concert for GV9 took place
Okay2 je la.. takda la gempak sangat.. I watched the whole show and I am quite entertained ler.. biasa2 jer.. as expected jaclin victor got 1st place for the 1st show ni.. but I think her performance biasa2 saja.
Other than Jaclyn, I am also rooting for bob mesra.. and I agree with what shafinaz said about bobs talent being underappreciated.
That’s just how the world is kan.. anyhow, I hope bob will do better and place better in following weeks.
Mcm xda apa yang menarik sangat pun pasal GV, but it’s the 1st thing on my mind so here it is.
RPDR Down Und
So the 2nd season of Down Under RPDR just concluded last Saturday and I am content with the winner.. I have even posted an IG story about it.. spankie Jackson was not my 1st pick.. if anyone, it was probably kween kong.. but over the course of the season, seeing how it unfolded, there is no denying that spankie deserves the win
I also like the storyline she carried with her.. about moving back to Palmerton north from 12 years in Melbourne just so she could take care of her dad.. about her working with children.. I feel like that’s a plus point.. and how she sees herself after coming back to palmy, where the drag scene is probably none, compared to Melbourne.
But above all, I am happy because again, it’s a winner from NZ.. although Aus is known to have major drag scene, much bigger than NZ I guess.. when kita mean won the 1st season, I thought this is odd, and probably may never happen again.. now with 2 winners from NZ, surely they will boast about it comes the 3rd season.. and I am sure Aus will win the next season.
Even kween kong is from south Auckland nz.. although originally shes from samoa/tonga.. but she said shes worked in south Auckland before..or lived there.
Okla enough about that.. next!
The below section is written on 20 sept 2022.. I stopped halfway yesterday coz I had some work to do.. so I am resuming it today coz ive got some other things to talk about
Living as a single pare
I feel like I shouldn’t even write about this.. but since its been on my mind quite often these days so I just write je lah.. lagipun, I don’t see the harm in it.. its not that I wish for it.. its something on my mind, and I just want to get it out jer..
Coz right now my wife is pregnant with out 3rd child and I cant help to shake this thought what if the undesirable happen and I am left to raise our 3 children on my own.
Omg to be honest I am scared.. and worried.. that’s a HUGE responsibility.. I don’t even want to think about it.. but being a reasonable and practical person, I feel like I should give it a thought.
How would my life be if that was to happen kan.. lagipun, death is a confirmed thing, Cuma lambat atau cepat je.. so we shouldn’t really fear death, hence having this thought is probably a good thing.. atleast I have this little preparation.
Will I still be working or will I be a stay at home dad? I think I will still go to work as usual.. life has got to go on la kan.. no matter how hard and challenging... but I think I will probably take a month leave kot... I dunno
What breaks me the most is when I think about my daughter who is so manja with her ibu and that will be devastating, when she misses her mother and asks where her mother is.. I will surely menangis meraung2 nanti.. but I have to be strong for them.. and teach them about takdir and qada and qadar.. verily, everything that happens is Gods will and we have to have faith that it’s the best for us.
And I will teach my children and tell them to always send prayers to their mom, each time solat.. insyallah doa anak2 beriman akan sampai ke ibu bapa mereka.
Another question that’s on my mind.. will I remarry?
For now I don’t think I will.. but at the same time I am not one to oppose takdir and jodoh.. if I am destined to remarry, and theres someone who can accept me flaws and all, then I will.. but I wont be looking for it la.. if it happens, it happens.. mcm tu je.
Where will I be staying?
I am not sure, I think I will just stay at jalilmas.. maybe I will ask my parents to stay with me.. or maybe I will move back to wangsa maju.. well it depends, most probably will move to wangsa maju and see how things are.. I think it will be to hard for me to live in RJ coz theres too much memories… so better move to wangsa maju.. if not comfortable then I will move back to jalilmas.. lagipun I feel bad coz if I moved to wangsa maju, it will be burdening my mak to take care of my children pulak.. but at the same time, I will be with my parents to look after them.. anak2 I will send them to school la.. xda la dok umah jer.. so this one is quite hard.. but like I said.. if we come to that bridge, then only we will cross it.. for now I guess, I will probably move to wangsa maju with anak2.
