20221110 0905
Hellow gorgeous… its been a while so its befitting to rant
here today…
Currently I am at office, listening to Hafiz Hamidon Zikir
Terapi Diri because I feel like I need to…
Something within me that’s just feeling restless, unsettled…
although I am not quite sure what it exactly is… so by listening to zikir2 and
ayat2 suci Al-quran, I am hoping that it will help sooth this uneasiness that I
am feeling… tying to combat mental turmoil with calming and soothing Al-quran
recitation…
So at the same time, I just want to rant about things here…
to vent out, in the hopes to make me feel better… so lets just go talk about it
one by one…
1.
PRU15
Not sure why this topic is the first on
this list… maybe because I have been seeing and listening talk about it from
the people around me… me personally, I am not sure what I feel towards this
incoming GE… I also don’t know who I will vote for…
From the info that I have gathered so far, I
am more prone to vote for the opposition… mainly because I don’t like
corruption, and I want the country economy to flourish…
I don’t feel threatened by the non malays with regards to Hak orang
melayu or agama islam, coz I feel like whether or not this country is negara
islam, I am always gonna be Malay, and I will always be able to practice Islam,
nonetheless…
Its not like letting DAP run the country
will make the malay muslims here to suffer like those in China for example… so
yeah, all things considered, I think I will go with PH as of now… but we have 8
more days to the voting day so anything can happen kan…
Whatever the outcome I just want whats best
for the country and that’s my wish
2.
Trading
After losing about USD24k last time, it
ought to have taught me to not do this trading thingy again… but I don’t know
how to stop… but this time around I only use the money from the public mutual
account, which had experienced loss, about 10%… theres about usd500 in there…
I just think since I am not using the money
anyway, and rather than let the value of the money shrink in public mutual, might
as well I use it for trading…
This time I am using a different EA, that I
purchased from shopee… prior to using real account I used it on demo account
for a month and the performance is not bad… but I know damn well that doesn’t guarantee
anything…
I just wish that I can get some extra $$$
from trading on autopiliot and that’s it… I no longer have the wish and the
desires like previously, hoping that it will be safe and good always… coz I know
its not…
Ok next…
3.
New Baby
I am in love with my new baby girl… who is
nocturnal by the way…
She would sleep all day, only wake up to
for breastfeeding with her ibu… then would go back to sleep during the day…
only at midnight around 12am, then she would be wide awake, until around 5am,
then she would go back to sleep…
Sometimes I get up to help my wife, like
getting the baby to burp, change the diaper and singing lullaby to get the baby to sleep so the ibu can sleep too… but to no avail… aiyooo daddy give up la…
But its okay, I get the spend time with my
cute baby, and as a result daddy would be a zombie at office during the day…
Owh my baby's name is Aishah Sofea, born on
20 October 2022… when she was delivered, I saw everything… and I was scared coz
she came out being unalive, no crying, no screaming and she was grey in colour…
me and my wife didn’t say anything coz we were scared of the worst…
Then the nurse massaged her body and after
about a minute the colour turned pink and I heard her voice for the first time…
She was born at 8:35 pm, I guess it was he
sleeping time, and it still is…
What do I do to change her nocturnalness???
Maybe I will go on google and read on it later…
4.
Gerhana Bulan and doa/wishes
2 days ago, there was a moon eclipse… its
not about the phenomenon that I want to talk about… its about what I wished and
prayed for when I did the solat sunat Gerhana…
1st thing is I wish my daughter
Adawiyah to be a good and obedient little girl, to listen to her parents and to
grow up being anak solehah…
2nd thing is I prayed for
continuous and berkat rezeki from Allah for my family… also for Allah to always
bless us with feelings of having enough and not greedy…
3rd thing I prayed for work
stability, for I get to be confirmed with my current employment… for me to enjoy
and able to deliver the work smoothly, basically to have no problem related to
work la…
4th think I prayed that my
family will be safe with islam and iman until the hereafter… I think this wish
is important coz we don’t know what will happen in the future kan… sesungguhnya pengakhiran seseorang itu yg lagi penting...
5th and its also very important, to always pray for Allah's mercy... i am reminded of this video i saw on tiktok, it talks about love and mercy... muslims enter jannah not because of of their good deeds, but because of Allah's mercy... but of coz la to gain Allah's mercy we need to do good deeds la... we just to always remember to always ask for Allah's mercy.... and not to feel entitled just because we have been a practicing muslim... bukan berat pahala yang masukkan kita dalam syurga tapi belas ihsan Allah...
Owh just to say here, its not about praying
to the moon eclipse, but to ask from God… the moon eclipse is just a symbol of
God’s power… to remind ourselves that He is the almighty to allow
for such an occurrence for us to observe and therefore be reminded of His power… so tak
salah pun kalau kita nak berdoa during the moon eclipse or any other phenomenon
yang mengingatkan kita akan kekuasaan Allah…
5.
Kurzgesagt and infographic channel on youtube
Actually dah lama jugak aku came across the
channel Kurzgesagt ni… and I still don’t know how to spell it without checking
it first…
Its very informative and the videos make us
think about science and the world in general… and I just love it…
Another channel that I like is the
infographic channel… where they talk about world events, like the possibility
of WWW3 and nuclear war… they also have stories about serial killers like Jeffrey
dhamer, ted bundy and others… I first stumbled with the channel when I was
reading about Jeffrey dhamer, and its because of the series on Netflix jugak…
but now I enjoy the videos about world war more la… and its scary weh… tapi
suka tengok… pelik jugak aku ni kan…
6.
Success and envy
I don’t consider myself successful pun… I think
I just have enough and I am happy, that’s my win… lagipun it doesn’t matter
what other people think, as long as we are happy with what we have kan…
Actually I just saw on FB, my schoolmate was
just promoted to become the operating director in the company hes working with…
theres a small part of me that feels envious of him… I think its pretty normal…
I suppose other people will feel it too… but its important to not dwell in it… that’s
his life story, so dia la main character so let him be la…
We are the main character in our own story
kan… so we should focus on ourselves je lah, and stop comparing ourselves to
other people… I think that’s the key ingredient to becoming happy and contented
with the life that we have…
And to always count your blessings and be grateful…
sesungguhnya, setiap hari we have so many things to be grateful for… at the
very least, we are still alive today and we have all the time we need to work
on what makes us happy…
Cewah ayat2 penceramah motivasi sangat…
I say this, mostly as a reminder to myself
first and foremost… coz like I said, we should always focus dengan diri sendiri
dulu yer…
7.
Work
Truthfully macam xda apa2 pun nak update
pasal work…
Ada this report that I need to complete and
hopefully by today can finalize coz need to submit tomorrow…
There are new projects coming in and I have
not started on them yet… kejap lagi nak tengok la… and to plan when to complete…
Other than that, nothing else I think…
So until next time, I better should start
doing some work now… dah sejam jugak aku bebel2 kat sini…
Later~~
