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So right now I am at office. Yes, I have several tasks to do but I cannot focus on them now.
I feel sad and gloomy.
This morning I got a txt from my sister in our family Whatsapp group. She told us that her newborn Khairatun Hana, who was born on 31st December 2022 had been diagnosed with a genetic disease called Patau’s Syndrome.
Its very rare and honestly, I have never heard of this
genetic disease before.
My sister shared the article below in the whatsapp group.
and upon reading it, my heart sank. I was just so lost for
words. To say that I was feeling sad is an understatement. I can’t imagine how
she and her husband must be feeling right now. Of course, my thoughts and
prayers to both of them.
The first that came to mind is that I know that Khairatun is
an Anak Syurga, and quite honestly knowing that she belongs in heaven gives me some
comfort.
I can’t help but to wonder why Allah test us? I am pretty sure I have heard of the reasoning before in the majlis ceramah agama somewhere but I couldn’t think of any, so I googled and looked it up… and I found the articles below, and it was like a slap to my face, how could I have not known that it’s a sign of God’s love for us.
https://harakahdaily.net/index.php/2021/06/03/kenapa-kita-diuji/
I guess what is happening right now is a great reminder to me and my family, to always count our blessings…
Yes, its easier said than done but, we must always have
faith that the tests that Allah will never give us more than what we can bear…
Oklah, enough of sad stuff… lets change the topic and talk
about something else.
Lets talk about work… what a boring subject, but its on my
mind and I see why not…
So basically I was due for the confirmation of employment 2 weeks ago and I had sat down with my boss to discuss about my performance and confirmation.
He was saying all good up until that one time I was caught
looking at my phone, watching videos during office hours.
And because of that he wants to extend my probation period
for another 3 months.
I was upset of course... because to me, that is just stupid. I didn’t even try to deny the accusation because it was true. Sometimes when at work, I get bored and I would look at my phone for a few minutes before resuming work.
I personally think that as long as it does not interfere
with my work, it should be something that is acceptable. No big deal!!
But according to my boss, it was someone else who saw me watching the videos and it was not a good thin, as it might impact their perception or make them think bad of me and the team yadayada...
Honestly, I just couldn’t care less, and I really didn’t want
to argue. At least, I know there is no issue with regards to my work
performance, despite me always being clueless of what I have to do at work.
Well apparently, I am doing okay on the technical aspect of
my work.
On the disciplinary matter, it is something so easy to rectify. So I just have to suck it up and wait for another 3 months for the confirmation.
As usual, looking for the silver lining… I suppose its good
that I got the extension so I will not be able to apply for the personal loan/debt
consolidation just yet. Else, I would have spent the spare money on forex or
something useless. I am hopeless when it comes to managing my finances...
On another note, I was checking my personal email yesterday and saw this email from Linkedin about a job opportunity, a position of Senior E&I Engineer at NOV... I really wasn't planning to apply but I kept on clicking my mouse and before I know it, I had submitted the job application.
Lolz... truly, it was something I hadn't planned... and I have zero expectation whatsoever... but its fun to just berangan you know... berangan in English is day-dream... its free anyway...
I just couldn't help but to think what if I got the job?? it would definitely be a blessing and something i desperately need especially if it comes with a better paycheck... My family could really use a big helping of pay increase and extra money...
Speaking of money, right now my wife and I are struggling financially trying to save money for the new house renovation... I had collected the key from early December 2022 btw...
From the quotations from contractors and budget estimation
that we have done, we need about Rm40k to complete everything that we plan to
do.
But for the purpose of just moving in, I suppose RM30k would
be enough already and after scraping everything, from all the sources
available, we estimated that our savings could go up to RM32k, barely enough
for the moving in but that would make us vulnerable should anything bad were to
happen kan…
It is a scary thing but theres no use to worry about it too
much… lets just take it day by day and cross the bridge when the time comes…
Right now, I should focus on completing the defect inspection report, that i need to upload on the IOI Support apps to get the developer IOI to start on the defect rectification work.
That needs to happen before any renovation work takes place...