What will I do with my wifes belonging?
I guess I will donate the good ones to charity.. like her clothes, shoes, bags etcetra.. or if my parents in law or her sisters want them, I will just give to them la kot.. kereta arus tu I will continue using la kot.. takda la nak jual ke.. pakai je lah… kereta putih tu maybe aku akan jual.. walaupun sayang, tapi nak buat apa pulak ada byk2 kereta kan
Owh lupa pulak… what about the money from the takaful and insurance?
I think I will just dump them in ASB je la kot and let it grow… kalau ada lebih I will buy another property with cash money and just rent it out… atleast ada la continued income.. itu je la kot
Okla cukup2 la tu fikir pasal bende ni.. lets move to another topic pul
Living overse
Ni pun da banyak kali terlintas kat kepala.. I think me and my wife pernah je have conversations about it.. and we both want to, cuma maybe not now.. coz our parents are still living, and I think seelok2 nya we should spend as much time as possible with them.. maybe in the future when they are no longer with us, masa tu kita dah stable, atau lebih stable.. duit savings pun da banyak, then we can really plan to live overseas
My country of choice right now is Canada.. i like the country coz its similar to NZ in many ways, and the country is known to be very welcoming to immigrants.. and its cold there.. like really cold.. I don’t know if I will like the cold when I get there.. but for now, I will choose cold over hot anytime
Another country that I kinda want to move to is probably Scotland.. yes its apart of the UK, but from what I gathered, the lifestyle in Scotland is very different compared to London.. and I prefer a non busy place for living.. but Canada is still no 1.. haha.
Talking about living overseas kan… coz at the moment both my wife and I work for MNCs
Shes with Axens and I am with Bureau Veritas, I think it will be an advantage and a plus point la should we want to seek work opportunities overseas in the future… insyallah kalau ada rezeki and opportunity, it will happen… tapi kena la kumpul experience dulu… atleast more than 5 years.. insyallah boleh
Medical Check
This talk about living overseas has made me think about the last medical checkup I had at KKKL.. I think everything is okay, except for my high cholesterol and the high level of creatine(kidney function) in my blood
The cholesterol thingy I think I know why… its because I have been eating fast food like McDonalds so often lately and very seldom workout at the gym.. so I guess I know what I have to do to bring the cholesterol level down la.. insyallah I will restrain myself from eating McDonalds for now until my cholesterol level is back to normal.. and I will do cardio every time I hit the gym.. and hopefully that will be a daily thing... one can only hope.
Another thing is the creatine level.. I think it was really high during the checkup coz I was taking this supplement creatine, which I thought would help me with my workout.. coz I read about its uses and its suppose to help with increasing strength and therefore will improve my workout sessions.
I guess, I should really change the way I see workout, previously I thought having more strength, thus lifting heavier weights is important.. I guess I was wrong.. more importantly is to do it consistently, with lighter weight... the strength will develop over time.. so okay lah.. lepas ni kita angkat ringan2 jer.. tapi takda la ringan sangat.. sesedap rasa je la.. maybe I should focus on endurance more, hence do more cardio… aku bukan nak sangat badan sado.. aku nak kurus je buat masa ni.. I really want to get rid of my belly fat.. huhu
And yes, I should have calorie deficit everyday… and that means to control what I eat… haha easier said than done, I know… but I have to try… eat more vegies and fruits.. lets go!
Owh just to share here… after the checkup, then after 2 weeks I went to see the doctor to discuss about the results… and coincidently, my dad had to do x ray at the same KKKL so I took him with me on the same day… he was done with the x-ray much earlier so I asked him and my mum to go home first, while I wait for my turn to see the doctor for my checkup
And this has caused my mum to get worried… obviously, I have never told them about my condition and me having to do this medical checkup got them really concerned, especially my mum…
I just told them about the high cholesterol and the creatine situation je lah.. and technically its not lying kan... huhu… I love my parents so much
So the next check up will be somewhere in November or December… and fingers crossed, hopefully itll be all okay by then
I guess that’s it for now… so until next time… toodles
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I guess that’s it for now… so until next time… toodles~~