Owh btw, this Friday we plan to buy all the LED lights and ceiling fan as I want to try to install them at the new house during the weekend. Its a long weekend as Monday and Tuesday will be public holiday too due to CNY. I have never tried installing ceiling fans before so its going to be a challenge, but a challenge I am ready to accept and over nonetheless... I am sure Youtube can offer all the videos I need to learn for the installation.
Back to the topic of money & income, I had already applied to become a grab driver again. I plan to do it part time for the extra income.
Oh My God!! It is such a hassle to re-apply this time around. I had to
attend a face-to-face training, costed RM80. Then I had to do medical checkup,
another RM80. Then I had to go to JPJ for the application of PSV license,
costing another Rm30. Then I had to submit all the documents.
I have done all that, now waiting for Grab to process and
give me the EVP number.
In all honesty, I have already forgotten how to do this grab driver thingy. The last time that I did grab was in January of 2018, that is 5 years ago.
But fret now, I am sure I can always ask grab or just attend
some refresher training from Grab should I need it. I plan to start doing grab
in February. And I plan to do it at night and during the weekend, with
expectation to earn about Rm500 per month.
I don’t want to expect too much, I think its better to be more reasonable and target something that is attainable, so I don’t get frustrated and quit easily…. Hahaha…
Owh, I am suddenly reminded of the trading training that I had
last week via zoom.
It was by WR Trader and I paid RM100 for the training, if
not mistaken.
It was a 2.5 day online training and I believe what I gathered during the session is worth the RM100 that I spent.
Initially I thought that FCPO trading is something that can
be done if you have small capital and fund but boy was I so wrong.
From the trainer’s explanation of the trading mechanics, it
is estimated that one must have at least RM30k to do the trading comfortably. And
this Rm30k should be something that you are willing to lose, a spare Rm30k in
your savings that you can afford to spend.
Upon hearing that, my face went like this
But I know and understand why the need for such an extravagant
capital, as the cost per point is RM25, and the chart movement per day is 200 –
250 points. You can’t expect having a few hundreds RM would suffice, can you??
But you know what, maybe one fine day when I have the extra
money to spend, I will give it a try on the FCPO trading… but until that day
comes, bye bitch!!!
Last night I had a weird dream, I went to the UK with dino and Erwan and we had hamburgers there. It was such a weird and random dream.
I have never been to the UK, and in the dream, the weather
was rainy and gloomy, and it reminded me of Auckland at times… especially during winter...
Anyway, after ordering the burgers, I realized that I didn’t
have any cash with me and I tried paying using my credit card but the
transaction couldn’t go thru, needed some authorizations or something… and my
phone doesn’t work as I didn’t have a UK simcard… so I had to borrow from Dalino
some cash to pay for the burger… Dalino was behaving quite outlandish, almost
like a robot and he suddenly fell head down to the pavement… so random kan???
Then I planned to visit Ali in Manchester and looked at the
maps and it was a 9-hours drive from the hamburger place… then I woke up…
speechless, I was dumbfounded by the randomness of that dream.
Another random story, last night I watched Puss in Boots the
Last Wish. I had downloaded the movie from YTS a few days ago and only had the
chance to watch it with my family last night.
All in all, it’s a good family and I thoroughly enjoyed it.
Owh, another random sharing here… My wife had given birth to our 3rd child on 20th October 2022, after about 60 days after the baby only we had our husband & wife thing…
So weirdly, she is yet to bleed, yet to have her menstrual cycle. Both my wife and I are quite scared and thought of the possibility that maybe another bun is in the oven after only 3 months of the 3rd childbirth… so this morning she took a pregnancy test and it was a single line.
Truth be
told, I didn’t know what to expect. If it was meant to be, then I will accept
and love the child, albeit being a huge challenge…
But now after knowing the results of the pregnancy test, I
feel kind of sad… and thinking of Khairatun, it makes me even sadder…
But sad I must not continue to be… she is an Anak Syurga, so
Alhamdulillah for that… I hope I get the chance to meet and hold her before anything bad happens... insyallah!!
Oklah, enough of random stories… lets try to do some work
today and be productive, shall we??
Till next time… toodles~~
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